Ignore!
A word too big in itself.
Ignoring makes people a lot stronger.
People are ignored by people.
But a lot of the time people
are often ignored by nature
and their own fate.
And where there is love, there must be neglect.
I need to move on. I know, I'll never forget you but I've to live without you. Cause you'll never be mine. You are precious, you are the prince of many girls and I'm just one of them.
I dreamed everyday. In my dream, you always come to me. We talk, laugh, walk together. We spent time together. We have our small family. We are really happy. You take care of me and I give you so much love. In this unknown world, our small world is really beautiful. I was scared, I didn't want my dream to be shattered. Because if I open my eyes, the beautiful life would be full of darkness.
Why is reality is so cruel? Why can't I live in my dreams? with you?
Enna' days were going on as usual. She was working hard to forget Byul. She was running after her career without eating and sleeping properly. But if we start oppressing our bodies, we will get sick. And that's what happened with her. One day Enna was working. And suddenly she felt dizzy. She was trying to calm herself down and try to sit up. But before she could do so, she fell unconscious on the floor.
She opened her eyes in the hospital bed. Her colleague friend Lia was there with her. Enna is trying to get up from bed. "Umm don't. You need rest." Lia's voice is very tense. "I'm okay, Lia. Thanks for your help." "Are you sure?" "Sure? About what?" "That you are okay." " Yeah! It's just weakness cause I haven't eaten properly since last few months." "Is that all?" Lia's voice is very low. "Lia, Is there anything more important that I need to know?"
sigh
"Lia!"
"You are pregnant Enna."
without saying a word, she sat on the bed for a while. "Speak up, Enna." "H-how months?" "2 months! The doctor said your condition is good, you can have an abortion easily" "Stop!Stop Lia." Enna was screaming. "Enna, are you thinking of giving birth to it?" Enna put her hand on her stomach "Not it Lia, I'll give birth to my child. I'll, I'll be a good mother. I promise." "And what about his/her father? Sigh. Enna please be practical."
"My child's father doesn't want me. So he won't even want our child. I will be a single mother. My child doesn't need a father to lead a good life. I will give my baby a beautiful life Lia. I was very worried about how I would be busy in my life, what to do and see, I got a new goal in my life." Enna's eyes filled with tears, tears of joy.
Thinking about the baby, Enna would miss Byul even more. But, she was really happy. Enna took her brother and grandmother from Seoul to London. She told them everything. And they appreciate Enna's decisions. They wanted to give Enna's child a wonderful life.
Time was passing. Enna was working and everyone was taking care of her. Her family was so happy.
Almost 5 months now, her stomach began to come out. Enna used to measure her baby belly every day. She never wanted miss a moment of her baby.
8 months left, Enna's delivery date is coming but still she is working in her office. Suddenly she heard a sound. Alexa put a glass of juice on her table. "Have this Enna. You should eat and drink properly." "Thank you, Alexa." Enna smiled at her. Alexa leaned a little against the table. "How's our baby boy?" "He is perfectly good and healthy." "That's really good but Enna, don't you really want to infrom his dad?" Enna put the pen from her hand on the table, sigh "Who wouldn't want to say? But Alexa, I'm just his need. I love him so much still now but he never loved me. He loves his career. Now his career is growing too fast. He will never take a risk to accept his child. And I also don't want to contact with him. I'll be happy as a single mother. I don't want my child to know the identity of the father who will never accept on him. Because he is very selfish when it comes to his career." Enna words was showing the pain of love but her eyes were happy with the feelings of being a mother.
"I'm really proud of you Enna and I know you will be a very good mother." "Thank you Alexa." " Can I ask you something Enna?" "Let's not talk about his father." Enna was laughing. "Can you read mind? God damn!" both were laughing. "Okay Enna, I'm promising you today that I'll try my best to help you in your life and I'll never ask about his father." "Alexa you have always been my guide. I will never forget anything I learned from you. Thanks so much for everything."
