Chapter 7 In Dreams

After my dad passed away, My dreams became intense. I was trying to find my dad in my dreams, in a maze and sometimes I could see my dad near my bed in my dreams but I was too afraid. I could see the stripes on his shirt the first few minutes that I woke up. I would ask him questions and he would answer. That's how I know that he had two insurances but his girlfriend took all the money and didn't fight for the second one because she would have lost money. The insurance said that my brother owns half the house and money. Oh well, no use fighting it, we didn't have a lawyer. Me and my sister wouldn't have anything in both insurances anyways.

I did have some dreams that I went to my dad's house after his passing and he told all the souls to leave, and the souls disappeared, he wanted to spend time with me. My dad didn't have his back pain anymore and I was happy that he was enjoying his time doing lots of activities. He tried the mechanical bull riding. Lol. Funny but he was having the time of his life. That's how I want to remember him.

When my mom came to visit me again I was 35 and she talked about my dad and she said "Even if you had him for a short time, I am glad you got to know him. In my dreams it was my dad telling me the same about my mom. Is it because my dad saw us talking about him, it seemed weird.

In some dreams my dad was with me the whole time we went on missions in my dreams to different lands and at the end of my dreams I realized he was dead and I asked him why he was here. He told me that he was visiting.

My dad never got to see my kids but in my dreams he was holding them, playing with them and kissing them and it made me happy. I started reading about dead people in dreams and it always says that it is them passing by to visit.

I learned all about dreams how to decipher dreams and also palmistry because It was interesting to me. I read some spiritual books my dad had and learned how to make a seal of protection in my house and specially when I wanted to go places spiritually, I needed some protection. I really got into it. I also tried hypnosis because I never got hypnotized before and wanted to try it. I was in a time in my life after 2 car accidents that I was so stressed and sore. Knowing about spiritually helped me learn about life.

My first accident was when I first moved in the country and my sister came to take me to Ottawa because I didn't have a car. I was pregnant by 2 months during winter time and I don't remember much just the car sliding and turning. I closed my eyes and felt my body bouncing. When I woke up we were in the ditch sideways. My sister kept calling my name and I answered, "I'm here, I'm fine." I didn't feel any pain at all. I rolled over my sister to get to the back and tried to get out of the van. While my sister had so much pain I didn't seem to have a scratch or pain, just a black eye that looked like I was a battered pregnant woman during Lamaze classes. I had a dream that my dad helped me and my sister through our accident. I even drew a picture of my dad looking at us from heaven and softening our landing.

The ambulance came very quickly and They got me down from the van pretty quickly. I could see my sister crying and I didn't have a thought, just trying to get out of the van. I don't remember if I had my seatbelt on and I probably didn't because I didn't have the markings of my seatbelt. All I know is that if I had my seatbelt I could of lost my firstborn.

When François went on sick leave from the government job because he was depressed he went to a psychiatrist and it helped a bit. We started to play Pokémon Go together and got us walking and talking and enjoying life together again. It is not the game that helped him, it is starting to enjoy life again. Doing something new and doing things together.

Hypnosis helped me take away my stress away and think positive just like meditation. I tried one that makes you go back to a past life and then at the end, you can tell yourself something that will help you in life and I told myself to be determined. Keep going when life gets tough. After that all I did, was think positive and always looking for ways to keep going, surviving this life, no matter what.

Even though the people that took us to court wanted $90,000 they only got $25,000 out of us but we paid it with a loan. Just 5 years later we were debt free. Life was turning out great. François decided to leave the government and try to open his own business teaching french and it was successful. He got out of his depression. We got a dog and a cat, when we were debt free. We bought a semi detached home after. Of course, we had some more debt to pay but the house was perfect for our lifestyle.

There are 4 bedrooms upstairs, big back yard with a swing and trampoline. The prices went up really fast but we were lucky to get this bigger house. There was wallpaper and carpet all over the house and the bathroom had pink tub and toilet. We decided to take wallpaper off and carpet off ourselves and it took us 7 days. We paid for 2 coats of paint all over the house and paid to get parkay floors sanded and we even had to pay to put 2 sides of the fences up for our kids. The next year we got rid of the pink tub and toilet and renovated the bathroom. It turned out great.

There was a lot of dreams with Miguel in them. When I did dream about him we were really good friends in my dream but everyone around us were saying that we were cheating on our spouses. Of course, there were some very intimate moments in different dreams.

It's not like I was going to cheat in real life because I made my choices not to pursue him, not even as friends but I always thought about him and he always came back in my dreams. In my dreams we had a great life together and I was living a double life. I felt terrible but at the same time my dreams helped me continue in real life. Sometimes my dreams taught me things and sometimes they stopped me from doing things.