Chapter Fourteen

Ruzzel's POV

I admit I did not guard myself.

I just woke up one day realizing that I already fell in love with Aliyah.

This is no longer part of the bet. This is what I feel towards her. I know she can't return my feelings, I know she will never fall in love with me. But that is not a reason for me to give up the love I have for her.

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After the class, we have to practice again. When I arrived at the gym, Aliyah was already there. She is talking to Domo.

I approached them but Aliyah suddenly left. Is she trying to avoid me now because of what I said the other day?

I was surprised when she suddenly came back. She just gets some water. Okay, I was wrong to assume that she already left.

We immediately started practicing. She is not talking to me. I just remained silent as well, I don’t want to ruin her day.

We are getting the steps little by little and I may say that there is an improvement compared to our performance last time. Good thing, Domo is very determined to teach us.

During the entire practice, Aliyah remained quiet and very focused. There is a lot of things I want to tell her but I just can’t.

Words inside my mind aren’t brave enough to say what are they thinking and how are they feeling right now.

I love you.

May you feel it in my touch.

May you see it in my eyes.

May you notice it in my smile.

May you realize it every step of the way.

And may you hear it from my silence.

Heart to heart, yes I love you.

I may be repeating it several times but yes, I love you, Aliyah.

After the practice, she left immediately. I chased her. I immediately grabbed her hands the moment I finally reached her.

She raised her brow then asked, “What?” I thought she will kick or punch me but she didn’t.

I looked on the floor. I let go of her hands. “Nothing.” That’s all I can say. Why am I running out of words?

I just decided to go home. I no longer chased her. What’s the point of chasing things that are getting away from us? Pardon me, I’m a bit sentimental here.

Truth is, I can’t get Aliyah out of my mind. She keeps on running inside my head and my heart is beating so fast because of her.

I went straight to my room. Since there is no way for me to removed Aliyah from my mind, I decided to look on her social media account. I searched for her name, there’s a lot of posers but no matter how many are they, I can still manage to figure out who is the real Aliyah. My heart says it all. Hahahaha. Just kidding!

Upon figuring out which one is legit, I scrolled and looked for all the available items displayed on her account. She has a lot of posts. The latest one on her feed is a post like this- ‘Selfie first before fighting.’ Funny isn’t it?

I keep on scrolling until my hands stopped because of what I saw on the monitor.

Have you ever felt this kind of feeling? A pain in the chest that can’t be explained?

Just a few more clicks and I was ready to torture myself.

It was an album.

An album that is composed of Aliyah’s picture together with that Lewis.

I can see the happiness in her eyes which is not visible nowadays in her eyes.

I can see how happy she was knowing that she’s together with her ex.

There’s a lot of memories they have shared.

Pictures of places they went to, gigs they attended, birthdays, and anniversaries they celebrated together.

What happened to them?

I know I don’t have the right to ask this question but I badly need an answer.

I searched for the profile, Lewis.

Great Ruzzel, you are now a certified stalker!

Good thing he doesn't have a poser because he's not famous.

He only has one post on his wall. A public post.

Updated, four months ago.

"I loved you, I love you and I will always love you. ASH."

I might be jealous and I don't know how to fight this feeling.