Chapter (10)

She is feeling something strange, something that is heavy on her chest. She can't express it as it's so far and can not be expressed. No one will gonna understand what is she feeling. She shrugs it off and continues her life but still this weird sensation as she knew things before it happens.

She is now in grade 5 and she began to feel bad like she doesn't feel herself, something weird is happening. When she talks she feels like the time is replaying, her heart was clutching but she can't know what is that? why is this happening with her? She didn't tell her mother because she can't express this feeling. What is she feeling? like she is from another world, this is not her world, she feels like this is not her place...

She is still a kid but a part of her is fighting to make her feel something. We will express this feeling when she gets bigger and that feeling was just because she was getting bigger and this is her period only-

Do you think that?

Do you think that this feeling was only her period or this is only nonsense?

It can be something serious!

Our little girl becomes big now and she has that time all the girls have in every month. She is now in grade 6 but here we go, our time to get bigger and our feelings as well. In this period every human who hit puberty wants to be loved and someone to care for him and this is what happened. There was a boy who started to get Hana's attention by glancing at her weirdly, she noticed it and started to ask herself why is he looking at her? at the beginning of the day, at lunchtime, at the end of the day also one every time she caught him staring at her. She started to feel something but what is that feeling? she begins to focus on that boy, he was older than her by one year. She started feeling that feeling in her chest that is making her blush every time she remembers his face looking at her.

Now every glance would make her on cloud nine but she wanted to talk, to talk with him but she was very shy, she was afraid that he would reject her but she joined some girls and they all started talking but still she feels weird, one of those girls went to her one day.

"Hey, Hana, Anton says that he loves you."

That feeling of happiness and love...Love yes love that's it but what little Hana knows is that all this was a lie, a big lie. All this was from her imagination, this girl, that boy, all that she was just imagine. It was just staring without any emotions but how? he was glancing at her maybe smiling at her but no it was just a lie. She was still young to be broken like that...

She tried to forget about that guy but a year passed and she is still feeling for him, she couldn't especially when she tried to confess to him he laughed and that broke her heart more.

Hana, stop this weird feeling. You are still young and the world is still not exposed to you well, you will know that you belong to another world that will be more exciting and full of happiness and love. Yes! that one who still waiting for you to love him or to notice him but you are still young to understand that...

Have you ever feel like someone is behind you or watching you?... I don't want to scare you but for real have you ever feel that something weird is around you? That is something or someone is seeing you from far like you feel their eyes on you. You can't see them but they are seeing you...

This is what Hana was feeling, she is now 16 years old in high school but from time to time she began to understand this cruel world, how she isn't like others. She sometimes feels special, she is still lovely and caring and loves her friends a lot but unfortunately, they didn't care as much as she cared about her. One by one she became cold not so cold she is still pretending to smile but from inside she was broken.

She was hiding all her feelings inside her soul, she can be sad but pretend to be happy, she can be crying but she is smiling like her body is torturing her and clutching her heart to not even dare to fall any tear from her eyes or reveal her true self but at night all the rules were opened to her, she can cry in the dark with quiet sobs that no one can hear her but she didn't even think to hurt herself or end her life, she was loving life and want some peace.

Yes! we forgot about that weird feeling she was feeling earlier.

Like there is something strange is watching her, what is that? she got afraid every time she feels that. She would run, run so fast, and that feeling moves away and sometimes she feels that is a hand is grabbing her shoulder or breathing hot near her neck during her sleep...

Suddenly, she opened her eyes widely breathing heavily and sweating. She put her hand on her chest and breathing hard, her chest is going up and down but as she looked around her...

"Where am I?"

I know it's weird and beyond imagination but waking up in another place you didn't sleep last night and in another world...

"Where am I?" She was breathing heavily when her door opened revealing a middle-aged lady in her 50s wearing a black gown smiling warmly at her.

"Good Morning my Princess." the lady bowed make Hana stare widely.

"Who are you?" the lady chuckled

"I am your maid Nany my princess."

"What? Where is mom?" She stood up from the bed

"Sorry, my princess. She died 16 years ago" her eyes got bigger

"WHAT ARE YOU SAYING?" Hana shouted like a mad person.

"Oh my majesty, I think you are stressed, please calm down."

"What are you saying? Where am I?" suddenly she groaned in pain holding her head from a sudden headache until she fell unconscious and fell to the ground, Nany hurried to her and hold her head on her lap trying to make her wake up but nothing...