BlackRikudo

Intro: all my life I felt like an outcast because of the way I look, the ideology I possessed, and the things I been through. I feel like everyday is a fight in a never ending war, whether it’s to survive or get the will to want to survive. For everyone fighting, understand you will never be fighting alone. I left a lot out for personal reasons that I might add but my goal was to shed some light on mental health, I also always wanted to be an anime character cause growing up and watching them go through so much and still have the strength to fight inspired and motivated me to do the same but a lot of them didn’t show the emotional trauma that comes from all of those fights that you win or lose and so this is about how I’ve been fighting mental health. I also want to point out that I didn’t overcome these battles alone, I had help but I didn’t mention it a lot because I felt alone, and to put it into perspective of those who are actually alone, and sorry I’m bad at story telling, I’m still figuring everything out just like avante is.

DetriMental

*Anxiety, hyper vigilance and insomnia watching avante like the villains watching the MC at the start of a new arc* 


I always had a terrible sleep schedule, I can get about 2 hours of sleep after being up for 22 and have more energy than someone who had gotten 12. While everyone else was sleep or temporarily waking up, I was watching all the shows on Cartoon Network, Nickelodeon, and Disney, or probably playing the game but I couldn't wait for toonami to start showing the anime, every night whether it was school or not. Actually this wasn't a problem growing up, to me it was more of a blessing rather than a curse atleast at the time. I was around 4 years old since my birthday is only about a week after my dads.


Insomnia: you know you'll never get enough sleep again? Good luck trying to function without any sleep 


Avante: actually that's fine I'm not even tired anyway cause naruto about to come on 


Insomnia: wait what this isn't how that works 


Avante: they're your rules, I just used them to my advantage, you might call for backup or something otherwise we mind as well just work together for now


Insomnia: I guess that sounds pretty fair as long as I'm in charge 


Avante: aren't you in charge anyway? Kinda why I can't sleep 


Insomnia: ok mr know it all, since you think you know everything, you'll constantly think about everything. Let's see how you deal with overthinking with no sleep.


Overthinking: I your ability to think shall now go into overdrive causing you to drain yourself constantly for no actual reason at all 


Avante: jeez you guys are really annoying at best, someone call ptsd or something cause who hired the rookies? 


Overthinking and insomnia: ever heard of damage over time you dumbass? You'll eat those words when you get older. Just wait til the next mental illness shows up.


Avante: yeah yeah we will see I don't mind being stuck with you two goofies anyway


Avante x insomnia x overthinking: first encounter