Normal I think

Troy sat back and watched the buildings pass by. The seen changed ever so slightly ever few seconds. He had seen these buildings countless times and could name the next building out loud if he wanted too. Today he was just soaking up the view. His face was buried in a book for days. Something just felt settled and a unusual calmness had taken hold of him.

He should be reviewing his notes but sometimes felt off today. He was normally wound up tight and ready to go at a seconds notice. Everything felt normal and wrong at the same moment. He had settled into work and the routine took over his life once more. All his things at home were exactly the way he liked them to be. His room was tidy and his bathroom was sterile. He was happy with the comforts that this place provided. Troy might have felt guilty and a bit angry that he was enjoying the place, it made it feel like a bribe.

Cameron had started talking and carrying on small conversations. They where not best friends but as far as roommates go, Cameron wasn't hard to live with. He pretty much kept to himself in that massive room. Troy had pondered the perplexity of the situation. Troy decided to keep to himself anyway, there was alway a weird kind of feeling. Troy didn't really know where to go from here. Cameron once told him everything about his childhood or the lack of it entirely. Where they friends or was this just as uncomfortable for Cameron as it was for him.

Troy had never set foot inside Cameron room but knew he had the master sweet. In fact he barely had eaten dinner with him. Compared to his own room, Troy had decided it had to be huge. It wouldn't surprise him if it was larger then his first apartment. Which made since why he barely saw him. It was probably for the better and Troy had decided to make peace with it. Troy really didn't know where to go from here. The first week Cameron hovered Troy. Troy really didn't know which version of Cameron her preferred.

Troy had too much room to know what to do with and he had the smaller room. It was a better problem then not having enough. Troy also felt that he was the only one that used the kitchen or the the living room. His old apartment was small and he was happy to be living so closer to work. The car ride gave him a moment to review charts or notes. The only problem is the large space made him feel alone. He set up a desk and a reclining chair in his room. The chair was so comfortable he fell asleep studying in it a couple times. There was a part of him that was starting to become accustomed to the new place. He would sleep the entire night wherever his head fell and wake up to his alarm in a startling fashion.

Normally Troy would make plans on his days off but he found himself wanting to hang out in his room. He blamed it on the need to study. Which wasn't exactly a lie, but it wasn't the whole truth. Troy found himself not wanting to approach another girl. They where pretty and if he really tried he might enjoy himself. The problem was the image of the girl that floated around in his head. She would pop in at the oddest moment making it hard for him to stay focused. Just the thought of her gave him that feeling he craved before. The feeling that would give him courage to go and talk to some random person.

Toy didn't need them anymore, he felt complete in an odd way. The down side was this was all he was going to get, a few flashes of a past and a feeling of a satisfied sole. He couldn't touch her or hold her. She was off limits and he found himself reading the book he stole, daydreaming whenever he was feeling lonely. He loved the little notes in the corners of the page. Small amounts of wisdom made her seam older. She had become part of him and he was in love with a memory.

Troy knew she wasn't his yet, he felt like he didn't need to fill that void. He decided to focus on his future. Troy already had the love of his life and she was out there living and breathing. Perfect in her average normal kind of way. For now that was enough for him. He also knew it wasn't healthy for him. The hope that someday it will be different was all he wanted. The hope that someday he will find her again, Till then he will wait. He will build the trust with her father and do what he asked. For now it was living with Cameron.

Troy wondered how Reese was doing and a small smile lit up his face. She had saved him too. Reese was going to be a father in only weeks and he wished he could see the face of his nephew or niece. Troy knew why he would have to wait. His mother had said that one day they would all be able to come out of the shadows, once a cure was produced. Troy knew it was wishful thinking but he hoped it was soon. He hoped that all this wasn't paranoia or a severe mental illness. Troy found it odd that he was hoping for a spy movie plot. It was all so odd and he found it hard to find to know what he truly thought of everything. All he knew was he wanted to take her away from all of this or protect her.

Troy wanted this crazy dream to stop. He wanted his brother to live in the same town as him. He wanted to visit his mother for Christmas in the same old house he climbed the walls. Troy had stopped wondering if he would find the one. He already did, now he just needed to figure out how to get her back. How to get her away from all of this.

Troy stopped fearing that his brothers condition would progress, he was already better. Now he needed to figure out how to get him back. Ann was still not answering his calls. He knew that this was a possibility, she might be crazy or this might all be true. He saw with his own eyes his brother moving his legs. He met his father and slowly the memories started to fill his mind. Memories that where lost for over a decade.