Chapter 29

Chapter 29

2017.05.23

We got a call that Grandma was serious. She is my mother's mother. We rushed to the hospital. Engel and little bro was at my aunt's home. I and mother went to see Grandma.

We came at morning 6 o'clock. I am going to cut school today. Engel is going to school and later she will go back to my aunt's place and little bro will be with mother. I saw grandma through the window. I placed my hand on the window glass. I did not have the chance to visit my grandma as much as I wanted to. My tears started flooding my eyes before it reached my cheeks my cousin next to me said, "Do not cry for show. We know you do not care." I fought back my tears and took of my hand from the glass. I went out and sat under a tree. I kicked some stones. I sighed. Mother came out. "Anna, your brother is asking for me. And we cannot have more than six people in the hospital." "Okay, mom. Should I go to Aunt's place and pick him up and drop him here. I think we should trouble aunt." She nodded and gave me some cash more than enough. I took the bus to my aunt's place and picked my brother and got the next bus to the hospital.

"Anna. Can I some jelly?" "There is a shop in the hospital. I will get you jelly there." He nodded and held my hand tight. "Will grandma come home with us?" "I do not know. May be not. Take care of grandma." He held my hand tighter and did not utter a word. He was matured than his age. He sometimes felt like my older brother in a mini version.

"Shall we get some lollipops too?" "Yes, get one for Engel too." I left him with mother and went back to Engel. It was already six in the evening. I took the bus to a pharmacy. I was not ready to go home. I called my aunt. "Aunty, where is Engel?" "She is sleeping dear. Have you dropped your brother?" "Yes, I will be back in an hour. The buses are crowded a bit. Please tell mother that I came. I do not want her to worry. I will come soon. I will update you every ten minutes." "Okay dear. I will. Be careful."

I sighed and placed my head against the bench. I went down the alley. Here they sell pills illegally sometimes. I got to know this place from the news. I wanted some sleeping pills. I was not able to sleep for 2 days straight. I cannot function without a good sleep. The alley was filled with men and street vendors. I came across a vendor and asked him how I can get to a pharmacy. He gave me directions and went along and found a pharmacy at the edge of the street and at the end of the street it opened to the main street. It was safe.

It had been ten minutes already. I texted my aunt, 'Still no bus.' I went to the pharmacy. "Good evening. I want some of these pills." I handed out a Doctor's note. "It is outdated." "Huh? It cannot be my aunt just gave to me in this morning to get the pills. Can I have a look at it sir?" He handed me the note. I pretended to call my aunt. "Hey, aunty. I think you have given me a wrong prescription. Can you send me a photo of the write prescription?" The pharmacist was watching my every action. I showed a serious and a calm look to him after the call. I did not smile. From my mobile I rang the ringtone for my message inbox. I pretended to get the image and showed him the prescription. The pharmacist nodded his head and went to get the pills. I edited a picture of the same prescription changing the date and inserting a recent date. I picked back my phone before he goes through it in doubt. I paid him and thanked him.

After another ten minutes I texted her that I am on my way. She replied me with a thumbs up emoji. I walked to my aunt's place as soon as possible. It took me only fifteen minutes. "It took a long time for you to come." my aunt questioned while opening the door. "I walked from the sesame street" I replied without lying to her. "Are you out of your mind? What if your mother gets to know?" "I am sorry. I was feeling bad for grandma and I just wanted to walk to waste a little energy so I can sleep a little longer." I reasoned her looking down at the floor and handed a bubble tea for her. "Okay. Your room is in the top floor" she said and took the bubble tea from my hand swiftly. She loves bubble tea. I grabbed a glass of water and headed up to the room that was supposed to be mine for the day.

The room was slightly shabby. I sat at the foot of the bed. I slid my hand into my pocket and took out the pills. I popped one pills in to my mouth and gulped it down with water. I put down the glass. I took out the receipt, the prescription and went out of the window to the roof and burned them. I came back down before the pill works. I deleted the photo of the fake prescription before anyone could see. I fell asleep.

