DakotaInExile

Life often feels like a never ending cycle, a constant repeat of events from past to future days. Unable to break the loop, work, school, sitting and pondering. Whatever your daily schedule is, it’s hard not to stop and want to do something different. Yet no matter what you do, everything still feels like the same repeat of past events. You take a break but you’ve done so before, and will do so every time you get sick of the same loop. 

        But then that also becomes a loop, going to new places becomes the past and they’re just added to the endless cycle of constant repetition. A never ending ride with the only exit being death, a train that no one yet everyone wants to be on. Too afraid of the exit but dreading the next tunnel, that’s how my life was. When I think about it, it becomes ironic that things ended up this way…

        Stuck in a looping game, but without an exit, even death gives no release. It’s just another repeat of the day, added to a week, month, even a year. Constantly repeating the same actions, defeating the same enemies, befriending the same people. The same never ending betrayals, every action against it leads to more loops of events that inevitably lead to the beginning. 

         Makes one prefer reality, over the systemic hardware escapes we all flee to for some peace from the problems outside. Well, maybe not. But a repeat of the same life lived a thousand times throughout forty years, really does make one lose sense of reality.

I coughed up blood as I leaned into him with a sigh, “I guess the saying “Forever and Always” applies pretty well for us. Though I’m sure you would probably lead a good life, if the events ever continued after this. Too bad it’s a never ending hell loop.”

-Description p2 Shit Show edition-

Zenic Foster is a normal introverted gamer who has the misfortune of meeting Truck-Kun, as per usual, he’s transmigrated into a new body. But things aren’t normal, yes he turns out to be the hero who faces against the classic demon lord. That isn’t the issue, the issue you may be wondering so much about? Is that he’s living in a constant repeat of the same 40 years, accomplishments, friendships, wounds, betrayals. And every action against the painful repeat only creates more repetitive ripples in the ever vast ocean he’s sinking in. I wonder if he’ll ever escape, heh, who am I kidding. I should know, I am the one writing this half thought out possible shit show.

Repeated Lifetimes (DISCONTINUED for now)

          Staggering to my feet, gasping for air as I slowly lifted my eyes to meet my enemy. "How long have we done this? I've sort of lost count after the last thousandth." I chuckled out as he rushed at me, it was clear this was the end before another beginning. Both of us are exhausted, our limbs aching. And a distracting hot, constant streams of blood dripping down my side. This battle wasn't going to go on much longer no matter what I did, even if I ran away now, he'd simply chase me down. 


          And considering the state I'm in right now, that wouldn't be hard. I can barely even see straight, and his blade has already pierced my heart. Damn, I always get caught up in thought. Not like it matters anymore, I'll just be looped back again to the beginning like nothing ever happened, and go through everything another thousand times. Possibly to the end of time, a never ending loop that even death can't provide an exit for. 


           It's certainly a true hell, watching your comrades die over and over again. Constantly dying yourself, the same places, faces, betrayals, friendships. Every event leading to the same outcome every time…


           I coughed up blood as I leaned into him with a sigh, "I guess the saying "Forever and Always" applies pretty well for us. Though I'm sure you would probably lead a good life, if the events ever continued after this. Too bad it's a never ending hell loop." 


          I chuckled only to choke on the blood rising in my throat, "At least for me, I'm sure you forget everything about this after every loop. I guess that is better, you aren't constantly fretting and pulling your hair out every time trying to find a way to stop this moment from happening. To perhaps save us from this impenetrable wall dividing us…" 


          I lifted a shaky hand and caressed his cheek, "If this life goes on after I loop, promise me you'll at least build a grave? Promise me that cottage in the forest…" Groaning as I fell to my knees, his arms embracing me. My head pressed to his chest, "And Sardine, ha-ngh. That…Silly cat we both adore, take…care of, her…"


          The familiar feeling of cold water poured over me as I once again opened my eyes to the familiar tall windowed ceiling, "Forever and Always, huh. Some fairytale…"


The First Of A Repeating Lifetime