the so called god

"To be specific, you're still on your bed in your dorm." The black mess said. "I don't see how that's specific," I said frowning. "Your consciousness is inside your spirit realm so currently you are inside your soul." "Huh, you'd think my soul was a lot…" "Darker than this well yeah it very much is but I suppressed that so I could have a chat with you." I knew it it's the voice. "So you have a lot of questions who are you? What are you?

But I'll answer 3 questions." He said putting his black hand up. (The black mass looks like the anti spiral except without a face and no solid outline.) I considered carefully. "Are there other people who reincarnated here?" I asked after thinking for a while "Of course! Your just my favorite one!" He answered enthusiastically. I thought some more. "Who are you?"

I had come across some theories but never decided on one. "I am your god." He started waving around like he was drunk just moving and waving. I knew it but what did he mean by your god are there others out there if there are that doesn't make him a god, just this world's god. "Spot on child!"

He said weirdly he could read my mind I already knew that. "You know I'm not a child." I could already predict what he was about to say I had read too many cheap reincarnations light novels to not know. "You're a child to me." "I fell right into that didn't I?" "Yes yes, you did." He replied I could practically see a devious smile forming although he didn't have a face. The next question "Will I reincarnate infinitely?" I asked, "Depends on what you do here." He answered vaguely,

"Our chat is done I'll contact you next time something major happens!" He disappeared then instead of an infinitely white room, everything turned a gloomy shade of gray. Nice my soul is just as dark as I thought it would be. There were an infinite amount of screens from my first time getting a beating from my past life to my first time crawling here. My first kill all kinds of things so I went deeper and deeper into myself. Then I found every earth memory it was Karen and there was Sapphire

. Every second both of them marched together, it took a long time to find both of them looked to be around 12 hours of just running in every which way to find both. So I broke my outside concentration and was outside of the spirit realm I felt much calmer and much saner than when I first entered, but never the less couldn't and wouldn't go to sleep. I looked at the clock I had been in the spirit realm for thirteen hours and less than a minute had passed here. Now was not the time to be wondering about the time difference. So I sat there with my eyes open.

Nothing in particular coming across my mind… The sun was finally rising and the birds were chirping loudly. 'You didn't get an ounce of sleep.' 'The great Olivia talking to a mortal like me? Impossible!' 'Shut up and go to the therapist like you said you would.' I frowned 'But it's only like… 6 am!!' 'Go take a morning run then let out your stress.' She said like a know it all 'You realize I can't run right?' 'Walk, run, jog, whatever, just go outside!' She shouted loudly.

I grumbled. I put on my jogging suit and left out with my crutches. I left out the door the morning dew and the just rising sun lifted stress off of me but my guilt was still there in the back of my mind, just not nearly as bad as when I was in the room. Eventually, 2 hours had passed so it was time for me to walk to the school therapist for help. Apparently, the school assembly was supposed to be today and I knew why. Death at the school is a really enormous deal.

One of the most secure schools on the continent had a murder the queen and or king would most likely be notified and on of the advisors would definitely come here. I coud predict what would happen. One advisor would come here find out about Evil try to take them down but fails because of how many nobles are there and or just leaves them alone as soon as they find out it made me angry to know what this likely scenario is but I can't do anything about it except taking down the lackey's first.

I headed back to the dorm it felt empty and my guilt came to the forefront of my mind so I got out as quickly as possible I made sure the collar on my uniform was folded up all the way to cover the scars on my neck and rolled my sleeves to cover my wrists. I made my way down with my crutches the hallways had plenty of people in them already so stares and whispers weren't uncommon. "What happened to her?" "She looks depressed." "Finally she was knocked down a peg." "Did she even sleep?" "What's wrong with her?" I was slightly pissed off at their words they did not know what had happened, so I couldn't really blame them.

I made my way down to the therapist's office. I looked at the door. "Damn." I cursed, then walked into the door. A bright-looking woman wearing a white and pink sweater was sat down at the desk in front of me. She had greenish-blue eyes and had blonde hair. She heard the door opening and looked up and smiled. She scanned me with her eyes and pointed to a chair. She introduced herself. "My name is Kelly, the school's therapist what is your name?" I sat down and replied. "My name is Sapphire it is nice to meet you." "So, Sapphire, I would like to get to know you better. Do you have any interests?" She asked, pulling out a pencil and paper. I thought carefully "I like to practice martial arts."

"Interesting what kind of martial arts do you practice?" "I don't know." She nodded and asked another question. "Do you have any jobs you want to have in the future?" I thought carefully again "I want to start a dojo." I would never say out loud to a grown-up that I want to be a general. They'd look at me like I was crazy, they'd say, "you realize that you would have to kill people doing your job, correct?" Of course, since I am currently a child, they'd put it a lot lighter, but that's what they'd say. The purpose of a therapist is for you to open up about your feelings to make you feel better at least that's what I think it is.

So you have to trust your therapist, but even the word trust gives me shivers trusting is not very fun. Having someone that can end your relationships by just sharing what you told them to trust breaks your life. 'If you keep thinking like that the point of a therapist is defeated.' Olivia said 'yeah nice opinion I don't care.' "-Ello hello Sapphire can you hear me?"

