Pain X Darkness

A name that was not even mine.

The way he kissed my forehead, it was as if he kissed the forehead of someone he loved and the name he called me.

This made me dive into the sea of suspense. Where can I find the answers?

This is not even a problem I told myself.

Do I resemble someone else he knows? Or did the same thing that happened to me happened to someone he used to know?

But the kiss on the forehead?

Come to think of everything, the personality that appeared a while ago and considering what the spirit said. There is something going on here for sure.

I slightly opened my eyes to see whether he is still there.

To be exact I was not even sure whether it was him or not but the touch was the same as before.

No one was there staring at me, I was all alone as usual. I managed to sit down on the bed.

Since almost every drawer in a hospital has a notepad, I pulled it out. I took out the pen and the notepad and started to write down the things that everyone said hoping to find a clue.

Even after writing everything down, I couldnt understand what was going on.

The question which remained at the end was who is she and why is she in me?

It might be true that I myself created it, but she will not be able to take control over me until I allow it. First of all, getting out of this hospital is the main problem. Even if it hurts or I die from a bacterial infection after getting out of here, I don't care. I kept talking to myself like a psychopath.

I don't know why, but I felt more energetic than before. I was able to stand up on my feet without falling down. I took a few steps forward just to check whether I can actually go out without getting injured. After making sure that I can go out without anyone's help I opened the door.

No one was there outside, so I went in the direction where I could feel that the nurse station was.

I kept looking into every and each ward to find the ICU, I ended up at the nurse station without finding the ICU,

"Miss Yuki!," everyone stood up from their seats.

"Why are you here? Look at your arm it's bleeding. Didn't you feel it?" That's when I realized the pain it was bringing to me.

"Tell me where he is?" I said. My head was spinning so badly making me lose balance.

"Miss Yuki, we are warning you, you will faint any minute. Please let me assist you back to the room she said. Holding my hand."

"Tell me where he is? right now!. I need to know where he is?"

"Exactly about who are you asking about? If you can let us know we will try to find him for you as long as he is in this hospital. Now please let me take you back to your room. You need to rest well in order to go home."

"I don't want to go home, just tell me where he is?"

"Can you tell me who he is, she finally asked."

'I don't know his name, but he has a whiter skin complexion. He is about 6 feet tall and he has purple-tinted stripes on his hair. Oh, you are telling me about that handsome guy who came into the emergency room together with you.'

"Yes yes, he was stabbed too. How is he doing? Is he alright now? Did he go home?"

Let's first go sit on your bed. She made me sit on the bed and dressed me in new clothes. And cleaned the blood on my body.

Please don't walk around she said. It's still too dangerous for you. She said fixing everything back to me.

Tell me now? I said.

Maybe I think you should not hear this. She said.

Tell me this instance, I said being unable to bear the pain.

Well, when both of you came into the emergency room it was too late for him. Even though he didn't bleed as much as you did, his condition became serious during the operation. However, he survived. He has been in a coma until now. We are not sure about when he is going to wake up but he will wake up soon.

So rest well and get well soon if you want to meet him again and please don't walk around, you know that it is bad for you right? If you hurt yourself while moving here and there it might cause internal bleeding which may worsen your state.

Your heart was already damaged when you came here, but if something happens your heart will fail, and if we cant find a donor in time... in the worst case, you might die.

I am being honest here because you are young and have a beautiful life in front of you. So please don't lose hope and stay strong she said getting ready to leave.

"Can I see him?" I spat out the words before she goes away.

"You need to get better first," she said leaving totally ignoring my words. I fell asleep, it must have been because of the medications I have been receiving.

That same night, I walked through a dark corridor and turned right, I kept going like that for a while and ended up near a dark room where I could t see what's in it with the glass.

For sure it was an ICU room. I looked inside to know why I was there. It seemed like no one was there but as my eyes got used to the darkness I was able to see what was lying on the bed.

It was him. I wanted to rush in through the door but I couldnt find it.

I couldnt find it even though I kept roaming around it for a whole while. I had my eyes focused on him because I kind of missed him.

It must have gotten so late in the night. Since I know where he is now I decided to go back to my room.

Surprisingly I wasn't feeling any pain which made me happier because I can come to visit him again. But it was only a few steps I took forward. I felt like there were a lot of people behind me. Not just a feeling but I could hear voices. I turned around wanting to know whats going on.

It was not around me but around his room. There were so many people dressed in black. All of them were mumbling things that I couldnt even hear.

There is no way that his family knows at the moment and even if it is family there wouldn't be this many and after all, they are all dressed in black.

"This doesn't feel right"

I opened my eyes.....