An old friend

"What the fuck?!?" Jack said to himself

"How the fuck can that fat prick get away with saying that?" Jack said while gritting his pearly white teeth "He can not get away with talking about the miscarriage, Let alone placing the BLAME ON ME!" Jack said eventually snapping

"That'ss right Jack feel the anger, let go of that murderouss rage" the shadow said while it floated around his head "You know that their all against you, plotting to bring your life to itss tragic end, kill him, kill all of them" It said while absorbing itself into Jack's head, his heart beating angrily to the thought of his friend, a fat american male named michael freed, "Kill him Jack, end his bullsshit of an exisstence, Make everyone know what happens to thosse who talk bad about your or you sseed. Kill them all" The shadow said as Jack struggled to remain in control of his body "You can't fight thiss Jack, I'm to sstrong for you to beat" It told Jack tauntingly

"No you're not. Get out of my head you fiend" Jack said as he stumbled into his bathroom to splash water on his face his left eye turning bright red while his right eye remained hazel brown

"Ressitence iss pathetic to try Jack, all of your attempss will fail, your nothing but a killer a freak and they all know thiss" The shadow said as it made Jack's confidence drop even more than it had already dropped in 2005 "Even your family hated you Jack, issn't that why your ssissterss beat you up and blamed you for everything that had happened, you're nothing more than a pusssy, a fatherless pile of dog crap, you've got nothing to live for have you?" It said making Jack depressed and making him have a flash back

"Urrggg shut the fuck up, you fucking prick and get out of my head before I blow your fucking brain's out against the fucking wall!" Jack shouted as he cocked his colt 45 and placing it against his temple while the shadow manifested itself in the mirror taking form of his step farther Stan

"Oh Jack, you sshouldn't pull that trigger, it would only make them happy and you don't want them to have the ssatissfaction now would you?" It said as it chuckled

"Hmm come to think of that, yeah I would you prick" Jack said while staring the reflection dead in it's eye's and pulling the trigger

*Bang*

"What the fuck, I'm still alive" Jack said shocked at the fact that the bullet just passed through Jack and putting a hole in the wall two inches away from the window frame

"Haha, I told you Jack, you can't kill me nor can you kill yoursself, you can't do anything right but kill otherss, you're worthlesss." It said before taking control of Jack's hand's to reload the gun

"Your nothing but poisen." Jack said as he placed the gun back to his right temple

"I will unload each clip into my skull until wither you die or I die. So what is it Shadow? I die or you leave me the fuck alone and get out of my head, I would never trust you with my life, with my body brain heart or soul. You're just a poisen. A want to be toxin. I will never submit to anything like you." Jack stated as he pulled the trigger

*BANG BANG*

"Don't be sso sstupid Jack, you're never going to beat me, I am a ghosst a sshadow you can never harm me or get rid of me, we're one in the ssame you and I, after all Jack I am your cursse your own Sshadow, your poissen, your very own toxin" the shadow said to Jack

"No i am nothing like you and I will mever be like you. You're not my shadow and you're most certainly not my fucking toxin." Jack said as he pulled the trigger again

*BANG BANG BANG*

"Two left Jack, PULL THE TRIGGER! PULL IT NOW FINISH OFF THE CLIP YOU DIP SSHIT! YOU'RE NOTHING! KILL YOURSSELF YOU WORTHLESS SSCUM" It shouted at Jack

"FINE YOU STUPID PRICK, ANYTHING TO GET YOU OUT OF MY FUCKING HEAD MY FUCKING BODY AND MY FUCKING LIFE" Jack screamed while pulling the trigger twice more emptying the clip

*BANG BANG CLICK CLICK*

"JACK WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING!?!" Julie shouted as she ran over to Jack yanking the gun out of his right hand

"YOU'VE PUT SEVEN HOLES IN THE FUCKING WALL YOU PRICK! AND THEN YOU TRY TO SHOOT YOURSELF IN THE HEAD! THAT'S FUCKED UP JACK WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT?!? ARE YOU NOT HAPPY?! IS YOUR SKITZOPHRENIA GETTING TO YOU AGAIN?!?" She cried while yelling at him making him snap out of it

"The shadow made me do it!! I'm so sorry baby" Jack said as he took the gun off her and placed it on top of the bathtub

"Yeah you will be. What would I do if I lost you Jack, your the love of my life I can't bare loosing you, we've already lost our baby's, we're all we have until Tracy come's home. Where did you even get the gun?" Julie asked Jack while he held her in a warm and loving yet apologetic embrace

"I don't know what to tell you baby, The shadow gave me it, he's in my head" he told her

"When did it start Jack?" She asked him as she lead him out of the bath room

"When I got the book in the post, after we burnt it and it came back without a scratch" he said "It started manifesting, it was just a voice at first, a whisper then when the shadow started manefesting it started trying to get me to read the book and kill more people and if o refuse it invades my body, it entrers my head, I just wanted it to end" Jack told her as she cried "I don't know what to do about it, Stephen doesn't know what to do about it either" Jack said in a doubtful and down manner

"How about you tale your medication baby? That usually helps you control your skitzophrenia out break's" Julie said as she stood up taking out his antipsychotic medication before she handed him them

