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Madison -

Being on vacation is very enjoyable, I can't believe it's been a year since I finished school and started college, studying literature at Old Dominion University, Virginia was one of my goals, they have a good curriculum, and it's not that far from home, so I can go from time to time to visit my parents and sister in North Carolina; which doesn't allow me to see my girlfriend Samantha.

I met Samantha the first few days of classes in college, since then we've been together; I know she and I have had a lot of problems about my distrust of her. Sometimes I feel that he cheats me with half a faculty and that drives me crazy, and once I discovered that he did it and apologized, but, since then I have not believed him again, I feel that everything he says are lies, I no longer believe him or what he eats. In addition, I feel that I no longer love her as before, as the affection has been fading and the only reason I continue with her is because I think I fear loneliness, something immature on my part, I know ..., not to mention that on Friday she and I had a very strong argument, since that day we have not spoken again.

(Text message)

Hilary sent me a picture.

Wow!

Samantha kissing another girl, what a novelty.

- When was that? - I wrote to Hilary.

- Friday night, at Mark's party - he responded instantly.

- Thanks for telling me - I replied.

Hilary is my best friend since school, we both wanted to study the same career at the same university, it was always our dream to share a room together, and we succeeded, she has always been with me in the good and the bad, especially in the latter. When I told her I was a lesbian, she wasn't surprised because I had already noticed it and she didn't mention it to me either because she believed that speaking it out loud was my decision, so I would wait until I wanted to, that's why I love her so much, our confidence is mind-blowing.

(I call Samantha)

- Hello? - asks her.

- Hi Samantha - I replied.

- My Love! What do I owe this call to? - she asked with joy.

- My Love?, After you kissed any girl on Friday night at Mark's party, do you tell me my love? - I claimed indignantly.

- What are you talking about? - she asks confused.

- Don't be surprised, I have the picture - I said firmly, holding the knot I had in my throat because of the impotence of having kept trying something with her.

(Silence)

- We're done - I finished call.

I'm tired of the comings and goings, I'm sick of believing in something that doesn't exist; before I could say that love existed, but no longer, the only thing that has happened to me since I met Samantha, was disappointment after disappointment. All my ideas about romanticism were destroyed one by one, but for some strange reason, whenever I re-watch a romantic film or read a love novel, I believe it exists again, I am enveloped by the romanticism expressed by the writer, the director of the film or even the actors themselves, I am so easy to get excited about.

What am I supposed to do with the event I promised to attend in North Carolina, I was supposed to use that excuse trip to visit my family by surprise, introduce them to Samantha and see my sister Abby, I miss her so much.

I will still go, I had already committed myself, I could not fail my word, that would be unacceptable, it goes against my values.

(Text message)

- I hope you have fun at the event they will do in North Carolina, I will no longer go - Samantha wrote.

perfect! She won't go, so I can go to the event carefree and see my family, just as I planned from the beginning.

(I call Abby)

- Hello? - asks her intrigued.

- Hello little sister - I greeted her.

- I can't believe it! how are you Madison? - asks her.

- Well, I was calling you because I have news for you and I need you as an accomplice, but you can't tell mom or dad, well? - I told him.

- Yes, tell me - she said enthusiastically.

- This Friday I'm going to go home, on Saturday we'll do an event in a café - I told him.

- At Jhonny's Café? - she asked surprised, but at the same time as if she knew what I was talking about.

- Yes, how do you know? - I asked her intrigued at her comment.

- It's just that they just gave us some brochures outside the school - he commented.

- Great, I hope a lot of people go - I told him.

- I will go with some friends - she assured me.

- Great, then see you on Friday - I oused the call with enthusiasm.

After talking to my sister I started to listen to some music, I consider myself a lover of ancient music, or with ancient style, because I think they give another feeling to the atmosphere, so particular, every time I start a day, I try to make it the best, then I put one of my favorite songs to be able to encourage myself; one of those songs is 'Walking on sunshine' by Katrina & The Waves

Before entering my second year of college I hope to be able to read some books that I do not have, so as not to repeat; one of the friends I was able to make on the university campus, recommended reading 'The Prince' by Niccolò Machiavelli, which makes me intrigued, so I hope to find him in a public library when I arrive in North Carolina.

I entered college when I was seventeen, I'm going to turn eighteen in a few days, and I look forward to celebrating with my family, and meeting some friends there to go out with them to enjoy.

For now I think I'll talk to some friends to plan something on my return.

(A call comes in)

- Hello? - I ask.

- Hi Mads! It's me, Andy - he said.

- Hello! - I said with surprise - It's been a long time since I heard your voice, plus you've changed your number... again - I replied.

- Yes, I know - laughing at my comment - it's been a long time... he called you because he wanted to talk to you - he said intriguingly.

- Tell me, what happens? - I asked something worried about what I had to say.

- I wanted to know if you will go to town for your birthday... - he said.

- Yes, I'm going to surprise my parents... - I replied even without understanding why I was asking.

- When will you leave campus for there? - he asked.

- On Friday, I still have four days left here before I leave, why are you asking? - I replied even more intrigued.

