Chapter 4

We rushed to the hospital my birthday forgotten altogether, but its not like I worried about it. I don't even know why we are all rushing to the hospital considering the fact that they specifically said 'died on impact' and I know we knew that it was him because it was a silver Porsche Spyder 911 and it was on the route that my Dad takes. I'm worried about mom and Damien although I know that he is more worried about me and I love him for it. When we finally reached our hospital wing we saw my Dad laying there lifeless, he's skin too pale and I almost broke down. Key word: Almost.

I knew I didn't have the luxury to breakdown I had to be strong for my mom and from the moment we entered the room and my mom rushed to Dads side and completely broke. My mom, the strongest woman I know, was right in front of me looking like a broken child and I couldn't blame her, just looking at her I few rebellious tears fell ( clearly they didn't get get the memo) but there I stood still at the entrance of the room willing myself not to break. I looked at Damien and the look in his eyes show me that he reached the same conclusion I had and we just nodded, a silent agreement made and the doctor said something but I was too numb to hear I just kept repeating in my head 'you can't cry, you have to be strong' over and over again like a mantra but then a small voice in the back of my mind said 'you knew this was coming, you could have prevented it. Its all your fault and soon it will get worse and you'll know just how much if this is your fault. This is just the beginning ' which was unnerving because I know nothing about this still that same voice says I do

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The next morning was hell we had to identify dads body last night and pretty much drag mom home they told us that they sent him to the morgue till the funeral. My mind went blank The funeral. How could I go to my dads funeral its just to much and I almost lost it, again, it but pull it together just in time I knew that this will just make it worse when I finally do release everything and I know it's unhealthy but I just have to push through, at least for the time being. I reluctantly got out of bed and looked in the mirror, my eyes are red from the little tears I had last night... Who am I kidding I had a mini breakdown and maybe a tinsy tiny panic attack, so even though I really didn't want to ( but to keep my sanity), I had to get ready for school and I know some people might think its insensitive but after last night I knew I had to take care of mom, and after I said goodbye to Susie and Angel, Damien and I decided that the best thing we could do was try and act as normal as possible without seeming heartless and I agreed so now I was going to do the thing I feel strongly against: pretending but I keep on telling myself its for mom, to keep her strong so even though it killed me on the inside I knew it was necessary although I didn't know that it would lead to the consequences of two days later when mom got dads Will. I'm a little surprised of what came shortly after that. " Kids " my mom said after calling us to the living room she looked like a train wreak which is exactly what my friends told me at school and I bet Damien's friends told him the same which is completely understandable I mean look at us none of us got enough sleep last night I mean between the hospital and calming down mom enough to leave and then moms next breakdown here at home and then helping her sleep last night and finally I think both Damien and I had our own personal Cry's in our rooms both wanting to be strong for the other." I know that Arthur's death is a tragedy to us all and we all miss him" she says slowly and we nod in agreement afraid that if we say something she might break again." But we have to move on, its what he would've wanted" she says looking at her hands like she's trying to decide what to say and if she should tell us and I start to get worried. I look at Damien to see an expression that I'm certain matches mine. " Which is why we're moving " mom says still looking at her hands but looked at us when there was silence, like she's waiting for a response and I know she is but I don't know to feel or say. I mean the first thing I felt was confusion, then sadness and anger and now it's going to humor, I mean she has to be kidding right. I mean us move away from Colorado? Come on. Still as much as I want to deny it there was something in my moms expression that was anything but humor and slowly it sunk in 'We're moving' that sentence replays in my head the entire night after mom told us where we were moving to, some place in Alaska called Hades or something like that, I was in such shock, I mean how will I tell Susie and Angel. I fall asleep that night having the weirdest dream about a wolf with blue eyes, a black coat and it was huge I mean even though I was standing he towered over me and just as I was about to scream he turned into a man with tanned skin, like he was in the sun too long and if Greek Gods existed, Lord he would've been one cause his body was nothing short than perfection. And that became written in stone when he smirked at me " Found you" he said and faded away leaving a huge blue moon behind him well it was blue but started turning a blood red from the outside until the previous blue moon was now a blood red moon. Then just as soon as it started it ended and I just slept in darkness after that. I wonder what he meant "I found you " somehow I knew two things he wasn't lying and that something was going to happen and the thought was worse cause the last time I felt like this, my dad died and now I'm moving. Can life get any worse? And immediately I knew the answer :yes.

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What could be worse than a parent dying ?

If it was any normal person than they would think there's nothing worse than that but Rose is not a normal person.

So what will happen to Rose that is worse than death?

Here's a clue: Everyone has a past and has something we all wish we can forget but the world is smaller than you think and that's what Rose will find out sooner rather than later.