Her (2)/Chest: Confused Like Love

Love is something I want and something I don't want.

A lover is someone I want to have and someone I don't want to have.

I read these sentences again and wondered,

"Is it something I need? Or someone I should be with?"

A fling, an infatuation, the fantasies I fear...

The other side of love is not hate, for me.

There's a hollow in my heart that I think I know how to fill but then this fear residing along inside keeps me at bay.

Have I to cry or have invisible tears?

Have I to get hurt and feel foolish most times?

Have I to endure the pain alongside the enjoyment of feeling happiness?

The reality, the forms, the fallacies, the vast presence of love both entice me and repulse me.

©️06.18.2018