The Origin Of Joichiro Hyakuzawa: Part 13
*Joichiro Hyakuzawa's POV*
//September 19, 2036//Friday//
"That's right… I still need to go to school…"
It was already 9:00 am… And… And…
I don't feel like going…
"Fuck…"
I'm late anyway, and when I go to school, my friends from before will just treat me like shit. I also don't want to see Asami's face after I just watched that video. Ken… He was taking the people I love one by one…
I have nothing left at that school…
What's the point of going to a school where it will just hurt me?
I went back home and stared at the door before entering inside.
"JUST KILL YOURSELF PLEASE!!!"
I remembered what Asami said in the video earlier. Maybe I should just end my life? Maybe I should just do it? After everything that has happened to me for the past four months, I am getting tired of it. It was killing me on the inside.
I'm tired…
Jealousy, fear, anger, and sadness… I am feeling all of those things for the past four months… I'm tired…
I don't have anyone left… I have lost everything… I don't want to live anymore…
This crippling pain… It's hurting me more as time passes by. It is making me weak, and numb… It was destroying me physically, and mentally…
I'm tired… Everything in my life is done for…
The moment I will enter this house… I will end my life once, and for all…
And right when I was about to open the door, it opened by itself.
And I was stunned to see who that person was.
"AAAAH! B-BIG BRO!"
"R-Rui…"
My little sister was right in front of me.
"O-OI!!! I CAN EXPLAIN!!!"
What is she talking about?
"Well… Ehehehe, I overslept, and realized that I am late for class." Rui said while scratching her head.
"Oh… Yeah… School…"
"AH!!! Why did you come back here? Hehehehe… I think I have an ally that was also late for school, ay?
Rui patted my shoulder while she was chuckling like a naughty troublemaker.
That's right… We need to go to school… But… After everything that I have endured over these past months, and the video that I saw earlier… I…
"Hey, Big Bro."
Rui lifted her feet up to reach me, and patted my head. I looked at Rui who has a worried look on her face.
"Are you okay?"
That's right, I don't know what I look like right now. Everyone who has seen me earlier was also concerned about me. I wonder..? Why are they treating me like this..?
But… For Rui's sake… She shouldn't know what I am going through…
"Yeah, don't worry about it…"
"Oh… Okay then…"
I walked right past Rui, and headed to my room.
They said that what you are feeling inside you is also shown on the outside. I was curious, and looked at the mirror right away.
"Oh… So that's why…"
Dead, and hurt on the inside… That's what I am feeling… My eyes were dead, and my tears were dried up all over my face.
I look horrible…
I sat down on my bed, and looked at the floor. I was so stressed out that I started feeling a lot of things. My sight was getting fuzzy, and my ears were tingling. It feels like I was about to vomit when I recall all those bad things that happened to me.
Maybe I should just die because of what is happening to me. I'm tired… I give up… Why did I even do to deserve this? I haven't done anything wrong in my life. But… I lost everything…
I lost…
"Hey, Big Bro…"
Everything…
At that moment, I realized that not everything was gone when I saw who the person was standing right in front of me.
"Are you really okay?"
The one who I swore to protect. This girl with a loud mouth that I am tired of seeing every day. That's right… Rui Hyakuzawa, my little sister…
She is still here for me…
"R-Rui…"
But…
"Hey, I'm not going to turn a blind eye to you. You know that class started, and you just went to your room? What the fuck?"
You really don't change, do you, Rui? Even if you are worried about me you still have that foul mouth of yours. But, yeah… I really do appreciate your concern… But…
I don't want you to know about what I have been through over these past four months.
"Don't worry about me… I said I'm fine… Just go to school-."
"Hey…"
Rui crouched down and looked at me.
"Family is more important than some school. I noticed right away that something is wrong when I saw you. What's the problem?"
"It's nothing…"
Don't worry about me, Rui… Just go away, and go to school for crying out loud. I promised our parents that I am going to protect you, and I don't want to show this pathetic side of mine to you.
You don't need to know. Seeing you happy is all that matters. That's right, as your brother, it is my job to protect you.
So don't mind me…
"Hey… Tell me…"
Rui held my head and gently stuck her forehead into mine. She looked down and closed her eyes while she was talking to me.
"We are family, right?"
Just stop asking me… It's none of your business…
"I know that… But that doesn't mean you should know everything about me…" I said.
"What are you talking about? The two of us have been together right after mom, and dad died."
I know that… But stop… It's none of your concern…
"We have been relying on each other ever since-."
"I TOLD YOU TO FUCKING STOP!!!"
I had enough of what Rui was saying, and the next thing I knew was I pushed my little sister away on the floor.
"Rui… Just stop… Leave me alone…"
It's over… I know how Rui will react to what I did. She would be angry for sure, and she will leave me alone. But that's fine, she doesn't need to know this. Rui shouldn't know…
"Big Bro…"
But I was wrong…
Rui stood up after she fell when I pushed her, and hugged me.
"We got each other's back… You can tell me everything."
After what Rui just said, I started tearing up once again.
"R-Rui…"
"Big bro, it's fine…"
She patted the back of my head once again, and hugged me more tightly.
"I'm your little sister, and I know that you have been through a lot even if you are not saying anything. But, Let me also carry that burden that you have inside you."
I couldn't contain it anymore… I couldn't endure it… And at that moment… A thing that I wouldn't expect to do in front of my little sister… I cried while hugging her.
"WHAAAHHH!!!"
Even though I cried like a little baby, she didn't mind it at all. Even if I soaked her uniform with my tears, she didn't care.
My friends, my girlfriend, and the people I trust betrayed me in the end, and made me suffer like this. But, I realized that not all things were lost. My little sister, my little sister who was the only family I have left…
Rui Hyakuzawa is now the only person who is here for me.
******** TO BE CONTINUED ********