Chapter 17

Faris

I can't believe I fucked up so bad. I can't believe that I forgot about the rehearsals, by the way it was our final rehearsal before the big performance tomorrow and I fucked up by not coming on time. We were to shift studios and get our instruments on time to this new studio and finally start our jamming session.

There were some final changes that needed to be made and make the piece attuned to the music and final work in the mixing and mastering of the beats and the final music that we will be performing. Though we have already done most of it but we were being extra careful because it was big for us, we are to perform and open for a huge band and this is extremely important for me and all of the band. We have worked way too hard for us to be here and I can't fucking be the one to ruin it for me and others.

Fucking Sierra Jane is messing with my mind and turning me on just by thinking of last night.

I can't believe myself, I am late and totally left everyone hanging when I was the one suggesting everyone not to party hard or drink too much before the performance and final session and here I am the only one who have drunk too much, the fucking hangover killing me and top of that to fuck Sierra, though I not regretting it one bit.

How can I regret when I felt the way I felt with her, it was different. The way her smooth and velvety skin felt beneath me and the places those lips of her touched, it ignited desire and fire in me warming my insides. I could still feel her ample curves in my hands and the way my body was reacting to her was unmistakable.

Her heavenly scent intoxicating my mind, making me an addict. Her moans and screams driving me wild, the way my cock reacted to her and the way it felt too be deep within her was something I would never forget.

I could not stop myself fucking her even though we both were drunk and high, she removes that side of me, wild and crazy. I went crazy while thrusting in and out of her, hard and fast into that tightness of her. I felt good to be balls deep within her and if given a chance I would do it again and again until I am doing it again.

I know she drives me crazy and one of the sole reasons I didn't wanted to get involved with her. When she left the city suddenly almost breaking me, I promised myself to never never check up on her again and go that route in life.

The sole purpose of my life is my music and my work. I am dedicated and determined to make our band known across the world, there is a lot to do and a lot more that is yet to done and Sierra Jane doesn't fit in it. I have accepted our fate earlier before when she left the city without any knowledge or without telling anyone, she just left one day. I will never forget that day, the day she left breaking my heart and everything that I have fore her.

Fuck her, fuck everything about her. I am focusing on my music the performance we have tomorrow. I can't let anything mess up with it, many people are dependent on it and have worked way too hard for it.

I started playing my guitar and singing the lyrics we had finalized for the performance, music is the only thing that have calmed me and been there for me. It saved me from my own self and gave a path, a purpose in life.

"Fer, what are you doing? Are you alright?" he asked me concerned and with a frown on his face.

"What happened? I am perfectly alright and yes I know I messed up coming late to the studio and didn't helped you all with the shifting part but I will make it up in on our next session," I said conveying him my apologies.

"You don't know what you are doing?" he asked me flabbergasted.

"What? What has happened?" I asked him genuinely confused looking here and there for anything that has been set up wrong or done wrong.

"You are singing the wrong song, this is not we are jamming for the performance. You missed the lyrics or changed the song before," he said looking at me agape and there was Tyler, Ryan, Rebel and Mike looking at me with similar expressions.

"Umm..uhhh.. actually I didn't realise I was singing the old song. Let's start again," I said embarrassed of what I have done. Tyler is right I have never missed on my lyrics or my performance.

"Fer, if you want we can take a break, you don't look fine. We can restart after sometime." Rebel said looking genuinely concerned for me and it made me feel that much more guilty.

"I am fine Rebel, let's start again and you know how much music helps me. Let us start and we soon will start flowing with the flow," I said.

I didn't want to further stop the practice. I already did way too much and this is the final jamming session before performance, we have to get it right and all set for tomorrow.

We practiced for hours, until we were satisfied with what we have created. I love the final piece and so did all the members. I am finally happy with the way things turned out and I am confident about our performance tomorrow.

"Dude, you killed it. The way you sang, it even gave me chills. Damn.. it was awesome," Ryan said patting my back like a parent.

"I don't know man, I just sang what I could feel. I didn't realise it was that better," I said amazed at his reaction. I know I sing good, even better than half of them out there but I didn't expected it is that good.

"You're my man, Fer. It was amazing, if you sing like that tomorrow, we are done. We will be better than the band performing there," Tyler said hugging and complementing my singing which was rare as we both are used to each other singing and almost know each other's tone and vocals.

"I hope so, we kill it tomorrow. I really have high hopes for the band and the kind of music we make, it will hit the audience and tomorrow we will have a lot of them looking us, we have to be perfect," I said.

"We will Fer, we are finally getting our chance. We are gonna make it," Rebel said.

"Come on now, don't make me emotional. Time for group hug," Mike said almost emotional and all embarrassed for being the emotional one. He is not not emotional but atleast more sensitive than others.