lost_inrealworld11

hey you yeah you try this story. 

this will be short story most probably of 20 chapters. about A girl ,who only have 15 days to live die to cancer writes her diary for last 15days how she is spending them what are her feelings.

and if you fear death or something like that then please don't read and I don't wanna hurt someone feeling by writing this story. this is a just a FICTION. OKAY

LAST 15 DAYS

today I am in hurry I am writing this before time ,before surgery. 


honestly I don't have any kind of thoughts or feeling or I can say I have all sort of feelings 


is it obvious to remember all the old memories you know maybe I am overthinking .


Though I wanted to die like forever but now I don't want too 


I wonder was that feeling was just fraction of tension, Or maybe I was sooo into you know flow of sad emotion where I found death as a answer.


Though I thought I'll have peace once I die, Or anywhere I know I am Dieing there will be happiness why why this heart is beating so fast trying to survive, trying it's best to act strong. Am I just afraid of death or the fact that if I die I have study from the scratch on my next life. 


 this last moment of my life feels like revision of whole book just before exam and Bitch I didn't studies for year type situation. 


all those moments and memories I felt are so little my happy memories are so less but now they look more permanent. 


everyone has something to confess. I will do too cause it's almost 12pm and surgery is at 3 pm so you know. 


actually about my medical terms it was all fine until one day I decided to sucide,


(authors note::: this is just a story and I don't support sucide and self harm things I just wanna say it's okay find a person to talk.talking really helps even if u want you can talk to me I won't promise but will try my level best to be your ears. pls pls don't take step like sucide you all are unique and I just love ya  even though no one comment on this stry. )


i almost did I drank a poison in the terrace of my school where I was not alone,like I went on terrace and saw a girl same age as me crying I asked here whats the matter she just said everything to me she asked me whats the matter to me I said everything to her and we both decided to drink it but that girl couldn't and I did it. 


she dropped in shock ,I would have died if a guy who came to smoke up wouldn't have found us.


I was taken to hospital she was in custody 


then I woke up after 1 day and I was asked what happened that day I said it clearly everything and rest is the police things and investigation. 


I was ashamed to face anyone from my family and a phycarist was appointed for me she helped me alot to realize the true fact of my life .


that was by Dieing I may be free but I will pass on that pain, make those to suffer who love us  and dont deserve that pain. 


Theres nothing that can't help we can restart on every day, it's okay if no one said you are beautiful, because nature adores us they says us beautiful by shining light on us and by many unnoticed ways. 


there were many thing I learned but I guess it was too late when doctors said I had  less time to live maybe in next life i will not do things like this 


mom dad if you ever read this I am sorry I just love you.


you never know your own worth until it's a peak of end that doesn't means die and check weather Someone loves you or not.


DAY 10