Confession

Ch - 51

Sidharth thumped on the floor in a jerk, the letter fell from his hand, eyes breaming tears of pain which causes inside his heart.. Heartbeats feeling stop, because his beats are far from him,...always thought that what will he do, if she go away but when the time comes it tear him apart from all way... Every words of her letter floating in front of his eyes...

Tears are not bother to stop,...stomach twisted by the thought that, from the word he run in his whole life..it came in his life, for some time and again go miles away by breaking every fucking nerves of his body... He never wants anyone to love him, because its only capable of destroying them... Always trying his best to gain the hate from everyone but ....

Doesn't able to understand when, how?...the girl who should hate him..fall for this heartless monster...a beast who destroyed her life,...and now finally done it in a complete way... This is the reason don't want her to come close but its not become possible because every time he ended up standing so close to her like a magnet.

He don't deserve her, never deserve that angel...who come by walking from the brightness into his dark world and try to filled it with her love... She done everything for him, which he deep down crave for since years,....every single second he spend with her is the best moment of his entire worst life.... How he never get to know that she love her?

Maybe because he never want to,...like always just try to hurt her,...from his words, actions everything but she forgive him every time.... Not in his wildest dream he want to accept but now it's the damn truth that... from the word he run since years is his reality now... Finally come to know that, all care, affection, attraction, obsession, possessiveness, protectiveness ....

All the emotions is the form one fucking word from which he run always... LOVE... Now come to know that not only she but he also love her.... He love his muffin.... Holding head he look at the letter, when her last words slap him hard on heart... 'That may be its her last day'... What she mean by this?...

No...he literally can't able to survive a single second if something happen to her.... No..history can't repeat itself again..... Not every time someone have to loose the life for loving him.... He will burn the fucking world if something happen to her... That day he was not capable of, but now he..not let anything happen with his love.....

Wiping tears he grab her letter and says by keeping it inside his pocket, not before kiss it once... "Aadi let's go we need to find naaz... Call each and every one.... I can't let anything happen to her..." Frowning aadi move towards him and says, "Why? So that you can again force her to marry someone else."

"Shut the fuck up aadi, can't you able to understand, she ...is going to....harm herself.. We need to go.." Said sidharth going to move towards the gate when aadi say loud from back, "Why you are showing off this concern now? You wanted it right? You wanted her to go away, now she's gone... She loved you, and you don't.... There's no need to bring her here again, just for giving more pain.."

Clenching jaw sidharth darted towards him with red eyes, his olive eyes still filled with tears..."Who told you tha..that i doesn't...?

I lo....." Taking a deep breath he close his eyes and says, "I love her....i fucking love my naaz...." Aadi smiles slightly and nodded, sidharth give him a wired reaction and says, "You leave, I'll find her myself."

As soon as he move heard something and stand rotted at his place, heart start throbbing way more fast then the normal one.. "Where are you going to find me?" Gulping saliva he turns slowly by holding his heart, which can come out any time.. Eyes open widely in amusement by seeing sana stand in front of him..in the same attire he saw her at morning....

He still got believing that its real or just his imagination, just stare at her without blinking his eyelashes, looks like someone freeze him in the position.. Sana smiles slightly, she come near her and pinched his nose.. "Aahh".. He groaned and come out from his shocking land, with shivering hands he touch her shoulder and says, " You..real?"

Rolling eyes Sana says, "Do you want me to bit, for proving that i am real?" He stare at her with blank expression, not able to understand how should he react? She is standing perfectly fine in front of him, behave the way just like she always does.. Its mean she is safe, nothing is happened with her....

Without thinking any further thing he pulled her into his embrace, literally crushing her bones by leaving no space between them. Smiling she wrapped her hands around him, feeling lost in his warmth...which she always love the most,.... He hugged her as tightly as he can, by hiding his head on the crook of her neck...

Feels like he's trying to hiding her inside him from the rest of the world.. She placed her head over his heart, and says, "I love you sidharth.." He hiding himself more and inhaled the addictive scent which make him groan, "How dare you to leave me?" Frowning she try to broke the hug but he didn't let her...

