A dreadful past

Ch - 52

Sidharth look at the door with eyes filled of fear, a fear of loosing her...he feels like that as she enter inside the door will leave him for forever. Decided to tell her everything but still can't able to gather courage.. Heart is pumping rapidly and also give a feeling of having heart inside the stomach.. ..

Sana look at the door with collided brows, the memories of that day when he locked her inside it,...comes on her mind...with many more questions,...like.. Why he has this type of place in house? Why there's cell type of rooms, inside the place? Some other like, why there are always guards with guns present everywhere? Before she never focused on the things because of being busy on herself...

But now all the wired things strikes on her mind, she turn her head towards sidharth who is sweating badly.. She can saw a fear on his eyes, don't know about what? Never before he find him scared of something like this, she is not understanding anything.. Shrugging all the weird thinking whatever coming on her mind.

She tight her grip on his hand, this time anyhow she need to assure him that no matter whatever his past or secret is..will be always with him.. Whenever he turn his face find her stand besides him by holding his hands.. Sidharth turns to her and says by biting his lips, "Promise, you'll never hate me muffin? No matter what happens."

She bring his hand near her lips and says after kissed on his hand, "You can never completely hate the person whom you love from heart.. And in my case, i already told you doesn't matter how much i get angry but can never hate you.. Because i love you.. hate word never exist in my life for you."

He look deeply into those beautiful brown orbs and says, "Why you love me even after knowing that i am the destroyer of your life." She sighs and says, "Its your time to give answers, not mine. I am not going anywhere, will tell you some other day,..right now.. Please just tell me everything." Smiling slightly he pressed his lips on her forehead.

"Remember your promise." Said he takes a breath and open the gate through a password. Sana just look at the place with narrowing brows, they step down from some stairs and start walking on a dark corridor.. just having a dim light from the bulbs.. The same place where he brought her last time, after some steps they come across some cells and for her shock there are people inside the cells...and guards outside with guns.

Which made her stop on her place, in the dim light she can saw the people tied with iron robs, looks tortured for days... Her heart sinked by saw all this, as her grip on his hand going to loose he hold it more tightly and says, "No need to scare from anything.. you said wants to know everything about me.. This is the starting of my reality."

His voice has fear, from inside still the same question running on his mind,.."What if she'll leave him?" Sana takes a long breath and look at him, who already stare at her and says, "I am not scared.,, let's go wherever we are going." Nodded he close his eyes for a second and start walking towards the place, the place where he spend most of his time before meeting her...

Where he used to do his favourite thing, torture his enemies.. The blood room..they entered inside the place,she stare all around but can't able see anything because of darkness. He takes a long breath and asks his mens to switch on the lights, sana look at him with narrowed brows just then the lights turned on...

She close her eyes first because of sudden light but as soon as she opened, it turns widely open in shock.. She stare the walls covered with dry blood stains, iron pilers in the middle, big iron chains,... Suddenly her eyes fall on something which made her eyes grew more bigger, unknowingly her hand left from his and she move two steps back.... A finger fall on the floor....

Her mind feels all block, not a single thought about anything comes on her mind. Sidharth look at the direction she saw and clenched his eyes, he never want her to saw all this but have to... She needed to know whom she claims to love... A real devil... But in all this he don't want to loose her, not now when he clearly knows that living life without her is not possible for him...

Gaining courage he move towards her and says by taking her hands into his, "What...are you thinking?" Sana come back from her shock by heard his voice, she look into his olive ones which only shows fear at this time and asks, "Who are you?" He close his eyes in pain, moment before she claims to love him and now made a stranger in a minute....

Biting lips in order to control those drop of tears he says, "Mafia,...the king of Mafia world.. Remember...i always told you that...i am real monster...now you can see it on your own eyes.." She narrowed her brows in shock, now slowly all events clear on her mind from the starting... How he forced the hospital owner, how those goons captured on her house...

