I have a short story to tell
This girl with all the sadness and darkness in her world tried to be happy in little things she encounter
This guy came along and somehow rescued her for a while
But this girl was so used to that abyss that she had a lot of relapse that always breaks him
It's been more than a year and he is still with the girl
The girl did not expect another person to love her but some other guy did
With her contradicting mind, the girl gave some of her time to that guy
Poor guy, even when he knows he can be hurt he went along to the girl's bidding
The guy that stayed is still with her and she's hurting him, too
The girl does not like playing games but it felt like a game again, just like she looks at her life
A game of chess and she's a pawn of life, ready to be sacrificed to die for the Queen
The other guy who came along treated her like the Queen and she felt so good it hurts to let go
Her own King is hurting everytime she's out, everytime she's not telling him she's with some other prince
The girl was getting comfortable in how the things are going but then, deep inside, she felt guilty for not just dying for the real Queen
She's a pawn and just that
The girl wants the sunshine now but her old world always visits and gets her drowned
It's her fault she let it stay longer than letting it go
Letting go is difficult on her part
Her fears are holding her, chaining her to the prison of her own making
The guy who stayed is still there, outside the cage, along with the other guy
The girl stayed inside and tried to keep them both but then she had to choose the one her heart weighs most
There's nothing to let go and no one to let go, either
If time allows, and she's to never see any one of them, she'll restart again, just like she did lot of times
The girl with the sadness and darkness enveloping her didn't want others to feel the same so as much as time allows she stays
But no one really stays long with her
The girl tried to walk away from everything and everyone she met
She tried, God knows she tried but God knows she must not
It's been months since then but it feels like decades
The girl is still not complete just like the story is
I told a story and it didn't end so well
The heart can stop beating, the time it starts to love and care in doses it cannot bear
©️ 01.11.2020