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Why did he appear in front of me again when I had buried him in my heart?! You left me once, why do you want to break my heart again? My loved ones had just finished repairing my heart... You want to come and break it into smaller pieces, worse than before, don't do it! What have I done to you other than loving you, you make me suffer like this man! I will never say that word! I would never say "I don't even hate you" to you! Because I can't! I hate you so much right now! Because even hate comes from love! Why don't you want to understand this? While I want to hate you, you're forcing me not to even hate you! Please, just get out of my life as you did 2 years ago before you come back in! You saw and felt it yourself! Let the tears of your eyes stay behind, my heart hurts even when your eyes are filled with tears, I can't stand you! Please don't hurt me again! Park Jimin, I regret knowing you! If only we had never met, neither would I have entered your life, nor would you have destroyed my life!

While I was in the car, the girls came up to me, but the boys were talking to him. The girls know very well that even if I let him into my life again, I can't love him like before.

Ainul Unni: Cheonsa? Are you Ok?

Cheonsa: Who said I am not? I can't be upset that I saw him, can I? Tell them to come as soon as possible, let's go now! There's nothing special about this place anymore. In fact, I won't even come here again! I used to come here and read a lot of books, but now this place has lost its taste. Just now, I think it might be because of air pollution and the disgrace of humanity!

Dahyun Unni: Maybe if you really need to listen to him?

Cheonsa: Unni, I really don't need anything that comes from that being! Uh, where is my phone?

As I took my phone I called Kai.

Cheonsa: Why are you waiting? Let's go now! What could you possibly have to talk to him about?

Kai: Ok. I will tell them.

I hang up the phone and continued looking at them. Kai told them something and they all looked at me. I can't see him as all the boys were making a wall around him. Better that I can't! They all left him alone and came to the cars. I put on my earphones as we took our way to home. I opened my playlist and found the known song and deleted it. I opened my gallery and found his and our photos and deleted all of them. I opened my contacts and found his old number and deleted it and I opened Instagram and blocked his old account and made my own account private.

Jungkook Oppa: Cheonsa? Cheonsa?

Jungkook Oppa removed the earphones from my ears.

Cheonsa: Wha?

Jungkook Oppa: The opposite house...

Cheonsa: Yes?

Jungkook Oppa: It is theirs...

Cheonsa: Ok, stop right now! I don't want to know any information about him! I NO LONGER NEED ANYTHING ABOUT HIM! I hope you understand, Jungkook Oppa!

Ainul Unni: And why did you talk to that shameless person? No, I mean, what might you have left to talk about? How he upset Cheonsa? To flee his country and come to Canada without saying anything to his friends? What, Taehyung? Just answer!

Taehyung: He tried to tell us something but none of us listened and Suga Hyung and… Uhm, Jhope Hyung got very angry. They wanted to hit him, but I prevented him by saying "Hyungs, it's not even worth hitting". Then Kai said Cheonsa wanted us to go, so we came. That was it. There is nothing else! And Ainul, please let's not shout, darling. You know this is forbidden to us. Especially because of that faceless, shameless, animal bastard!

Ainul Unni: OK, sorry dear!

Ainul Unni kissed Taehyung's cheek as an apology. OMG! Why did I go with them! I hate this "LOVE" thing!

Cheonsa: Look at me! If you flirt like that again where I am, I'll kill you both!

Jungkook Oppa: Hyung, Ainul, believe me, she will do it!

Taehyung: We all know, Jungkook!

Jungkook Oppa: Hey, what did I do now?

Ainul Unni: You, shut up!

Cheonsa: If you ever yell at me or at Jungkook Oppa again, I'll kill you again!

Jungkook Oppa: Uwuu, thanks litt-

Cheonsa: And you! Don't finish that sentence, don't! I'm not a little angel to you, got it?

Taehyung and Ainul Unni started giggling.

Cheonsa: TAKE ME HOME NOW!

They got serious and after 10 minutes we were at the library.

Cheonsa: Okay, leave me alone now.

RM Oppa: But, Cheonsa...

Cheonsa: Oppa! I said I WANT TO BE ALONE!

Suga Oppa: This is too much! You are younger than us and have no right to shout at us, Cheonsa! Know your place, do you think we'll let you relive what you went through for that kid? We all know very well what you went through 1.5 years ago, Cheonsa! And I don't want my youngest sister to experience this again, Cheonsa...

Cheonsa: I want you to leave me alone because I know what I've been through, Oppa! I want you to go because you were with me last time, because you reminded me of him, you understand? I'm old enough to handle this situation myself! Go! Please, I have Kai with me! He will protect me, you will have nothing to worry about! PLEASE!

Dahyun Unni: It's time to leave him alone, friends. If you can take care of yourself, let him take care of it. Kai, you're coming with us. This time, he'll get through it himself. When Cheonsa calls, no one will pick up their phone, is it understood? Let's go! If anyone tries to object, he'll be ready to incur Cheonsa's wrath, we're leaving!

Everyone: OK.

Taehyung: But...

Jungkook Oppa: Cheonsa, I want to be with you, please?

Cheonsa: You don't understand?

Jungkook Oppa: I want, really... Please... For my sake?

Cheonsa: Only you!

Jungkook Oppa: Thanks, angel!

Cheonsa: Whatever! Others, just go!

Everyone got in the cars and left. Only Jungkook Oppa stayed with me. I wanted him to stay because when he's with me I feel strong. Maybe because he shared the same fate as me, even a little bit. We were abandoned. They left us. His story is different, but still... He left Jovihel Unni actually, but they forced him. The person who prevented him from being happy was the same person who prevented me from being happy.

When I got home, I changed my clothes and went downstairs. Jungkook Oppa was trying to prepare something to eat. It cannot be said that he was successful, because he was able to disperse the kitchen in such a short time.

Cheonsa: Oppa! If you had waited, we would have prepared together!

Jungkook Oppa: After all, I was able to do it! I'm just messy working!

Cheonsa: OK anyway! Let's tidy up the kitchen first, then we'll continue cooking

Jungkook Oppa: Can't refuse it!

Cheonsa: Hehe!

We tidied up the kitchen in 10 minutes. Jungkook was trying to make Oppa, Jeon. He also knew that I loved this dish. Same as his last name!

Cheonsa: You decided to do Jeon again! Do you remember? You tried to do this to motivate me when we stayed at home together in the past! We were very small then, weren't we! Ainul Unni was so angry at you for burning your own hand! At that time, the kitchen was messy, but I also messed up that time. I want to be a kid again! It's okay, I want to get back to my life!

Jungkook Oppa: Look at me! I stayed here to make you smile. Not for watching you get upset! So now, let's make our Jeon together for the first time, without burning my hand, without messing up the kitchen a second time, huh?

Cheonsa: Ok!

Since it is very easy to prepare, we made it quickly and prepared the table together. Why isn't Jungkook Oppa instead of my brother Taehyung? We may never get along with him but we get along so well with Jungkook Oppa! While Jungkook Oppa brought the Jeons we made to the table, I prepared lemonade to drink next to it.

Cheonsa: Mhmmm... Oppa, it is so delicious!

Jungkook Oppa: It really is! Lemonade is so tasty too!

Cheonsa: Hey, don't try to praise me!

Jungkook Oppa: OK, ok...