He understand me

I have to control my feelings. I can't love anyone. It will hurt both of us. I don't want to hurt him. I can't

go back with him. Love is harmful. Love can kill us. We enter to our world. Ryan ask me is everything ok

with you? Are you thinking about anything? I can't tell him right now. I want to spend some good time

with him. I tell him no, I am fine. I am just thinking about the exam. Ryan tell me don't worry I know you

will do well in exam. But you don't know me so how could you tell that I will do well in the exam. Ryan

tell me I can tell because I trust you. And I think we should go to your place. It's to late.

We come to my house. It's a little massy. I'm sorry for that. I live here alone so somethings I don't clean

the house. I hope you will understand. Ryan say it's ok. You don't have to say sorry. But why you live

alone. Where is your family members? I started living alone when I was 19. My dad wants me to be

independent and do my things alone. When I was 5 my mom committed suicide. Because my dad

cheated on her. She can't take it so she died. Then My dad married that girl. Ryan say sorry, I don't know

about that. Are you ok? Are you happy with your dad's marriage? First time in my life someone ask me

am I ok or I'm happy? I'm not happy with my dad's marriage. But I can't do anything. Nothing is on my

hand. My mom didn't think about me. What I will do without her she didn't think. She just thought her

love fail. What about me? She didn't love me that's why she did this. From that I knew love is harmful.

Love can kill anyone. I don't want to hurt anyone and I don't to hurt me.

Ryan tell love don't hurt anyone. People hurt each other. people make fun of love by cheating their love.

Please don't think that love will hurt you or me. If you don't hurt me or if don't hurt you then no one can

break our relation. In a relationship love, trust and loyalty is important. If we maintain is then we will be

happy. I ask him are you gonna marry me after 3 months. He tells me yes. I want to marry you. I say I

think we should sleep now. It's too late and I have wake up early in the morning. You should sleep in

that room. Ryan go to the room I come to room.

Ryan is thinking am I force her for the marriage? The thing is when I first saw her in the boat I feel in love

with her. I never have is kind of feeling. It's a new feeling and really love this. I want to be with her. I

want to see smile on her face. When I again her in the hospital I was so happy I can't express my

feelings. But when she came back to her world I thought I can't see again. But I was wrong she came to

the party. And now I am in her world. Why we live in a different world. But I can't force her to love me.

She has her own life. She will decide what she want to do. But I have a strong feeling that she likes me.

But she will never tell me. she doesn't have a trust love. Because of her past. But I will try my best.

Ryan likes me if I reject him it will hurt both of us. What should I do now. He is planning for our

marriage. God please help me. I don't want to hurt him. If I hurt him then I will be like dad. I don't want

to be like him. I can't hurt him or I can't hurt my feelings. First time in my life someone tries to

understand me. I want to be with him and I will go back with him.