ONE MORE DAY 6

Quotes: AND WHEN MY TODAY ARE DONE AND MY TOMORROW IS NO MORE I WILL BE RUNNING TO YOUR SMILE AS YOU AWAIT AT HEAVEN GATE.

           DIDO; DON'T LEAVE HOME

(Like a ghost don't need a key

Your best friend I have come to be

Please don't think of getting up from me

You don't even need to speak

When I've been here for just one day

You already miss me if I go

So close the binds and shut the doors

You won't need other friends anymore

Oh don't leave home

Oh don't leave home)

I stayed with them for days, days turned weeks weeks turned month but the hurt and wound in my heart was fresh , all I did  was cry my tears has become the water that quenched  my thirst and one night I just played on the bed watching the snow fall reminding me of the day marco and I practice skating.

    Oh marco, if tears could bring you back by now you should be close to the gate of life and death if not probably out. I immediately weep the tears that flowed down my face as I heard aunty lucy come in, I didn't want her to see me crying it hasn't been easy on them lately watching me cry and not being able to do anything about it.

           "Alice dear are you awake"

            "Yes" I sat up looking at her as she comes in with  my son in his hand.

             "He is hungry " she said looking at me like if it wasn't important she wouldn't disturb me

         I extend my hands to take him    " it okay "

Aunty Lucy has dedicated her time to taking care of my son lately, she placed herself on permanent day at the hospital so she could take care of him at night, while dad work at night to look after me during the day I don't know what I would have done  without them.

I took my son in my hands, and for the first time I gave him a closer look, ocean blue eyes which he got from marco , curl dark hair which he got from me, his pale white skin, which was definitely mine , I kept on examining his appearance for a while as I fed him until I was distracted ,I saw him stretch his little hands towards me and smiled as if reassuring me that everything will be alright. At that moment I discovered I am not the only one who has lost some one my son as also lost a father and yet he is holding up so well, I know what it feels like to stay without one parent, if I keep going this way I will not be able to see him graduate  prep school. I have to be strong for him, he came to me when I lost all hope he is my redemption.

   We stayed that way for a while in silence I even rocked him to  sleep.

    " I should take him with me, he needs to rest" she said

     I nods as I hand over to her

I watched as she leaves shortly after she returns.

"Alice dear are you okay"

"Yes I fine" I said giving her a reassuring smile.

I paused for a while " aunty I think I should leave"

I could read her mind she was thinking I want to leave like my mom "I want to be able to take care of my son,I need to pick the pieces of my life"

        "I will talk to your dad and sure he will approve" she paused as if thinking if she should say what she wants to say.

    "Eos"

     "Huh"

    "I want my son to be called eos , you see marco always wanted his son to bare that name"

  "Then eos it is dear" she said cupping my cheek.

She was about to leave "thanks mum"she stopped to look at me I took is as an opportunity to continue

  "You see I want to thank you for all you have done for me you took care of me as a child and now in my darkness moment you stood by me, you took care  of my son when I couldn't ...thank you mum"

     *sobs*

   "Call me mum again"she said as she took a sit beside me

    "Mummy"I said as I took her in my embrace I know she has always wanted me to call he mum for a long time. We stayed that way for a while finding solace in each other embrace. When dad got back we spoke at first he didn't want me to leave but he knew my mind was already made up. I spent the rest of the evening with my son eos. When it was time for me to return to my room I sat on my bed as I open a a photo album that I brought with me from moms room memory of my life before now flood my eyes many of them were photos of myself and marco I paused on one particular picture as my fingers tips trace the smile on his face as I gave a weak smile it was the picture of our wedding day, I took out my wedding ring that I now wear in my necklace deliberated for a while before I finally wore it , few months back this ring fit perfectly, but now I could feel it falling off. I stood up and walked to a mirror standing in my room as I look at myself my eyes were covered with dark circles , I had lost weight drastically, my once sexy pale white skin had turned fucking pale like I was short of blood.

I gave myself another weak smile as I walk back to the bed to lay down and  slept for the first time in 3 months .

The next morning break fast was quiet no one said a word to each other before now dad and mum will try to crack a joke on the table to make me laugh but today no one not even eos is making a sound as if we all are trying to take comfort in our silence , after breakfast I spent some time with my son , I wasn't saying good bye. Because I will definitely come back I will not loose these ones too, I hugged my mum and dad as I kissed my son

  "Are you sure you don't want me to go with you" mum asking with  concern in her voice.

"No mum I need to do this on my own"

She nods in agreement"promise to call us,me especially at your free time"

  "I will call you all the time " I said assuring her as I get into the car

Sighing I start the engine and off I drove. I had no idea where I was going but I knew  I will find my self.

The end

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