How police refused to help her, how none can find a single clue of her missing, and where she is untill he himself brought her family... How he beat those mens in the party, how keep vikrant captured? Holding head she close her eyes, how stupid of her who never concentrate on the things around us.. But when she asks before he told her the businessman lie.

He look at her lost in thinking and says by controlling the blunder of emotions inside him, "Once you asked, what did i do? ... See this is what exactly i do,...you love to save people right?.. I love to kill them, torture them to no end by unheard all their begs for mercy. You believe in love, and i have the power to make everyone believe on me..."

"Your life is full of beautiful colours and here mine is full of darkness painted with blood.. You wants everything perfect and i know how to make one according to me..." Moving near her he grab her from shoulder and continues, "You want to enjoy your life everyday right, but i feels satisfied to see someone in pain everyday..."

Pulled her more close so that their noses touches he says, "There's a huge difference between us,...you are beautiful and i am dangerous..., if you are the angel than i am the fucking beast.. You are the prettiest flower and i am the ugliest thorn... We are not meant for each other muffin...." Closing eye's he takes a breath and asks, "Tell me? Do you still have the same feeling about me?"

He wait for her answer but getting no reply open his eyes and saw her smiling at him.. Colliding brows he move a little back when she grab his collar and says by again pulled him close, "Who said you love to saw people in pain,? Your full body, mind, heart everything starts panicking seeing a little scratch on me..... You believe in love, this is the reason bring me here to know everything about you..."

"A part of you believe that your naaz will never leave you in any chance.. Our lifes are no more different, we live together in the same beautiful room filled with brightness.. I also know how to make everything perfect according to me,..example the same way i make you confess.." Cupping his face she touches their nose again and says, "Who said you feel satisfied by seeing someone in pain?".

"I still remember the day when i read a novel and you become angry in some violations scene on children.." She peck on her lips softly and says, "There's no difference between us ... If i am beautiful than at least need a dangerous handsome man to protect me... And story of beauty and beast are always comes in people favourite ones... Without you i feel my life full of thorns."

She breaths near his lips and says, "We are definitely meant for each other.. I am intended to be yours...sidharth... And yes, i still love you, in fact i love you more now because you didn't hide anything from me..

Trust is the important thing in a relationship, and you show the trust on me... I love you..and will always love you the same.."

"And about the Mafia thing, there's must be a huge thing behind it... I know you can't kill innocent people... A very big truth is hiding somewhere behind the walls you creates for yourself... I want to enter inside that...please let me in..." Both the eyes breaming tears of love.. He never imagine her to accept him like this, in the way he is....

Never knew that she knows him more than himself, he can clearly saw the love in her eyes...which is only meant for him.. A slight ray of hope rising inside him by breaking the walls of fear, a hope that she can be the medicine of his untreatable wounds...which he hide since twenty two years...

Just like the way she stop the nightmares which he saw every freaking nights from 22 years, those incidents are still clear on his mind which tore him apart every time... He look at her angelic eyes and smashed his lips to hers, closing eyes she hold him more tightly... He sucked lips try to feel her touch on him, she did the same with him...

Both lost at the moment, starts sucking and nibbling on each other's lips..tears mixed on the salivas, hands lost on the depth of thier hair... He finally feels relaxed, can able to breath without any fear of loosing her, or bear her hate... Now he can keep her with him for forever without having any fear...

She is only his,...just like the way he is only hers... Sana smiles between the kiss, she finally win her first love, now no need to fight everyday for his love,... The new truth of being him the mafia king, is affected her a little but she knows he can't do something wrong with innocent people... And the most important thing is still left, his past..

The reason of nightmares, don't know why she feels that its definitely have some connection of him being so cruel.... Both pulled back by loss of breath, and breathing heavily by resting head against each other.. Sana caresses his cheeks and says, "I also wants to confess something?"