"Yes, I can hear you," I said, ready to drift out again. "Does that happen often?" She asked studying me with her eyes. I thought about how many times I space out. 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20. I counted just in my time at school I had spaced out over 20 times. So… "Yes it does." I replied honestly. "Is there a reason for it to happen?" I would not reply honestly.

"No reason, in particular, just something I do when I'm thinking." "Are you sure?" She asked like she didn't believe my lie. "Yes, I'm sure." "I've been holding off this question since you got here you look…" "Hurt? Disheveled? Sleep-deprived? Yes, I know." I snapped a little I put my hand on my face. Why did I just do that? I usually would never snap like that. I regretted it less than a second after I said that it was her job.

"May I ask what happened?" "N-." As soon as I was about to say something stupid again, the bell rang. "It's time for you to go I hope to see you tomorrow." She said with a smile on her face. I mumbled something that sounded like me, too. And headed off to the dreaded assembly with crutches in my arms.

"Hello, fellow depressed person." I heard a voice just as depressing as his words come from behind me. Brian his hair was wet and messy, like he just got out of the shower. He was wearing a black uniform. There were two uniforms they provided us with a black and gold uniform and a white and gold uniform. I was wearing the black uniform too I didn't feel like using a white uniform, it just didn't feel like the right day. He had bags under his eyes, a glare just as depressing as the rest of him. "You look like shit." We both said in our depressed voices.

I looked at him accusingly "You didn't sleep last night, did you?" I asked in a slightly worried voice. The past days we had passed out from our injuries, you couldn't call it proper rest. "Says the one with deep bags under the eyes as well." "Mhm," I responded shortly. Everyone was going to the assembly room, an enormous room bigger than my entire house, lined with gold like the other rooms, only mega-sized. It was breathtaking, but nothing could get my emotions off the ground today. I sat up in the very back, too tired to sit anywhere else.

The room darkened it was almost pitch black, then a figure stepped up I had only seen that kind of confidence once before. It was the queen. The front stage brightened why was she here?

The queen, aka former green woman…

I came here because the strange girl was here. I have a strange feeling the murders had something to deal with her I wasn't here to investigate the murders of those stupid nobles that died. I came here to get justice for the girl who died that night. 2 days earlier….A panic had come over the room all of my advisors were panicking wondering how the murders had come about I had already found the answer.

"Silence!" I augmented my voice with ????? to make my voice more commanding. "We have let that organization roam for too long. We have to get rid of them." Advisor thirteen of the Ryhem family spoke up. "I'll snuff them out!" She said enthusiastically. One of my most loyal subjects was volunteering usually I would send one of them, especially advisor thirteen, but I had a personal interest I wanted to check. "I will go to the school and wipe them out. Advisor thirteen, you may come with me." "Yes!" Advisor thirteen pumped her fist she really wanted to see her youngest brother I could see the excitement in her eyes. The other more reserved advisors stared at her I just smiled. And left out of the castle.

I decided to fly there instead of teleporting. On our way to the island, now that I was finally free from the atmosphere of the castle, I wanted to confirm my suspicions. While flying close to the sound of speed, I slowed down a bit to let her catch up. She looked at me curiously and asked. "What's wrong, queen?" "I have a question." She had an even more confused look on her face. I let out a slight chuckle. "You only volunteered to see your youngest brother, correct?"

She blushed, realizing I had found her out, and waved her hands in the air. She had the 4th most influential position in the kingdom, but she still was weak to see her brothers. I chuckled again, "That's fine this is a straightforward mission it could take some time, but it should be easy. you'll have plenty of time to visit your brother." She pumped her fist in a little celebration and we kept going.

Currently...

I scanned the room augmenting my eyes to see the auras in the room. O felt a piercing eye scanning my every move it had to be the girl. I looked her directly in the eyes she stared at me too. Then I looked at her aura, which had a double outline. It was weird like another person was there, but then I saw the color. It was such a dark blue I was saddened by the spot the person next to her it was indescribable it was terrible. I got on with my speech.

"Today is a sad day… Today is the day we mourn a student. Ahem, we mourn our student's deaths." I took an intentional pause there were a lot of gasps and quiet whispers. "We assure you we will take justice for these students!" There were a lot more things in the speech that was prepared for me but even I didn't want to hear that much bullshit I almost cringed thinking about it.

"I with advisor Ryhem will avenge these students!" "YEAH!!!" I got the reaction I wanted without a ten-minute-long speech. After that, the stadium darkened and I and advisor thirteen disappeared.

Sapphire right after the amazingly brief speech.

Damn, she noticed me. I could predict what was coming from the surprisingly kind and free-minded queen. I saw this happen and was itching to get out of my seat I beckoned Brian, who had beads of sweat coming off of his face after advisor Ryhem got on the stage. We walked as quickly as possible with our crutches to go. We were the closest to the door, so we utterly tried to escape.

We made it out I let out a breath of relief and kept walking, but then I felt a monstrous aura from behind us. It was advisor Ryhem Brian turned around his face in pure horror, fear, and defeat he knew what was coming. We were alone in the hallway as we had desperately tried to take zigzags. I saw a pretty girl that looked to be in her mid-20s that looked like a carbon copied girl version of Brian. She was there than she was in front of Brian's face she had a serious look on her face when she...