A few days later, just before her delivery date, Enna suddenly started having labor pains. She was at home. Her family was calling for an ambulance. They arrived at the hospital. Enna was fainting. The doctors were trying to wake her up. The atmosphere was very tense. Lia and Alexa were also waiting outside. After 30 minutes the doctor came out of the room, "Congratulations, It's a really beautiful baby boy." Tears of happiness in everyone's eyes. "How's Enna?" "There were no complications so it was a normal delivery. You can meet her after a while."
Everyone went to the room to see Enna. The nurse came to the room with the newborn baby. Everyone was so excited to see him because the whole hospital is buzzing that today an angel has come down from the sky to the hospital. The baby boy is unrealistically beautiful. The nurse handed the boy over to Enna. The boy was sleeping but when he went to his mother's lap he opened his eyes and saw his mother and gave a strangely beautiful smile. Everyone was stunned by the precious moment. Her eyes filled with tears and she kissed him on his temple. His smile and eyes were just like Byul. Sharp, bright and beautiful.
"From now on my child will be known as Miso, Miso Kim" everyone was cheering and happy.
"We have to finish all the formalities, ma'am." nurse saying to Lia. "Okay. You may go, I'm coming."
"Enna!"
"Yes."
"We need to fill out the form and complete all the formalities."
"Yeah, I know that."
"What should I write?"
"Kim Enna."
"And father's name?" few moments of silence.
"By-Byul Kim" Enna took the name because people rarely knew about Aiden's real name.
"Okay!"
It's been about 6 months. Miso now crawls from one end of the house to the other. There is always a lot of joy at home with little miso. Enna now works more than ever. Because her responsibility has increased now. She must give her child a beautiful life. She always remain tired, but when she comes home and sees the smile on her family and Miso's face, all her tiredness goes away.
It was Sunday. Enna's grandmother offer Enna to grab a coffee with her.
"Enna, I want to say something." it's a serious tone.
"Yes, grandma." Enna started listening seriously.
"Miso is growing up. One day, he will start walking and slowly start talking. Then he will start to know a lot and many questions will arise in his mind." sigh
"I know grandma but I'll try my best to be a good mother."
"I know you will be. But I'm taking about what next? When Miso asks you about his father, what will you answer? Where is he?"
"Grandma~" "I never thought about this. I don't know."
"I don't know, it's not a solution Enna. I'll support you in your every decisions but I want you to talk to Byul once." Enna's eyes winded.
"Enna, I think he loves you, but back then he was scared of commitments. But now he's also a grown up man. He needs his family too. I don't know why but I think he loves you so much and he will be so happy to know about your child." "Enna please think once about my words."
She thought about her grandmother all day and she thought she would talk to Byul. The next day she got Aiden's number from her office. She came home with Aiden's number and she was thinking of dialing. Just then Victor turned on the television and where Aiden was interviewed live.
Aiden was happy and suddenly the host asked about his first love.
"Have you ever fallen in love, Aiden? Your fans want it now." and hearing this Aiden's smile faded away. The host was horrified to see his reaction. "D-Did I ask something wrong?"
"No! You didn't.I never talked about it. Today when you asked me this, I want to say."
Enna was also watching this.
"Yes, I fell in love in a very surprising way. I don't understand that I love her so much and will love her more." his head is bowed
"Did you tell her?"
Aiden raised his head, there was pain in her eyes. "When she was with me I didn't understand her importance. I became very selfish about my career."
Her grandmother looked at her. There was tears in her eyes. This time she will call Aiden for sure. Because Aiden is talking about her.
"I-I-I didn't realize that I loved her until she left me. I couldn't even tell her that I love her."
"Where she now?"
"She got married about a year ago. I'm praying for her happiness." Tears welled up in his eyes. "I'm sorry I'm getting emotional."
Enna cried in frustration. Because she thought for a long time that maybe Aiden was talking about her. But it wasn't her.
Enna tore up Aiden's number.