- Do you think if we go together? - he asked - I'm in Virginia, closing some businesses of Dad's company, I don't know anything about here and I wouldn't want to go back alone - he commented.

- Oh... I understand, but we'll go in my car, it's ok? - I proposed.

- Yes, no problem, at one point I pass you the direction of where I'm staying so I can go for a coffee later, do you feel like it? - proposed.

- Well, I'll go through you since you don't know much about the city - I replied.

- Great! See you later - he said, ending the call.

I guess this will make my day more interesting, I don't see Andy since graduation, I wonder if he will continue to have a relationship with Amy, they had been together all over high school; I guess he'll comment on it when we see each other.

I'll go for a bath.

Coming out of my bath I couldn't help but think about where I would take Andy to dinner; since I'm craving tacos, I thought about taking it to a taqueria, which is in Military Hwy, Chesapeake.

We met and started to catch up on what had happened to us in this last year.

After all, we ate some very rich tacos, we were talking about everything a little while we walked without a specific direction; we talked mostly about his relationship with Amy; she told me that they were over, that she decided to go to Australia to study, because her parents have a lot of money and she wanted to explore the world; the truth is that I would like to do the same, but I prefer to do it by my own means, it is not in my plans that my parents pay everything for me, I want to earn things, that is my philosophy, after all, the things acquired by your own effort are worth more, and I prefer to do it like this so that nobody throws anything in my face.

Andy also told me that he now helps his father in business because he wants to learn before he starts his, that he also wants to earn things with his own effort, he can no longer be dad's son, who thanks to Amy opened his eyes and who was thinking of studying at Old Dominion University but in business college. , at that moment I could notice that he had begun to mature, that his breakup was something he needed to realize things and what life was really like.

I told him of my last love disappointment, that my relationship with Samantha had failed because she cheated on me, and she asked me if I really felt anything strong for her, that's when I first had to admit out loud that no, I hadn't overcome my platonic love that I told her about when we were at school.

We sat on the benches of a park and continued chatting.

- So... you still don't beat Charlotte, right? - asks he already knowing the answer.

- How do I tell you I still haven't beat one of my sister's best friends? - I said laughing nervously looking at the ground as I felt my heart sting when I heard his name.

- Wow! If that has hit you hard the girl eh... - he said hilariously.

- You know that if, since we were girls I've always liked it, and after we kissed occasionally, tell me, how could I not fall in love with her? - I replied in pain.

- Well yes, you're right... - sighed - besides, you have to admit it's very cute - he commented.

- Linda, no; it's Beautiful! - I exclaimed surely.

- Well, but tell me something... - he said.

- What? - I asked looking at it.

- Is she lesbian, bisexual, or what? - asked directly looking back.

- Well... I don't know, labels don't really matter much to me... - I replied.

- Yes, but what I'm going to do is that, you kissed and all, but she never told you to have something serious right? - asked.

- You're right... that's why I let that love as a child go from the moment I was accepted into college - I replied as I felt like a knot formed in my throat.

- But there's still no one to move the floor like she did, right? - noted with certainty.

- Well no, I'm not going to lie to you, it was my first love - I said - but for a broken, there's always a descocido - I edg.

- Well said, I hope you find someone - he said resting his hand on my shoulder - you deserve it.

- Also... if I'm completely honest with you, Samantha wasn't official, I called her a girlfriend because it was an agreement we both had not to be "alone", but I was dating other girls just like her, although I wish it wasn't because I wanted to introduce her to my parents - I told her.

- So why did you say he misled you? - he asked intrigued and confused at my confession.

- Because we both had to tell each other about who was the girl we were dating, and there was one that we said was one of my favorites, it's called Chloe, and because she got in the middle, and we couldn't date the girl the other one was dating, it was an agreement - I told her.

At that moment I remembered that Chloe was the girl who came out in the picture with which Samantha had kissed and that's why I told Samantha that she had kissed with anybody, because even if she didn't want to, the fact that she did it had bothered me.

- I understand... but wasn't it weird to have a relationship like that? - asked him confused.

- It's not if you get used to or find someone like that - I commented - besides, do you know why in school I didn't have a relationship and was popular with girls? - added.

- For Charlotte? - asked.

- No, because I was dating several of them at the same time and they all knew it, but just as they knew that, they also knew that I was in love with someone else and had no problem with it - I replied.

- I didn't know that - he replied surprised.

- Nobody knew, it's not something I'm proud of either, but I'll tell you because you've always been my best friend, even though we've lost communication for a while - I replied as I looked at the sky.

- I know, you know I'm always going to support you - he said as he hit my shoulder with his.

It was a pleasant night, it's been a while since I let off steam like I did with him.

I miss my home.

I would like to see my sister, my parents, and my friends.

After continuing to walk and accompany him to where he was staying, I headed to campus to go to my room, it had been a long day, but something left me with a tasteless.

I started to reflect on my conversation with Andy and realized that maybe because of dating a lot of girls, Charlotte didn't want a serious relationship with me, or at least never mentioned it...

Agh, I'd better lie down.