Chapter 39

2018.06.06

The people who were worked like so hard were absent today. I came to school because we had to clean up the mess and get feedback again from the teachers and the principals. The students and the members of the day were not happy the way the credits turned out to be. Many competitions flowed in and we were never informed about it and only when there were no one to attend they called us in. I straightly rejected. I am busy too not only them. Kate had come but not the president and her team. They were on leave. The ones who praised them blamed for their irresponsibility but then again they are the ones who give them over and over again. Like, REALLY? Cannot they appreciate our sweat, blood and tears?

I was the only one in our class. I swept the class and watered the plants. I noticed mold forming rotten food pieces on the plant soil. I sighed. It was one of Jessica's friends. After they have their meal they was their hands on the plant. I come daily to just water the plants except for the weekends. Mrs. Beth came in, "Only you?" "Seems like that, madam." I said shrugging my shoulders. "Madam, I think you have to tell the girls to not wash their hands in the pot. I told them thrice but they do not seem to listen to me." She looked at the soil and frowned. "Can you clean them up and I will tell them on Monday."

I bought the dust pan and got the hand shovel from the cupboard and dig up the top soil and placed them on the dust pan. I cleaned the three pots and took them down to throw. I saw Kate and she saw me too. She came towards me. "Anna, the presentation was dope yesterday." I smiled and said "I know." She smiled back and continued, "Did (President's name-she is also the school captain) come today?" "No, they are tired with their hard work yesterday." I said rolling my eyes. She sighed, "They are asking for the expense list. I have only the half of the bills." It was not new that she is being irresponsible and whenever you point it out, she would say that they are not robots nor immortals to not to feel tired. According to me those are petty reasons.

I also want to do a day and give chances others to perform too. Zarina and Sally approved. So we thought of doing 'Science Day', it has been four years since we had our last science day. I went to our sectional head and asked if we can do a science day. "Sir, can we do a science day?" "No, are you crazy. It is very hard and principal madam said that she will not help to do any other days." "Cannot we try at least?" "I cannot ask. You can go and ask if you want. I cannot involve in this." He backed off like a piece of trash. Oh! I hate him so much. Well I did not hate at the first. I trusted and had hope on him.

2018.07.12

I, Sally and Zarina sat and talked about doing the science day because we wanted to do something and not sitting in idle. We had a chat with the other two science classes that did in the native language and we did science in English. They agreed with us and it was a chance for them to do something. Our sir is not going to help. The other classes talked with their teachers and they were up to it.

I made a small leaflet on how we are going to do the science day. We self-appointed the positions in the club. We were hoping it to go that way. I, Sally and Zarina decided to meet the principal after school. Now we were not allowed to have Science day, Commerce day and Arts day. The svhool was in a chaos state. We had to wait and let it settle. We ditched our plan and waited for the perfect time. And the exams were ahead of us.

2018.07.19

We are having exams and tomorrow is chemistry. And today we are having a fight at home. My parents were mad at us for no reason and I could tell that something had gone wrong in the shop and it was absolutely not our fault. I do not remember what they told us. But they insulted us saying that we were no good kids and are the worst. My parents scarred us that day. We all cried and there was no tears left to shed but only gasps leaving out of throat. "Why are even here Anna?" I looked at my sister's dry eyes and red nose. I closed my eyes and pulled her close in. I should not be weak in front of her; for her I have to be strong. A shoulder to lean on. "I am sorry." "You are not the one should be asking. It should be them." My little brother was with my parents, he was too young to be involved in and he will be soon. We did not eat even though are stomach filled up with acid. We were too mad for it. We both decided not to talk, we are waiting till they ask for apology.

2018.07.20

It was early in the morning. I did not iron my clothes yesterday night. I sat on the chair waiting till my mother finish ironing her clothes. Father was there standing and still keeping insulting and saying that we are now avoiding them and told that when they get old we will turn a blind eye on them and would not even visit them and they will be dead, rotting in the house. Engel was awake and listening in the room. I did not speak a word and I watched at my clothes piled next to me. I was holding in. I was tapping my feet and praying that my mother hurries. My mother took the uniform that was next to me to iron as usual. I pulled from her hands because I was pissed off. She threw at my face and said, "You useless wretch." My father got angry at my action and my action made my mother cry. Engel had got off the bed and was about to go to the washroom. My father stood from his chair and approached me and punched in left eye. I let go the iron and held my eye. I heard Engel, "Stop that! Lay another hand on her I will hit you back!" I was shocked. I have never saw this side of her. Tears were flowing down her cheeks. She broke out. My father approached her and I stood in front Engel protecting her. I could only see from my right eye. My left eye was blurred. My father went away swearing and insulting at us. "You okay?" Engel placed her right hand on my left arm. I nodded. I did not want her to worry, I should take care of her. "Let us get ready." I suggested. She nodded and went to get ready. I blinked hard and started ironing my clothes and tears were popping out from my left eye.

I got ready. My left vision was finally coming back to normal. My head ached really badly. Every time I blinked my eye ball ached and I felt dizzy. I took out red sandalwood and applied some around my eye to ease the pain. I do not know if it will work but I loved drama. My eye was bloody red and I had to go to school with it because I want to escape and I had chemistry exam. My mother noticed it. I did not want to pick the lunch box but I still did; because I did not want to hurt her. I did not know why I still cared when they killed me.

Mrs. Beth noticed my eye and she knew something was wrong. "Anna can I see you for a minute?"