He smirks and says, "What? Are you also a mafia?" She roll her eyes and says, "Shut up.. Actually i done something which is prohibited in your house., go against one of your rules." He caresses her swelled lips and says, "I didn't remember a single time when you did follow my rules baby,..its your fav job to break them.."

Bending down he bit her the corner of her lower lip and says in a husky voice, "Because you love to enjoy the punishment...right?" She widened her eyes, her already red cheeks turned into more red,....but its not the time for blushing taking a deep breath she says, "Actually....i...i visited a room in the first floor, where you strictly asked none to go.."..

Colliding brows he pulled back by removing his hands from her, if it is someone else or the time was different he didn't spare the person..for entering inside the memories of his early life... But it she, who is his everything now,....closing eyes he calm himself down and asks, "When?" She look at his changing expressions , the frown and says, "When you was not well, i mistakenly ended up gone to that room."

Moving forward she cupped his face and says, "Sidharth look at me,... I know there's a reason behind your nightmares, and those are not some just nightmares... Your insomnia is also connected to that past." He look at her in a jerk by heard that when she continues, "I know about that,..also know that you don't have those nightmares when i am with you..."

He looks downward, because she is absolutely right.. Sana hold his hands and says, "Please sidharth tell me everything, maybe i can remove those nightmares for forever... Tell me about the broken guitar you have in that room,..what's the reason of your hate towards love and music both things... Please share with me....please..." He close his eyes for sometimes than hold her hand and move towards somewhere....

Sana just go with him without any questions, he move towards the room..where she saw the guitar... Standing outside the door he just look at it and think something, its damn hard for him to open this door,...as this directly connects him to the unforgettable past... He decides to tell her everything but it's not that easy....

Never did he talk about that in his life, except aadi no one knows about it... Because he was with sidharth since they were ten years old. Imagining that day which he never forget is killed him again from all ways.. Worst day of his life, after what everything changes... Sana look at him, and intertwined her fingers with him.. She pressed a kiss on his arms as a assurance that she is with him..

Know it is not easy for him to share everything but if he doesn't than never able to come out from this darkness... Holding her hand tightly he takes a breath and enter inside the room, like the last time there's dust everywhere which causes Sana coughs.. He squeezed her hand and turn on the lights.. Blinking eyes rapidly for sudden light she look at the things with narrowing brows..

All stuffs are placed in the room looks burned, broken...tored dress...her eyes only find one thing familiar is his broken guitar. Sana look at sidharth whose eyes turns deep red, in pain,.. She can also saw a kind of anger on his eyes... He clenched his jaw as soon as his eyes fall on the guitar, fisting hand he drag Sana towards the direction and says, "This is the fucking reason of everything."

She doesn't able to understand anything, narrowing brows she hugged him tightly and says, "Let's go to our room first, we'll talk there." He wrapped one hand around her tightly and digged his face in the crook of his neck, she kissed on his chest when feeling wetness on her neck because of tears....

Both move inside their room she made him sit on the bed and going to settle besides him when he pulled her on his lap and says by wrapping both hands around her, "Just stay like this, untill i finished.." Nodded she peck on his nose and placed her hands above him... Taking a long breath he starts,

"You are right, there's a reason behind everything i am today.."

"And the reason is, one can't survive in this cruel world without power. They can snatch your everything by using the power,..just like the way i did with you... Now i am also in one of those cruel person..but i was not born one.. Something happened which turned a seventeen years boy into a mafia king." His hold on her getting more tight by passing seconds..she kissed on his arms..

"I was a normal 17 years school going boy, twenty two years ago,..had a fa..." Taking a long breath he continues, "Had a family, just like the you have...mom, dad, and one younger sister..A normal happy family, my dad was a software engineer,..mom was a music teacher...and sister was fourteen years old.. My parents fulfilled our all wants."

"Give us a good life with morals, values... they don't know that its not work in this fucking world.. I had music on my genes maybe because of my mother...it was my dream to become a singer...but at the time i don't know that it turned out as a curse for me and my family.. Aadi and i are best friends since 10 years old...he was an orphan."

