08 - A Virgo’s Shame and Regret

There are too many expressions on Love by individuals. Popular examples are, "Love is a game", "Love is blind" etc. My take on this subject is, "Love is beautiful yet a wicked sickness".

There he was, witnessing the last chance he got to see the love of his life. As a matter of fact, because of his childish pride yet naivety mindset of not being sensible of its own folliness, leading to its own demise of understanding the emotion of love.

As with the saying of, "Only when you lose something, you understand how precious it was to you". The undulations of your regret are nothing but a self-comfort to oneself yet it is precisely this regret of your life that cause you to understand whether you truly came to love that person.

Everyone has their own stories but I hope some of you can perceive and relate to mine.

There he was, thinking of a king of himself, being able to seduce any women to him and make her fall over her heels for him; truly despicable egomaniac. And yet, he had never expected his first love would be his last. He courted her and manipulated her pure and maiden thinking of finally arriving to her Prince Charming. He observed and acted to the type of her ideal and eventually used his intellectual to manipulate her to falling in love with him. A mere 3 months was all it took for him to became bored of the emotion Love is. Simply, he ended the relationship. Ironically, this is why he had changed to the individual he is now. With each passing day, he slowly started to have more and more dreams of witnessing himself with her and he would shed tears of unknown reason to himself. He did not know what was happening to him till he found out this past person had became broken because of his actions.

Anyways, today was the last day he had an opportunity to see her for the last time because they both graduated. The man was an award recipient. He had to went up the stage to receive them and give a speech. This was his chance and he took it, only to steal glances at her for the very last time in his life.

When the man concluded with his speech, "Thank you", for some unknown reason, his inner emotions started to break down albeit his outer appearance with only him shedding a tear.

That was the best gift he had gotten.

The man quickly left while no one knows how he is truly feeling. Only he himself had known they were impossible to patch, only for his heart to have a silver of hope, wishing for another ending he frequents in his dreams.

The man now knows the excruciating punishment to him was not losing her but only to eternally remember her everything in his heart.

Unbeknownst to him, the female had also shed tears.