I was sitting with Lucia, having lunch but... It was, somewhat, uncomfortable...
"What is it? You are not going to eat?" Lucia passed a saint smile.
"Well, it would be much easier for me to eat if you quit staring me!"
Geez, she kept on staring me since I come with her.
It's uncomfortable to have a lunch when someone is staring at you, especially a girl...
"Oops, did I? Sorry, my bad?" She apologized but it doesn't seem to be one. Her expressions didn't changed at all.
"... Really?" I took a bite.
"You are in quite a good mood today,"
"Well cuz I am. I am glad that you going to stay with me from now on, fufufu." She giggled in the end.
"What...?" I said in monotone.
"N-No, it's nothing. It's just, that I am glad that you became my knight. I feel much secure now," Embarrassed, Lucia said those words while looking away with a wry smile.
Watching her act like this, I sighed.
I raise up from my seat. Watching me leave, Lucia hurriedly grabbed the corner of my jacket.
"Wa-Wait, W-Why are you leaving?! Are you going to leave me like this without having lunch with me?!"
"Nope,"
"Th-Then, didn't you like the food?"
"As you can see, I have finished my food and I am full," Lucia's food was untouched while I finished my lunch.
๐๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฅ ๐ช๐ด ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ต๐ต๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ฆ๐ข๐ต ๐ช๐ต ๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ต ๐ฃ๐ถ๐ต ๐ช๐ฏ ๐๐ถ๐ค๐ช๐ข'๐ด ๐ค๐ข๐ด๐ฆ, ๐ด๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฅ๐ช๐ฅ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐ต๐ข๐ฌ๐ฆ ๐ข ๐ฃ๐ช๐ต๐ฆ ๐ซ๐ถ๐ด๐ต ๐ฌ๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ฑ ๐ด๐ต๐ข๐ณ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ฎ๐ฆ. ๐ ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ฌ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ธ, ๐ช๐ต'๐ด ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ต ๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ต ๐ข๐ฏ๐บ๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ณ๐ฆ, ๐ฎ๐ข๐บ๐ฃ๐ฆ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ด๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ญ๐ฅ ๐ง๐ช๐ฏ๐ช๐ด๐ฉ ๐ช๐ต ๐ง๐ข๐ด๐ต.
"Whaaat? You're finished already. C'mon, sit here and have some more. You will get weak if you don't eat properly."
๐๐ฆ๐บ! ๐๐ฐ๐ธ ๐ข๐ณ๐ฆ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ด๐ถ๐ฑ๐ฑ๐ฐ๐ด๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฃ๐ฆ ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ค๐ต๐ถ๐ณ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ฎ๐ฆ? ๐ ๐ข๐ต๐ฆ ๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ถ๐จ๐ฉ, ๐ ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ธ๐ข๐ฏ๐ต ๐ต๐ฐ ๐จ๐ฆ๐ต ๐ฐ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ๐ธ๐ฆ๐ช๐จ๐ฉ๐ต!... ๐๐ข๐ช๐ต, ๐ ๐ค๐ข๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐จ๐ฆ๐ต ๐ฐ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ๐ธ๐ฆ๐ช๐จ๐ฉ๐ต!
Putting my trivial thoughts aside, I said,
"Didn't I just said, I am full..."
"Well then, how about we chat a bit,"
So now she want to talk? Just what in the world this kid thinking?
I sighed again.
Then I took my seat, again.
"What is it, what do you want to talk?" I said tiredly
"C'mon, don't say it like that, I just want to have some silly chat with you."
"Silly...chat?" I tilted my head as if didn't understand what she meant.
"Well, how about you tell me something about yourself?"
"And, what do you want to know...?"
"Umm, anything is fine with me."