"Leave me monster." She said by struggling on his embrace.. He squeezed her more onto him and says, "Not possible muffin...i will never leave you now, even if you want.. Have to live here for forever." She hit on his chest and says, "Stop ordering, and answer my question..do you love me or not?"

Hummed he bit on the crook of her neck which make him winced, "I...don't like the word you know." Said sidharth. She bit her lips when he move his tongue on the place of bit for soothing the pain.. "A minute ago you are shouting, now what happen?" Asked Sana.. He sighs near her neck and says, "I never thought to say this, .... But you bring to this condition."

"Where i have to agreed that, the word trapped me on its magic... Or i can say your magic... I  can't even imagine that the sidharth shukla fall for someone... But yes,.. You are not someone ordinary... my wife is done her PhD in stubbornness... Know very well how to get what she wants. You are dangerous muffin..."

Sana pulled her head back and look at him with colliding brows, "Are you praising me or making fun of me?" He stare at her face for some seconds than says, "I am just stating the truth." She shook her head and says, "Remove your hands, i am going back." He again pulled her close, which causes their nose touches and says,.

"I already said, not happening... You can't leave now." He caresses her cheeks and says, "And before saying anything that you want to hear.. I need to confess something important...about what you don't have any idea.. I don't know after that you will still lo..still feel for me or start hating me?..but this time i want to take the risk."

She cupped his face from one hand and says, "And you know what,..no matter what happens but i can never hate you... Might be get angry with you or hurt...stop talking for sometimes but remember my words that it's not possible for shehnaaz to hate her sidharth..."

Smiling he peck her nose and says, "Promise?" She give a peck on his cheeks and says, "Pakka promise...i want to know everything about your past or present before starting a new phase with you.." Biting lips he look into her eyes, with full of love which he hiding since long.. Also amused by seeing the trust she has on him, hope that it will be there even after she know everything.

He don't know what will happen after he tell her the truth but this time his heart, whom he never listen...tell him to think positive.. Maybe she will be the medicine of wounds just like the nightmares,...may be her love can heal his broken, dark life... He peck on her forehead and says, "Always remember one thing muffin, that i need you..."

"I need you with me for forever, and now if you want then also not going to let you go.. Maybe i will come again on my monster role, who bring you here by crossing all lines." Sana shook her head and says, "This situation will never come, because i can't think to leaving without my beats."

Both staring at each other and lips are going to touch before that aadi says, "Stop..stop right there... My dear romeo and his Juliet, please can you both come out from your dreamland and look around the surrounding.. Kindly go and complete your romance in room."

Groaning sidharth pulled away and says, "When you can see that there's a scene going on here, then you should leave yourself." Aadi frowns and says to sana, "See, how he talking with me.. Say something to him, or you forget this cute brother of yours.. Who helped you in every plan." He bit his tongue when sana show him eyes..

"You are really an idiot aadi." Said sana. Sidharth narrowed his brows and says, "Which plan?" He look at sana who stare at aadi with corner of eyes than bit her lips..

"Ohh...so all the letter scene was a drama. Isn't it?" Asked sidharth by putting hands on his waist. Sana nodded like a baby and says, "Hmm..because you are not accepting anything and wanted me to get married with kunal."..

Sidharth shook his head and says, "Not ever done something like this again.. You don't know what my condition was?....i..i almost feels like dying." She put finger on his lips and says, "No... Never use this word again..i already promised you that will go nowhere by leaving you." Nodded he bit his lips by thinking something and says, "Let's go naaz."

"It's time to know the real monster." She narrowed her brows and says, "Hmm..i am always ready to know the real sidharth who is hiding behind the monster mask." She intertwined their fingers blink her eyes as a assurance. Sidharth takes a breath and move towards the basement...

His heart is flutter in nervousness, don't know what is going to happen.. What if she start scare from him after knowing all? No.. Now he can't able to digest the fear on her eyes, it will kill him to no extent... He stand in front of the gate and look towards her...

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Let's see what happens next!.