Regret

ANNE

If I could, I would turn back the hands of time; go back to when I first conceived the idea of making Henry my get free get of poverty card by seducing him and change my narrative from there. It seemed like a good at the time; but now I know I was so wrong, and I wish I had never acted on the plan.

I was the first born in a family of 3 children; 2 girls and 1 boy. Our parents work hard to give us the best life possible; but they couldn't do much on the salary of a Butler and a Maid. And living in Lake City; a city dominated by the rich and affluent with strong believes in caste system/social hierarchy, does not help our situation.

In Lake City, If you're unlucky to be born into a poor family; you're likely going to spend the rest of your life in penury, unless you do something drastic to change your destiny of course.

It's a constant struggle for poor family like ours, who are at the bottom of the caste. And that was why I made a resolve at the age of 13, after my family lost my younger brother, Allen, to a deadly disease. That I will make a better life for myself, my parents and my sister at any cost; hence, the conception of my big librating idea.

At first I had no idea how to go about fulfilling the promise I made to myself, which was probably because I was too young at the time to make any life changing decisions. But I strongly held on to my resolve despite the absence of an action plan.

Since our family was merely struggling, l had to start working at a very early age; I had already been helping my mother with some of her work, so it was easy when it finally transitioned to a full time job.

I officially became a full time maid for the Knox, when I was 15. At first, all I did was to clean the house and sometimes wash laundry; I was still too young and my mother wanted to make sure I was well trained before I start having direct contact with the family.

Mrs Knox hates tardiness, and my mother didn't want to risk getting on her bad side by assigning chores that deals directly with her family to her amateur daughter; her job doesn't pay much but it's very crucial for our family survival.

Henry was 8, a year younger than Allen would have been if he was still alive. I had only ever seen him from a distance my mother never allowed me anywhere near him; he is royalty and I'm just a young maid.

Even at 8, he was already bigger than his pairs and that; and the fact that he is the only child of Luke Knox, always gets him what he wants. I coveted his life; and I remember always hanging around the corners in the house, whenever he is with his friends just to get a glimpse of him without him noticing.

This went on for awhile untill I turned 18, and I finally get to directly serve the family. I would normally serve them breakfast, dinner and sometimes lunch, if they are around. But mostly, only Henry eats at Lunch after getting back from school.

And the more I interact with him, the more I started noticing things about him; which was perverted considering that he was just 11 at the time. But the more time I spent in his presence, the stronger the thought gets.

Then I thought; "sure.. he was younger but if I could get him to like me, first as a friend and later as something more, it might be the break I've been waiting for. I wasn't looking for him to marry me or something, but if he is anything like his father; I surmised that I can gain a lot just being his mistress. So I let the idray fester and once it took root in my mind, I started thinking of ways to make it happen.

Henry wasn't particularly a pleasant kid, and he would sometimes torment other maids in the house by ordering them to do ridiculous stuffs in the house just because he can. But he was surprisingly nice to me, well..... He used to be.

I started putting my plan into motion when he was 15 and I was 22; I would usually expose and show him more skin than necessary when his Parents were out, and I had to serve his food or run errands for him.

Gradually, I noticed him starting to notice me; when he would stare at my chest and ass longer than necessary, but he never acted on it. I am not a raving beauty, but I knew that I looked good enough judging by the way guys would stare at my boobs and ass; whenever I went grocery shopping.

I thought I was being discreet but my mother noticed and she warned me to desist from whatever I was doing. But I never listened to her because I thought it was a sacrifice that I needed to make for our family, I figured that my mom would eventually come around when I finally succeed in my plan.

I should've listened to her and I would have avoided all the heartaches I earned myself because of my stubbornness.

I finally succeed in luring him to bed on the eve of his 17th birthday, and that was the beginning of a new phase in my life.

After our first time together, we couldn't get enough of each; we would do it everywhere and every chance we get. And it gets better every time that he soon starts to sleep with other girls. It never bothered because I have no emotional attachment to him other sex and he was generous to me; plus no matter how many other girls he slept with, he always comes back to me.

He would act like an asshole from time to time, but things was going smoothly between us until his mother caught us together and fired me on the spot.

My parents were very disappointed but also worried about where I would go, because we live in the Knoxs residence like other workers who works for the family and Mrs Knox had ordered me out of her home after she fired me.

I already had some money saved up, but I knew it wouldn't last long if I no longer have other source of income. I was in a dilemma and didn't know why to do; before Henry came to me and proposed to find me a place to live, if I would stay as his mistress. My parents didn't like it but they couldn't do anything about it. And that was how I ended up in a lonely apartment in the outskirt of the city as a kept mistress.

I thought it would be librating but it was the beginning of a nightmare worst than the woes of poverty that got me in that situation in the first place.