"We almost live together all the time, one day there was an announcement come that a singing competition going to organized on our school.. I became very happy because they going to gave us chance for playback singing... Aadi was so happy that he starts dancing on the whole class, already believe that i would be the winner.. The phrase brother from another mother is completely suitable on us..."..

"But our happiness was not so longer, there was a boy on our senior class...who also participated in the competition... He was the top in the singing batch until i joined, tried so many times to become first but it not happened.. When he saw aadi jumping, deliberately pushed him and his leg fractured.. I rushed to him and start punching samarth.. That guy.... But other classmates pulled me."

"We did a checkup and doctor asked aadi bed rest for some days. I start spending the rest day after school with him, mom dad also come to visit him regularly... In meantime the competition begins... I cleared the two rounds with highest score.. My parents, aadi, sister all were so happy.. We decided to celebrate because only one round is left and it's clear that I'll be the winner.."

"That day in the market i again met with that boy, he warned me to back off otherwise it would be not good for me. But i didn't take it seriously, wish...if i back off that day.. Then nothing would happened..." He digged his face on her shoulder and says, "I again had a fight with him and move to house, aadi was in his orphanage because of some works."

"As soon as i entered saw that there was so many mens captured our house, keep my parents on gun point.. Shouting i was going to rush towards them when some mens start beating me... Then i saw a man, having moustache, wearing glass with gold chains. He comes to me and said, "You taking fight with wrong people, do you know who i am?"

then i saw samarth come from back with broken jaw and said, "He is my father, the mafia king.." He was at my position that time, my father start pleading him for leaving me, said sorry but words not reached to his ears. Grabbing my neck his mens threw me outside the house and...." He clenched his eyes, water falling continuously from his eyes... Heart sinked by saying those words..

"They burned my family alive,...and i can't do anything...except saw and heard everything..their yelling voices still echoed on my ears,... Those night everyday come on my nightmares.... I was shouting like a mad people that day... :no don't, please..stop.: try to come out from their hold but nothing works... My family died in front of my fucking eyes, ..they died because of me, because of that bloody music...."

"I hate the word music, because it snatched everything from me... Tore me apart... And the word love....i am scared from that word.. I love my family, my mom a lot but loose everyone because of my fault... That word love and heart was made by my mom on the guitar... That day the 17 yrs old sidharth was died in the fire, my soul was burned..."

"Every single emotions, were dead that day,... I turned to be a heartless monster... A devil...pushed myself in the forever darkness. "

"The only thing left inside me, was anger, rage, a motive to take revenge from all the people who destroyed my life.. They didn't kill me physically, because i was already dead from inside... Aadi came in the morning and found me sitting there alone staring at the burned ashes.. As soon as i saw him, i cried....cried like hell...cried for the last time..."

"We decided to filled case against the people but ..hun...nothing works in front of power.. I understand that thing very clearly that day and decided to have that power on my hand.. I told aadi to go and himself joined with the local goons.. Starts learning things, for being in these dark world, planning to take revenge from singhania..."

"Start doing snatching, blackmailing, kidnapping, killing.. The hands which once played with strings start playing with guns.. But yea .. You are right i never kill any women or Children.. i mean women who don't deserve to be killed.. As everyone is not good like you in this world.. Slowly starts entering in the mafia world and according to my plan i become the right hand of singhania..."

"He can never recognized the 17 years innocent boy who turned into a 25 years goon, who was the most demanding one that time... Everyone wants me to join their gang.... Aadi completed his study and we started a business, but no one knows about me being the partner.. Here one day finally i got the chance to take my revenge..."

"I gave singhania and his son a more painful death than they gave to my family.... I thought my soul will relief once heard their yelling but it not works.. I never have the piece in life until i met you..." As soon as he complete her shoulder become wet by his tears...

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