Guilt and sadness

I snapped out of my bloodlust state. What was that? I looked over to Brian he was fighting someone with a hardening Power and he was taking severe damage. I rushed over to him as quickly as possible and knocked his opponent out of the way. He stared at me "You look like shit." "Yeah that's nice, but we might need to retreat." "Why?" He quickly counted the people left while twirling his swords. 20 minutes had passed and there were still three left. "Yeah alright let's make a count of their faces." he pulled out his tablet and snapped pictures of all of them. We then retreated…

A memory…

Sapphire came back from hanging out with Brian once again it was almost curfew. 7 Pm Kyla greeted Sapphire nicely once again as they sat on the couch together watching cartoons and laughing. "So do you have any ideals?" "Things you want to do?" Kyla asked after another episode of cartoons. "Mmm, I want to be a general!" Sapphire responded, "Why?" Kyla asked, curiously. "I actually don't know." Sapphire had watched a lot of historical fiction when she was on earth. She wanted to be a general because it sounded epic, but she didn't want to say that. "So what do you want to be?" Sapphire asked. "I want to be a high-class merchant and earn a noble status!" "You've got big dreams," Sapphire said while thinking she had never got a good education back on earth, so there were no high-paying jobs available for her.

...Current…

A memory of how Kyla was flashed across my mind as we were leaping through the trees, severely injured. Swoosh we were in a clearing when we got there we lied on our backs with severe bruises and burns, the pain making our minds feel like mush. I heard a sniffle from Brian then another. He cried with a straight face, mourning our friend…

Brian's memory… 3rd person

Sapphire had never really gotten to see her friend Kyla during school hours, their schedules at two completely different times except for lunch where all three of them sat together getting along and never truly arguing. Brian and Kyla's first meeting… Brian and Sapphire were in the lunchroom when a slightly short girl walked behind Sapphire. "Hey, Sapphire, there's someone behind you…" "I know, meet my roommate Kyla Kyla and meet my friend Brian." The girl looked at her toes with her hand out and he figured she was the shy type. Brian took her hand and shook it "Nice to meet you, Kyla." "Nice to meet you too." She responded with a smile lifting her head from looking at her feet. She sat down and the atmosphere was rather awkward, but eventually, they broke the ice and figured out they got along pretty well. Then the good times fleeted away off into the wind a couple of weeks later the torture started. Thinking it was no big deal, Brian ignored it then when Sapphire said something about it he knew it was serious. He thought if only he could've been a better friend maybe that wouldn't have happened. His mind practically shattered into thinking he should've killed them all. His thoughts were not much different from Sapphires becoming more alike by the day his heart was turning into an ice block just like Sapphires but there was one person who would never let that happen, Sapphire...

Brians POV. "Uck." I hiccupped once again, thinking of my dead friend she even had a crush on me as I did too. I was going to make my move I wanted it to be a surprise… But it was too late. "AAAGH." I let out a sad cry more than anger, I avenged her but at what cost? My innocence. My hands were stained with blood now. I liked her over the month we had known each other we had been friends although I wanted more than that I was planning on getting Sapphire to help me. But what should I do now? What should I do!!!??? A silent ache in my heart maybe if I sealed off my heart it wouldn't hurt anymore? I turned over in pain "H- hey Sapphire, do you think she would've accepted my feelings?" She had always known everything "Y- yes of course I told you didn't I? she liked you…" "O- okay." "One more question Sapphire would it stop hurting if I stopped opening my heart?" I genuinely want to know because it seemed like everytime I let my guard down or opened my heart something get's taken away from me. "It would but you'd lose yourself and I've lost too much today to let you go too." I was shocked by her emotional answer purple eyes reflecting like liquid amethyst. "You can stop using your power now." I said, "No I won't I can't see you so injured again." Her voice shaking made my heart started cracking once more. The morning sun started to rise to look under the sun I wanted to hope I wanted to deny but Kyla was gone Kyla was dead.

Sapphire's POV: I almost reverted. I almost reverted to my state where emotions were secondary no you can't get hurt if you don't let it happen. If no one has the opportunity you can never feel painful loneliness, just loneliness. I lost so much today. My friend I lost a truly royal person. I can't recover from that, not today. And Brian just lost the girl he loves. It broke my soul. What was the point of going on a killing spree? If it's not going to bring her back, why did I do it? I did it because I was angry. That was the simple answer. Olivia had stayed quiet in her little hole since the moment she realized what was happening. A piece of my heart felt like it had been chipped off and thrown away. I kept grasping at it again and again thinking about how much of this is my fault they only did this because we got a group of them on death row. Should I have done anything? A strong sense of guilt rushed over me again and again thinking about Brian's chipped heart and her parents. I thought of how my parents would feel if I died. More waves of guilt waved over me I couldn't stand or walk neither could he so we sat there not doing anything, him crying but me with my Power on so I could keep myself from looking at his injuries.