Chapter 8

"Thank you, Andre!" I said as I get off his car.

"So are we good now?"

"Yeah, we are cool. I have to stop holding grudges towards him, I’m just going enjoy this pain and let time heal, it’s hard to be a fool you know"

I reassure him of me being okay with teary eyes.

"Goodnight Glimm" he said.

And I wave.

I’m tired.

I stop thinking and reminiscing about our past.

He is my first love after all.

I dial a number on my phone.

I need her.

I miss my mom.

"Hello? Yes, sweetheart? It’s late."

"I just miss you mom"

"Oh I miss you too honey, would you like for me to go there? It’s Sunday tomorrow, I can.."

And then I hear a man talk reminding my mom that they have a place to visit tomorrow.

"Rod?" I asked her.

So they finally are living together. My mom's old lover.

"It’s okay mom, I'm fine. I just really miss you"

"Are you crying? Why is your voice like that?"

The moment she recognizes my shaky voice, I completely sob.

"Mom, Brick, and I broke up" I cried.

"Oh honey, I wish I am with you right now. Shh, it’s okay. Your young and beautiful and you have so many beautiful journeys ahead of you sweetheart, don't cry my baby"

And then someone grabs the phone from my mom.

"Hi Glimglim, this is Rod, sorry if I overheard your conversation because her phone is on Loudspeaker...

"oh no, hehe" I laugh a little, he still calls me that name.

"When I see that jerk, I'm gonna punch him in his face, give him a warning Glimglim"

Rod is nice.

"Thank you, Rod, I feel lighter"

"You can come with us tomorrow Glim? Would you like to come home? It's a very important charity, you could come with us"

"I love too but I have so many worksheets to finish, just send me photos and love from both of you"

"Okay Glim, guys are jerks!"

"Really?"

"Exclude me haha"

"Your funny, thank you for taking care of me and my mom"

"Bye sweetheart, don't cry to bed, I love you," mom said.

I am lucky for having a family like them.

I know my Dad is also watching me up above.

"Hope you are not disappointed in me daddy, I miss you"

Weekday finally starts once again, I'm still missing him. This is the first time that we are officially over like, can I go on without him?

Of course, I can but I'm really in pain.

I love him so much and it hurt me and my ego about how we ended up like this.

He cheated on me.

Am I not enough?

Does he like Ivana?

My brain is torturing me.

I tried my best to listen and be able to finish my class today.

As I walk from my room alone since Kayen has a make-up class, I decided to go out.

Maybe watching a movie can help me out.

Every time I see a man in a basketball Jersey, my heart is having a heart attack.

What if I see him with Ivana, I'm going to break down but fate is playing with me.

Brick is walking but alone.

He is wearing a shade and black leather that suit him well.

He caught me staring at him but he ignores me.

We walked past, like a stranger.

That's it, he is really over us.

I am teary-eyed but I try my best not to sob in public.

I continue walking, without a destination.

I play music on my phone.

"Fuck! can you stop crying!"

I heard a familiar voice. It caught my attention, so I looked back and saw Cade with a crying girl.

"We have a big problem Cade!" the girl shouted.

And then Cade look down like a lost child, but then he caught me staring at them.

This is awkward. My eyes widened by his reaction after seeing me. And the girl seems to be confused about Cade's reaction after seeing me.

"Who is she?" the girl asks him.

What am I going to do?

"Cade, sorry I just pass by and I accidentally overheard your conversation"

They walk closer to me.

"Don't feel awkward, it’s our fault fighting in public, you just happen to pass by" Cade said.

"Who are you?"

"Oh, by the way, I'm Glimm."

"She is our guitarist, newbie, and Glimm this is Bianca, she is my girlfriend"

"You can continue your conversation and I swear whatever I heard, you can trust me"

"Thank you Glimm, we are sorting things out first, please do not tell everyone about it," Cade said.

"Yeah, no problem so I'm going to leave, no matter what, hey you have to be strong and do the right thing" and then I said goodbye.

Their looks are weary. It’s not a simple problem and the girl seems wearing a high school uniform. I Hope Cade can have the courage to handle this.

Suddenly a realization pop into my head.

