CHAPTER 15

"Mr. Anderson…..Josh uhm hello? Dude what has got you in so much deep thoughts?" I heard my driver and personal bodyguard Sean ask.

I looked down at my watch and realized just how late it was. I had been thinking about the past for more than an hour. I didn't even remember when my personal assistant left. All I remember was her telling me that she was done for the day. I realized that since I had met Kira recently, all I could think about was her. I could not seem to get her out of my mind which was not a good thing. This was bad. This was really bad because I knew my feelings for her were growing stronger. This was not going to end well because I believed that from what had happened in the past, she would be a fool to fall in love with me.

"Dude you've been spacing out a lot nowadays what is happening to you. What's on your mind?" Sean asks with a worried expression on his face.

I had known Sean for a while now and despite working, for me we were pretty close. I considered him one of my closest friend.

"It is nothing important Sean. I've just been remembering things from the past a lot nowadays." I tell him with a huge sigh.

"Is it anything to do with that drop dead gorgeous neighbor of yours?" he asks with a smug look on his face. I was a bit surprised by his question since I didn't even know he noticed Kira. I know he knew just how right he was about this. I had always been a focused person and never allowed any distraction but since we moved in this neighborhood and saw Kira, I had been spacing out a lot. This was a problem I didn't know how to resolve on my own. On one hand, my mind was telling me to stop thinking about Kira but on the other hand, my heart was saying otherwise. I would always feel my heart flutter whenever I was close her or think about her.

With a heavy sigh, I stood up from behind my desk and headed towards the door with Sean in tow. As we waited for the elevator, I couldn't help but notice how quiet the office building was. The whole place was dark since everyone had left for their homes. The only light in the building was coming from the ground floor where the security guards were stationed. I the elevator my thought wondered to where my parents were at this moment. Despite dad passing over the company to me, they still weren't home. One would have thought that by now they would be tired of touring around the world. I even wondered what part of the world they hadn't visited since that was the only thing they did even back when I was a baby. Travelling and closing business deals was the only thing they knew how to do best. When it came to parenting, they were the worst at it. In fact I doubt they even knew how to parent. All they did was through money and expensive gifts at me but never their love and attention.

Sean stood beside me tapping his foot and humming to Eminem's Venom, to which I joined in singing the parts I knew best while he continued humming.

I got a song filled with shit for the strong-willed

When the world gives you a raw deal

Sets you off 'til you scream, "Piss off! Screw you!"

When it talks to you like you don't belong

Or tells you you're in the wrong field

When something's in your mitochondrial

'Cause it latched on to you, like—

Knock knock, let the devil in

Manevolent as I've ever been, head is spinnin'

This medicine's screamin', "L-L-L-Let us in!"

L-L-L-Like a salad bowl, Edgar Allan Poe

Bedridden, shoulda been dead a long time ago

Liquid Tylenol, gelatins, think my skeleton's meltin'

Wicked, I get all high when I think I've smelled the scent

Of elephant manure—hell, I meant Kahlúa

Screw it, to hell with it, I went through hell with accelerants

And blew up my-my-myself again

Volkswagen, tailspin, bucket matches my pale skin

Mayo and went from Hellmann's and being rail thin

Filet-o-Fish, Scribble Jam, Rap Olympics '97 Freaknik

How can I be down? Me and Bizarre in Florida

Proof's room slept on the floor of 'da motel then

Dr. Dre said, "Hell yeah!"

And I got his stamp like a postcard, word to Mel-Man

And I know they're gonna hate

But I don't care, I barely can wait

To hit 'em with the snare and the bass

Square in the face, this fuckin' world better prepare to get laced

Because they're gonna taste my—

Venom, (I got that) adrenaline momentum

And I'm not knowin' when I'm

Ever gonna slow up and I'm

Ready to snap any moment I'm

Thinkin' it's time to go get 'em

They ain't gonna know what hit 'em

(W-W-When they get bit with the—)

Venom, (I got that) adrenaline momentum

And I'm not knowin' when I'm

Ever gonna slow up and I'm

Ready to snap any moment I'm

Thinkin' it's time to go get 'em

They ain't gonna know what hit 'em

(W-W-When they get bit with the—)

I said knock knock, let the devil in

Shotgun p-p-pellets in the felt pen

Cocked, fuck around and catch a hot one

It-it's evident I'm not done

V-Venomous, the thoughts spun

Like a web and you just caught in 'em

Held against your will like a hubcap or mud flap

Beat strangler attack

So this ain't gonna feel like a love tap

Eat painkiller pills, fuck up the track

Like, what's her name's at the wheel? Danica Patrick

Threw the car into reverse at the Indy, a nut crashin'

Into ya, the back of it just mangled steel

My Mustang and the Jeep Wrangler grill

With the front smashed, much as my rear fender, assassin

Slim be a combination of an actual kamikaze and Gandhi (Gandhi)

Translation, I will probably kill us both

When I end up backin' into ya

You ain't gonna be able to tell what the fuck's happenin' to ya

When you're bit with the—

Venom, adrenaline momentum

And I'm not knowin' when I'm

Ever gonna slow up and I'm

Ready to snap any moment I'm

Thinkin' it's time to go get 'em

They ain't gonna know what hit 'em

(W-W-When they get bit with the—)

Venom, (I got that) adrenaline momentum

And I'm not knowin' when I'm

Ever gonna slow up and I'm

Ready to snap any moment I'm

Thinkin' it's time to go get 'em

They ain't gonna know what hit 'em

(W-W-When they get bit with the—)

I said knock knock, let the devil in

Alien, E-E-Elliott phone home

Ain't no telling when this chokehold

On this game will end, I'm loco

Became a Symbiote, so

My fangs are in your throat, ho

You're snake-bitten with my—venom

With the ballpoint pen I'm

Gun cocked, bump stock, double-aught, buckshot

Tire thumper, a garrote, tie a couple knots

Fired up and caught fire, juggernaut

Punk rock, bitch, it's goin' down like Yung Joc

'Cause the Doc put me on like sunblock

Why the fuck not, you only get one shot

Ate shit 'til I can't taste it

Chased it with straight liquor

Then paint thinner, then drank 'til I faint

And awake with a headache

And I take anything in rectangular shape

Then I wait to face the demons I'm bonded to

'Cause they're chasin' me but I'm part of you

So escapin' me is impossible

I latch onto you like a—parasite

And I probably ruined your parents' life

And your childhood too

'Cause if I'm the music that y'all grew up on

I'm responsible for you retarded fools

I'm the super villain Dad and Mom was losin' their marbles to

You marvel that? Eddie Brock is you

And I'm the suit, so call me—

Venom, (I got that) adrenaline momentum

And I'm not knowin' when I'm

Ever gonna slow up and I'm

Ready to snap any moment I'm

Thinkin' it's time to go get 'em

They ain't gonna know what hit 'em

(W-W-When they get bit with the—)

Venom, (I got that) adrenaline momentum

And I'm not knowin' when I'm

Ever gonna slow up and I'm

Ready to snap any moment I'm

Thinkin' it's time to go get 'em

They ain't gonna know what hit 'em

(W-W-When they get bit with the—)