Chapter 93: Your poison seems to have worsen (2):

"Tian You... the bad news is that your poison seems to be getting worse. The medicine seemed to not be working. After all some medicine does' work over a long period of time. You have been taking this medicine for 10+ years. So it's quite normal it will stop working. But don't worry I will try to make a new medicine for you," announced Shang Guan Yue. 

I nodded in acceptance. I have realised this day will come sooner or later. "Also, Tian You the jade pool seems to be losing its power. You need to check it when you're free. The jade pool is the only thing that can sort of control your body's poison. You need to come here every month when it's full moon. You must also continue drinking the medicine until it fully doesn't work. Right now the medicine still works a little bit," explained Shang Guan Yue. 

I looked at everyone very calmly. This wasn't anything new. I knew that one day the medicine wouldn't work anymore. "Tian You are you ok?" Shang Guan Tao asked quietly as I nodded. "I have been expecting this day for a long time already. I thought I was going to die 10 years ago but I have lived longer than I have expected. Shang Guan Yue, tell me honestly. How long do I have left if you don't produce a new medicine?" I asked him while looking at everyone. 

"According to your body... you only have a year and a half," he muttered, "But don't worry I will definitely make you a new medicine,". Shang Gu looked at me with tears in her eyes and stated "Childe don't be like this. You can definitely live a long life," as I nodded and patted at her. I gestured for her to hug me. I believe she wants one right now. She hugged me tightly as she saw my gestures. 

"It's ok. Don't cry. There, there. I can do a lot of stuff in a year and a half. It's ok. I can finish all the stuff I want to," I muttered. "Shang Guan Yue and Shang Guan Tao you guys must promise me if anything happens to me you must make sure my family is safe and happy. If I do have disciples I hope you guys will teach them so that they will become responsible adults. I will use this time to teach Cheng Ling, Cheng Xue, Mei Xiang and Xiu Ying so that they can help you if I anything happens to me. You guys must choose 1 out of the 4 to be the next head. That is unless you guys want to be the next head," I explained everyone looked at me with tears in their eyes. 

"Guys, please don't cry. If you cry I will also cry. It's not good for a patient to be sad. Shang Guan Yue and Shang Guan Tao, can you guys promise me that?" I asked as they nodded whilst hugging me tightly. "Don't worry I definitely don't want to be the next head. It's no fun. I would rather spend my days creating new medicines and live happily with Chong Xue Zhi," he exclaimed. "Me neither, I wish to spend my time with Chun Hua and not to be stuck here," mumbled Shang Guan Yue. I laughed at their words. They really are my best brothers. 

"Shang Gu and Yu Xuan I will leave the Windows of Heaven to both of you. You must look after it well understood?" I asked as they both nodded. They looked really upset yet they didn't object to my questions. 

I need to do a lot of things during this time. I need to find a husband for Tian Xin and a wife for Tian Ming. And a match for both Yu Xuan and Shang Gu. I hope that after my death they can all live happily. 

We all hugged each other for a long time. At the end of this, we all had red puffy eyes, especially Shang Gu. I know that she still has feelings for me yet I only treat her as my little sister. Hopefully, she will understand over time. 

We all ate dinner after all of this. Everyone was laughing and smiling again. I think this is the best option for everyone. From this moment I will live my life as if it's the last day. I will live happily and healthy.