Her (1): "I miss you"

I miss you. And some times, I just want to hurt you, then on the other hand, I want you to be happy. Then same time, I just want to be alone, but most times, all I want is your company... all of you.

*sighs*

"I am breaking up with you, I'm sorry" I would have said that but I feel like I would kill myself before doing so. Do I sound suicidal? Yeah, maybe but then you would ask me to go see some pysch dr. and I dooon't really want to.

I read. I sketch. I watch. I think of my family (though I communicate w/ them less). I smile and laugh. I force the tears to dry and never fall.

©️04.05.2020