"Hmm, let's see. Well I particularly don't have anything to talk about me,"
๐๐ฉ๐บ ๐ช๐ฏ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ฐ๐ณ๐ญ๐ฅ ๐ธ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ญ๐ฅ ๐ ๐จ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ด๐ถ๐ค๐ฉ ๐ข๐ฏ ๐ช๐ฎ๐ฑ๐ฐ๐ณ๐ต๐ข๐ฏ๐ต ๐ช๐ฏ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ๐ฎ๐ข๐ต๐ช๐ฐ๐ฏ? ๐๐ฐ ๐ฎ๐ข๐ต๐ต๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ข๐ต, ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ข๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ต ๐จ๐ฐ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐จ๐ฆ๐ต ๐ข๐ฏ๐บ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ต ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ฎ๐ฆ...
"Ok, let see... Then tell me, what kind of place were you born? What kind of environment it was that made you so strong? I really want to know that!" She asked curiously.
"Well, how can I say, it's not like I can explain it easily..." I put my hand on my chin and looked up in the sky.
๐๐ช๐ฏ๐ค๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ด ๐ช๐ด ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ต ๐ข๐ฏ๐บ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ฃ๐ช๐จ ๐ฐ๐ณ ๐ช๐ฎ๐ฑ๐ฐ๐ณ๐ต๐ข๐ฏ๐ต, ๐ซ๐ถ๐ด๐ต ๐ต๐ณ๐ช๐ท๐ช๐ข๐ญ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ๐ด, ๐ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฌ ๐ ๐ค๐ข๐ฏ ๐ข๐ฏ๐ด๐ธ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ธ๐ช๐ต๐ฉ ๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ด๐ต๐บ...
"How about you tell me about yourself first, like how grown up?" I tried to dodge question.
"Well, since the time I was born, I was always treated like Royal, since I am one so, you can say that everything I wished for since my childhood was always in front of me. I didn't feel like that there is anything missing. I think I have enjoyed my life more than enough. For most of my life, my father gave me everything and anything I asked for, my brother always take care of me and protected me, and my mother, she always loved me... I don't think I needed anymore from this." She said with a calm smile.
"Well, it seems like that you lived quite a happy life."
"Yeah, not everyone born in noble family,"
"Yeah, as for me, I was born in a hell of a place. The environment around me was not suitable for a child."
"What kind of environment it was?! Was it a place where you have to struggle a lot?! Did you lived a harsh life! I am extremely sorry if I would have hurt you, please forget it! I'll never ask you about this anymore, so please forgive me." Her expression worried. She bowed quickly as she heard me.
๐๐ฐ๐ฑ๐ด, ๐ด๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ฎ๐ด ๐ญ๐ช๐ฌ๐ฆ ๐ ๐ฅ๐ณ๐ฐ๐ฑ๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ข ๐ฃ๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฎ ๐ซ๐ถ๐ด๐ต ๐ช๐ฏ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐จ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ. ๐ ๐ด๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ญ๐ฅ ๐ฃ๐ฆ ๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ค๐ข๐ณ๐ฆ๐ง๐ถ๐ญ ๐ง๐ณ๐ฐ๐ฎ ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ธ ๐ฐ๐ฏ...
I waved my hand, implying her to clam down.
"Well, it's not like that. It's just, I never liked that place."
I looked in the sky. Took a deep breath, then continued,
"There were not manu I hold any affection or deep feeling for, except few. I also thought of protecting the ones who were important to me but *sighed*... My mother died in an accident, I never liked my father, he was such a greedy man... And others who I knew when I was a kid, were all there to just use me. But now, it's different..."
"Different... how?" Lucia repeated in confusion as she asked back.
"Well you see, everyone I knew from that time are all dead. There is no responsibility on my shoulder. I don't have to struggle just because of those weakling anymore so now... I am free. Free to do whatever I want." I said with a smile.
Lucia was staring me as if she don't know what to say. Obviously, I just said such harsh words without any hesitation for the ones I once cared for.
"...Well, it must be really difficult..." She said in a low tone.
"Aren't you angry on me that I said such words without giving a second thought?"
