Lovet's heart

" l was one of the ladies who were good in church activities, singing and preaching,the church trusted me,I was an example to many youths ,everyone copy pasted me,everyone admired my hard work and commitment, all wanted my attention and association, I felt high, I felt loved and important. I was the best of bests.

My mother was proud of me,she had a lot of expectations from me especially after the demise of my Dad,we remained orphans, my brother and I, my mum passed a lot to brought us up" Lovet spoke with a lot of an ease, she continued, " I broke the hearts of thousands of my people,church members,family members and my friends! I felt like dying and disappearing to the thin sky, Cloud of sadness surrounded me,the world left me, heavens disappeared, I remained standing alone, alone in my on world,food was tasteless, my gains were numbed" She was now in tears,she had not mentioned what happened, Cavo felt it,he was worried what could it be, "Come on Lovet" he supported her.. she continued amidst tears," I was hated by everyone, even my closest friends who were so dear to me from my childhood, they left me,they couldn't even pick my phone calls, I was rejected like an old pot,a broken pot! I touched reality of life with my on skin,words from people pierced me deep,leaving scars into heart. The only person who stood by my side was my Mum, maybe because I was the only daughter. My clan passed judgement to me, I became a rotten meat, even hyena's couldn't feed on my flesh, Memories of my father came vividly clear,I saw how he was carrying me up and throwing me up as we laugh,he used to call me 'my mama', I smiled. But I don't know how he could have reacted concerning me, he could have disowned me." she stopped. Cavo became in patient, he wanted to know the reality,he wanted someone to tell him exact thing,he thought Lovet killed someone,,what was it,they remained silent, they were now looking at each other with a lot of concern, Lovet broke the silence again. " I know you will hate me too" she looked down. Cavo assured her,that nothing was going to put them a part, he felt for her, he wanted to be part of her problem.

Lovet cleared her voice and picked her key,she started playing with the key in her hands to give her courage of talking about her past. " I met a young handsome man who loved me very much,he meant heaven to me,I loved him too, I was still young ,I was 17 and so naive to identify what the dark world hid,I was so lost in love. A lot happened between us,we shared every moment together whenever time gave us chance, we talked about many things as we look at the sky and nature, He never touched me even if he felt like, I believed in true Christian life and I never wanted to mess,no that was not my portion of course my love to him was real and I wanted him more and more into my life,he respected me too,he was understanding and he cared for me upto one day when I visited him in his small hut, the rain started drizzling, he came closer and closer and the rains started pouring heavily,I felt his scent very close, he held my hand and pushed me towards his chest, I wanted to talk but I couldn't utter any word,his palm was now ransacking me all over, I felt weak my body remained still she pushed me back and I fell voluntarily,,,after some hours I started feeling my body, I opened my eyes,I couldn't easily figure out where I was ,till I heard him whispering I'm my ears,calling me to stand up its getting dark. I couldnt stand alone, I realized I am no more virgin! I gave out my heart,my body,and my blood,that was the beggining of my troubles,everything white turned black. I lost everything, the doom dawned on me. l conceived. Nine months was like nine years in life,I couldn't walk out daytime,my skin turned pale,I ate little and cried much, I drank my tears instead of tea, my favorite food became my poison, my abdomen grew bigger and bigger, I looked ugly,I never wanted to look at myself in the mirror, I hated every moment of my breadth, when my time reached,I was taken to hospital unconsciously, my Mum cried all night,she thought I was dead, I felt myself in the bed,my left hand was blood transfusion, my left hand another transparent liquid tubed in me,my abdomen was now flat, 'congratulations, its a baby girl' doctor smiled at me....my mum stood near me carrying a little angel,she looks beautiful, when I looked at her,that's when I smiled again after nine months" Lovet shared.

to be continued.....