I woke up it was past eleven o'clock. I went downstairs. My aunt was packing up a bag. "Oh thank god you are awake. How can a girl sleep like that?" I sat down. "Where are you going?" "Your mom and I will be staying at the hospital. Your father will come in a while." "Engel?" "She woke up. Had sweets and slept again." "Hmm. Okay." "Do not sleep again. Wait till your father comes. Keep the phone mom gave you next to you." I nodded and saw her leave. I locked the door behind her.

I still feel drowsy. The drug has not completely off my blood. I went to the kitchen. It was a mess. My aunt is not a tidy person. You could tell once you lay your eyes on her. I searched for something to eat. There was old bread. I tossed it to the bin. There was pasta. I boiled the water and added the pasta and meanwhile it cooked I made white sauce. I arranged a plate for me and cleaned the kitchen and the utensils.

It was eleven thirty and I was in front of television eating pasta. My head was not doing okay. It spun. I started having nosebleed. I kept the plate aside and went to the bathroom sink and washed my nose and clogged my nostrils with tissue stopping the bleed. My eyes were bloodshot. I watched my reflection on the mirror but it belonged to someone else.

2017.05.27

I came early to the biology class. I wanted to breathe a bit. Away from home a little bit. I feel nauseous at home. I had new shoes that I did not wear for at least four months. I wore it today because I wanted a little positivity now. I liked the color very much. Green and white with a green 'V' on the sides. 'Virus' I thought. There was barely anyone in the class. Except for Jessica's guy friend and Masha's Guy friend's friend. They were sitting and saw me coming and noticed my shoe. "Hey man! Look new shoes." And they laughed hysterically. I went to my seat and kept my bag and turned back towards them. I am going to vent my anger today. I placed my hands on the desk they were sitting at. Leaned over to their face and "Hey! It would be nice if you keep that sewage tunnel shut!" Only Jessica's guy friend was amused by my reaction, other one was shocked. I left the class and sat out on a bench. More friends of Masha's guy friends came. They watched me like vultures, something was off. The gazes was different.

I minded my own self and went back to class after sir came. Masha and Sarah sat on the end corner in the same row.

I came out at interval. Masha's guy friend's friends (let us call them The Annoying Guys) were ganged up at the corner. They were quite laughing at something and noticed me and said something to each other and looked at my shoe. Many complimented my shoes today actually, may be they liked the shoes.

I got back home and laid on the bed. I borrowed mother's phone and logged in to my stargram account. There was a message. It was from an Italian guy. He was texting with me for a while actually. He had texted that his parents are forcing him to get married and asked me to come to Italy and he will send tickets. Like as if it would happen. Italy tickets are expensive. He was nuts or a psychopath. I just said oh really and dropped the message. I went and checked The Annoying Guys accounts, the one who commented on my shoe had uploaded a new bio. It read "Sorry I quit. Infected by virus" and a green shoe next to it. I sighed. I was fed up with their drama and also disgusted by them at the same time. I know I should not be rude but I just cannot get to like them. They creep me out.

Jessica dropped me a text. 'Anna do not text with that Italian guy. He is not Italian he is that (it was Jessica's so-called guy friend). I froze for a while. Ewww… Like was he pretending to be someone and telling me that his parents wanting him to get married. I think he should get married ASAP. I wanted to be sure it was him so I texted him, 'You know I want to tell you something.' 'Go ahead' he replied. I texted him back, 'There are three guys in my class one is an idiot' I sent a profile of the guy who teased about my shoe, 'next one thinks that he is a charmer' I sent his profile and lastly I texted, 'this fellow is a creep. Gazes at me all the time.' and sent Masha's guy friend's profile. I waited till one explodes. This Italian guy texted back with emoji's. I would tell you this guy literally will steal your heart through texting, he is so damn good. Very impressive