She shook her head.
"No, I have not right to be. I don't even know about your past or anything, or the way you lived up until now. Neither do I know how you were like when you were a child... But, the way you present those words. I think I can understand how you would have felt. I think you have come over many things in your life maybe that's the reason why you are so strong... And why you can say those words without any regret."
Lucia is intelligent. She understand my hatred towards those who I knew back then, but she didn't blamed me for that.
She is right. No one has a right to judge one until they knew them very well. What if you blamed someone for hating someone else and then came to know afterwards that, that person treated the one harshly or cause him sufferings.
You will be ashamed if that happened, that's why, you should not judge one without knowing their true nature or without knowing anything about them.
"From how I have seen you until now, I don't think you're a kind of person that will hold any grudge against someone. And if you do, then there would be a way deep and big reason for that..."
๐๐ฐ๐ธ! ๐๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ญ๐ช๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ ๐ฐ๐ฏ ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ช๐ด ๐ธ๐ข๐บ ๐ต๐ฐ๐ฐ ๐ฎ๐ถ๐ค๐ฉ. ๐ ๐ค๐ข๐ฏ ๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐ง๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ญ ๐ช๐ต'๐ด ๐ฑ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ด๐ด๐ถ๐ณ๐ฆ...
๐ ๐ฅ๐ช๐ฅ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ฆ๐น๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ค๐ต๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ ๐ด๐ถ๐ค๐ฉ ๐ข ๐ฉ๐ถ๐จ๐ฆ ๐ง๐ข๐ช๐ต๐ฉ ๐ช๐ฏ ๐ฎ๐ฆ.
"Sorry for troubling you to have lunch with me. I'll be in your care from now on so I'm looking forward to it. I will take my leave now, thank you for having lunch with me." With that, Lucia got up from her seat and left.
"... A kind person huh, heh" I sighed as I looked up at the sky.
Sun shining in the sky, spreading it's warmth all over the Celis.
'It was such a warm day and the weather was good. I was staring at sky as I closed my eyes, to feel the blooms.'
๐ ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ข๐ญ๐ญ๐บ ๐ฅ๐ฐ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฌ ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ฌ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ญ๐ช๐ง๐ฆ ๐๐ญ๐ญ๐ข๐ฏ ๐ญ๐ช๐ท๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ถ๐ฑ ๐ถ๐ฏ๐ต๐ช๐ญ ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ธ.
๐๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐ด๐ข๐ช๐ฅ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ด๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ฐ๐ณ๐ฅ๐ด, ๐ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ถ๐จ๐ฉ๐ต ๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ข๐ด ๐ข ๐ฃ๐ช๐ต ๐ค๐ณ๐ถ๐ฆ๐ญ ๐ข๐ด ๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ข๐ด ๐ด๐ฎ๐ช๐ญ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ข๐ด ๐ช๐ง ๐ช๐ต ๐ธ๐ข๐ด ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ฃ๐ถ๐ต, ๐ด๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฏ ๐ ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ข๐ญ๐ช๐ด๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ฉ๐ช๐ด ๐ฆ๐บ๐ฆ๐ด ๐ธ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ต ๐ด๐ฎ๐ช๐ญ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ.
๐๐ช๐ด ๐ด๐ฎ๐ช๐ญ๐ฆ, ๐ช๐ต ๐ธ๐ข๐ด ๐ซ๐ถ๐ด๐ต ๐ข๐ฏ ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ง๐ข๐ฌ๐ฆ ๐ด๐ฎ๐ช๐ญ๐ฆ ๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ข๐ญ๐ธ๐ข๐บ๐ด ๐ฑ๐ถ๐ต ๐ฐ๐ฏ.
"...He sure have a struggled in his whole life. His strength is the proof of the courage he put up to fight against those obstacles... *sigh* Life sure is harsh,"
Lucia said to herself as she looked up at the sky.
"Weather sure is pleasant today..."
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