Worries X Anxiety

My heartfelt like, I let go of a whole lot of worries which was hidden deep down. 'Did I make him worried or did I made him hurt?'

"Why did he ask me that insane question?"

He broke the hug looking down. He didnt look straight into my eyes like he did before. "You are Hurt, aren't you?" He turned back going towards my bags.

"I will be at the exit then. You can be on your way," he said while leaving the room with the bags.

My head was hurting from the fact that I hurt someone. 'How rude of me.' for some reason, my heart ached too.

"What's wrong with me?" I said hitting my chest with my heart. "Ouch! it hurts," I took my hand away from my chest.

'I almost forgot that I got stabbed here too. But why aren't there any scars?'

I moved the bathrobe a little, Surprisingly there wasn't a scar nor a wound but why does it hurt? "A spiritual wound. It must be because it was done by someone from the demonic realm."

'I can't believe myself for trying to believe what that thing said.'

"How scary."

'But the mystery about the soul that lies in my body still lies a mystery.'

I need to find what that is, but because of the prevailing circumstances, I can't even ask him. He keeps saying that he doesn't want to answer and I am supposed to threaten his life? take him as a hostage?

I can't do those things. Wait why am I even thinking of things like this. I am turning into a psychopath every day.

The way I think and the way I behave are not like me at all. This is insane. Why and how did I become a person like that?

"Let's just get ready and go out", I said to myself. The temperature of the water was great. I kept staring at the full bathtub, but I couldn't lay on it, but why does a hospital room even have a bathtub?

'I think that's because of the corrupted higherups and rich people who come here to avoid casualties like police and stuff.'

There were only a few clothes ready on the bed to wear when I go out, but the top and the trousers did match at all. "He must have been the one who chose the outfit." I realized that I couldn't even wear it when I tried to wear it.

It was not because I got fat or anything, but because the trousers couldn't be buttoned because of the wound. The trousers were exactly onto my body shape.

I regretted my whole life being unable to wear those trousers. However thank goodness, the top was a long one.

It was not a crop top, but it should have been a crop top according to the trouser he left.

Damn these high wait buttoned trousers.

"Why do you have to hurt me as well? You don't know how much I loved you," I said just buttoning 3 buttons out of 6.

Look at me. I am totally not going to be alright if this stupid wound leaves a scar behind.

What about the thing he said. Will I have to kill someone in order to get this wound to disappear? My life is not going to be good at all.

What if I turn into a man-eating monster or some sort of an animal that eats the hearts of people to have a long life.

I do wish for eternity, but not becoming something like that. This reminded me of how bad I wanted to be a Vampire a demon, but still, I am glad about the fact that that I was able to live my life again.

Not being some sort of a demon empress and not satisfying my demonic fantasies, but how did those demonic fantasies even come into my mind?

"It's not like I used to get beaten up by my parents. It's not like I want to kill the kid who bullied me."

"come to think of it, I think those bullies have gotten the punishment for bullying kids. Dropping out of school, going out with random guys. Completely destroying their families whole reputation and I remember some even got pregnant even before they finished school."

This reminded me of how I lived while I was in high school and what I used to do with the other kids.

I was not a good kid after all. I can't blame it all on my parents after all. Sending me to one of the most corrupted schools where all sorts of rich kids appear and disappear like a lightning.

Snap out of it, I said hitting my face.

Let's go out. I said putting my top down so that it will cover the unbuttoned buttons of the trouser. I stepped out but no one was there to bid me farewell.

This hospital is indeed a little bit weird.

"Let's first get out of here," I said stepping out towards the reception.

Even before I could reach the reception, a nice young lady dressed in neat clothes appeared. She must be younger than me, but she felt insanely familiar, but the fact of who she was didn't come into my mind.

"Miss Yuki, your bill is already paid, no need to ask the counter. Please follow me." She said taking me towards another exit.

"Why are you are taking me somewhere else? The exit is right there." I took a glance at the hospital exit, it was flooded with a bunch of people who were trying to come in. but the security was too tight that they couldn't even come near the door.

"Please come this way," she said before I could space out thinking about what's going on.

"Miss Yuki, you don't have to worry about anything. Our hospital is completely designed for a situation like this. We are always ready to protect the privacy of our VVIP customers like you. I will take you to the secret entrance where you will be able to leave peacefully without going through any trouble."

Your boyfriend is already waiting for you there, she said without even looking at my face.

Have we met before, I asked her wanting to find answers for my curiosity.

"Miss Yuki, as far as I know, we haven't met. Not even once. What made you think that we have met before?"

I was speechless from the sudden question. She was so direct when she asked me that. It felt like I was backfired.

"I don't know why, but you felt familiar," I replied.

"It's okay, it can happen," she replied back with a smile