While I am here ranting about my heartbreak, there are other people out there whose problems are more severe than mine. Cheer up Glimm.

A text message pop.

"Where are you? Let us hang out?" Andre sent via whats app.

While I’m typing my reply he called.

"Hey? Let's hang out tonight, are you free?" He asked.

" Yeah, actually I'm on my way to see a movie right now?"

"Movie? There are no good movies right now, come on let’s just eat pizza and I'm going to take you somewhere else"

"Where?"

"No question, wait for me at the entrance, I’ll pick you up right now"

"Okay?"

After five minutes of waiting, there he is.

He is wearing his royal blue varsity jacket and tight jeans.

"If I am not broken, I would probably drool over you!"

"Whoa! How can you say that? I thought you are so polite and modest"

"I am complimenting you, sorry just bad at choosing the right words," I said.

" Thank you, at least you look a little better now," he said.

"Let's go"

I am good at faking emotion, I said on my mind.

"I'm glad I am wearing pants," I said

"what?" he seems astonished by my statement

"do you know how uncomfortable it is to back ride while wearing a skirt?"

" How can I know? Wear this helmet"

And then he drives his motorbike like he is racing with other drivers on the road.

Shit

"You can hug me"

"what?"

And then he drives faster leaving me with no option but to hug him.

" Can you drive slowly?" I shout but he seems to enjoy the ride.

Although my heart is beating fast because of the way he drives, it somehow calms my inner self.

The breeze and the view are so relaxing!

The sun is about to set and I can hear the sound of the waves.

I get an excitement realizing that we are about to go to the sea.

I need it right now!

And then he stops.

"Here we are!"

"wow!"

My eyes were left in tears by the sudden strike of the ambiance. It could have been better if he was the one I am with right now.

I steal a glance at Andre who is busy setting up the picnic mat.

" I can't believe that you are well prepared for this?"

"Why? don't you like it?"

" Thank you, I feel a little bit lighter"

He walks to me.

He took off my ponytail.

Suddenly I felt a little bit awkward.

"Your hair is a mess"

Is he blushing?

"What the heck, it is your fault somehow"

" I can comb it for you later?"

My cheek turns red.

I kick him off "What the hell"

and then he laughs so hard.

" let's sit down, I have some beers"

"I envy the moon, the stars never leave her" I sigh

"The stars may be all over her side, but still the moon seems lonely too"

I look at him "that is a deep thought"

"But she never knew that somewhere out there, there is someone who is looking up and is captivated by her," he said again.

He was referring to the moon, right? I ask myself.

"Can I ask you?"

" You are asking already"

what a sarcastic dude.

I roll my eyes but smiled at his sarcasm.

" Keall told me that you don't like flirting with girls, why is that?"

" Did he told you that? Do you think I am flirting with you?"

Huh

"No! I am just curious, why would you think that way? besides, I think you are not the type of guy

“who would be interested to be involved in his friend's ex."

"I am already involved, we are friends now and right at this moment I think he is already punching me in his head"

"He knows that I am with you?"

" I told him before I called you"

"What did he said?"

"still interested in him?"

"Of course, I am lying if I am not, he still affects me and I know it will take a lot of time before I move on from him"

"hey you changed our topic, I am asking you"

"you let me change it"

" so why?"

" Nothing, I just don't want to waste my time"

"so I am wasting your time" I joke.

" I don't know if I am wasting my time with you but I know you are worth it"

this time he sounds a bit serious and I feel a little prick on my stomach.

"Have you ever been into a relationship before?"

" Can we not talk about my past, you are getting nosy"

He is indeed straightforward.

"Okay"

And his look suddenly turns into a guilty guy who robs his little sister of candy.

"I am sorry, I am just not into you know, talking about my stuff"

"It's fine, I am sorry"

"wait let me get our beers"

There is something about him which I am curious about, I just can't tell. Why do I feel an odd feeling? Keall and he are so different.

Keall is very carefree and is genuine in his every action while his brother has a lot of hesitation that I want to know somehow. He is indeed a good guy but there is something dark about him.

Am I being judgmental?

"here you go"

"Thanks"