Chapter 31

Julian leaves the toy in place and starts stroking me all over, his touch oddly gentle. He starts with my feet, rubbing them, finding all the kinks and massaging them away. Then he moves up my calves and thighs, which are almost vibrating with tension. His hands are skilled and sure on my body; what he's doing is better than any massage I've ever had. Despite everything, I feel myself melting into his touch, my muscles turning to mush under his fingers. By the time he gets to my neck and shoulders, I'm as relaxed as I've been since waking up on this island. If I hadn't been blindfolded, bound, and sodomized, I would've thought I was in a spa.

When he removes the toy some twenty minutes later, it slides right out, without even a hint of discomfort. He pushes it back in again, and this time, the pain is minimal. If anything, it feels . . . interesting . . . particularly when his fingers find my clit and begin stimulating it again.

I don't resist the pleasure those fingers bring me. Why bother? I would take pleasure over pain any day of the week. Julian is going to do whatever he wants, and I might as well enjoy some parts of it.

So I divorce my mind from the wrongness of it all and let myself simply feel. I can't see anything with the blindfold, and I can't put up much of a fight with my hands tied behind my back. I'm completely helpless—and there's something peculiarly liberating in that. There's no point in worrying, no point in thinking. I'm simply drifting in the darkness, high on post-massage endorphins.

He fucks me with the toy, pushing it in and out of me at the same time as his fingers press on my clit. His movements are rhythmic, coordinated, and I moan as my sex starts to throb, the pressure inside me growing with each thrust. Abruptly, the tension gets to be too much, and there's a sudden, intense burst of pleasure, starting at my core and radiating outward. My muscles clamp down on the toy, and the unusual sensation only intensifies my orgasm. Unable to control myself, I cry out, grinding against Julian's fingers. I want the ecstasy to last forever.

All too soon, though, it's over, and I'm left limp and shaking in the aftermath. Julian is not done with me, of course, not by a long shot. Just as I'm starting to recover, he withdraws the toy and presses a different, larger object to my back opening. It's his cock, I realize, tensing again as he begins to push in.

"Nora . . ." There is a warning note in his voice, and I know what he wants from me, but I don't know if I can do it. I don't know if I can relax enough to let him in. It's too much; he's too thick, too long. I don't understand how something that big can enter me there without ripping me apart.

But he's relentless, and I feel my muscles slowly giving in, unable to resist the pressure he's applying. The head of his cock pushes past the tight ring of my sphincter, and I cry out at the burning, stretching sensation. "Shh," he says soothingly, stroking my back as he slowly goes deeper. "Shh . . . it's all good . . ."