"Okay baby, I will, I'm so sorry. I don't want to loose you nor do I want to hurt you either" Jack said as he took the pill's swallowing them with a swig of his coffee which was cold "Get some sleep baby, I've got something that I need to do." He said before kissing her softly on her forehead

"Okay Jack, just please get rid of that gun and please promise me that you won't do anything as stupid as you had done in the bathroom" She said as she got back into their bed

"I will baby, and I promise you that I won't" Jack said before he went to his comic book corner shutting off the bedroom light and closing the door behind him "Logan, I need to know, how do you control your Farrel impulses?" He said as he picked up his Dead man logan sin's of the farther comic book

"Jack, you won't find an answer in there" A voice said from behind him

"Where will the answer's be if not in here?" Jack asked as he turned around to be facing an old friend, The pillowman

"I don't think that you'll like this answer, but strength is in what you fear the most in the moment, knowledge is found in the conflictions of one's mind and soul, I promised you in 2005 that I would protect you and that promise I am still bound, that boom you've locked away and that you turn from, that book inwhich you hold fear in reading, is where you will find the answer's that you need. I will never steer you wrong" The pillowman said

"How do I know that this is you and not the Shadow fucking with my head?" Jack asked

"You know already Jack, you know deep inside your heart of heart's that I am who I claim to be, you've been through so much pain and you've lost your way, I am here to put you back onto the right path, the path of protection of prosperity the path of righting a wrong, you know who I am just as much as you know who you are and who you have to be, the answer's in the book in which was sent by me if you choose to read it." The pillow man said before spreading his wing's and flying up phasing through the roof to return from once he came leaving the Necronomicon on the white PC desk in the spot that Jack's comicbook was

Jack took a deep sigh "Oh Mr. Pillowman I hope that your right but I have to do some research on this book before I read it, I can't risk jumping into something that could potentially fuck up my life. I have way to much to risk and I am not willing to risk it all for one book. At least not a book that has a shadow that try's to make me harm myself and kill people, I have to know what it is that I'm getting into before I get into it. I hope that this make's sense to you." He said to himself as he threw his jumper on top of the book "But for now, I'm taking the rest of my medication and going to bed." Jack said as he stood up leaving the living room switching off the light and closing the door.

As he sleep tossing and turning the book called for him longingly, Jack's pajamas drenched in a cold sweat his face dripping with it as it poured of of his pour's making his pillow and the bed wet

"No" Jack spoke softly while sleeping "I don't want to do this." he muttered before thrashing his head facing the opposite direction

"Jack, read me" The book whispered

"No, I don't want to do this get off of me" Jack whined

"Jack, come to me" It beckoned while Jack's night terror got worse

"Get off of me" Jack muttered aturing more "I don't want to do it, I will fucking kill you Farther" Jack said as his voice rised waking up Julie

"Jack wake up, your having a nightmare, it's just a dream, baby wake up" Julie said shaking Jack until he woke up before he stopped breathing "Oh shit, baby don't leave me" she cried out in emotional distress as tear's streamed down her cheek before eventually dripping onto Jack's pale face

Suddenly Jack gasped for air opening up his eye's and quickly sitting up his eye's darting across the room while he pulled his switch blade opening it up in one flick of his wrist "I said I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU D.H!" he shouted ready to leap at his abuser from the past, his teeth gritted his eye's red and his hair a mess

"Jack, baby your fine he isn't here, he can't hurt you, remember where you are? your with me your wife Julie! your fine" she said while she slowly got out of the bed and took the knife off of Jack cautiously and carefully "Baby I'm going to take this knife off you now, okay? your safe you don't need to use it anymore" she said as she put her soft hand's around his hand's making him flintch a little bit "Your okay baby, I'm here, It's just me and you, no body else" She said reassuringly as she kissed him gentally on his fore head snapping him out of it.

Jack looked around the room again before picking up his empty coffee cup

"I need a coffee." he said as he went to get out of bed

"You stay here baby, I'll go and make it for you, you just sit in bed read a comic book amd collect your thoughts I will be right back baby" She said taking his coffee cup out of his hand's

"Okay baby, thank you" he said before kissing her other hand which was still on his while he still held the blade "Oh shit, I'm holding a knife" He said only now just realising that he was holding one

"Yeah, you are, but I'm going to take it and put it somewhere where you can't get it" she said kissing his fore head which still had sweat on it once more

"I'm sorry for scaring you baby" Jack apologized as she took the knife

"That's okay baby, it's not your fault, everything is okay I'll be back in a minute" Julie said as she left the room

"Fuck is wrong with me? I need help.." Jack said to himself as he slumped back leaning against the wall whish his pillow's where against "Fuck me..." he said

a minute later Julie walked in with his coffee and climbed back into bed

"How are you feeling now baby?" She asked him as he took a sip of the perfectly made coffee

"I'm okay now baby, again I'm so sorry, I'm going to call Stephen up in the morning see what we can do about this" Jack said as he placed his cup down

"Baby stop apologising and that sound's like a plan" Julie said reassuring Jack once more

"Alright baby, how about we try to get some more sleep, we'll figure something out tomorrow" Jack said as the pair laid down Jack hugging into Julie reassuring her as they drifted back off to sleep.