Anna_07

"Why are you trying so hard?"
"'I don't know."

Evan had always been a man filled with ambition. He built his fate and made his way to the top IT company in India. But, one fine day, he resigns. Evan was always told be abitious and bold, the best of all and wise. But he decides to find his own way and  to move back to his hometown Gangtok, Sikkim. In his journey start, Evan gets a journal from a stranger. Soon, that journal became the textbook where his all answers lied. And, his journey? It was somewhere between fighting for what he wants against what he needs. 


By Anna_07#1306

I moved back to country side

                         2 days had Gone away and Evan was still lying on the hospital bed. One fine day, when Evan finally opened his eyes he found Sham beside him. Sham was overwhelmed to see Evan, who he treated like a son; lie on a hospital bed. When Evan asked what happened to him, he was told it was because of not sleeping enough and eating properly.


                              Evan was offered to take a rest and stay at home for a while by the school authority. But he wanted to attend it so no one stopped him. Evan had self-love issues. He won't let anyone disrespect him, but he would not care or love himself no matter what.


                                       He often questioned the 'so-called self-love' People talked about. He doubted how the' self-love' people never took a stand for them. then, they say they love themselves. even after acknowledging such hypocrisy of people, Evan never considered himself any better. 


              For, at least they say they love themselves. He had no answer or choice in this. He knew self-love is important. But he also remembers, it's not mandatory to love oneself. For him, as long others said they are fine and he is breathing, everything is fine. 


                   And, that is the most deadly combination of a person. Because they don't love themselves, they often forget the significant parts of themselves. Leading them to pain and despair. 


                    It was just a start of despair for Evan. When you get numb, the pain is unbearable. But after feeling numb for a while when you feel again, it's torment. You won't be helped if you don't scream for help. 


                                     ....................


                            Evan was staring out of the window, while James was playing the piano. Evan was more surprised by the fact that James can play the piano than the school has a music room. "When did you start learning?" Evan asks. 


James- "Hmm, when I was young. My father used to play piano, I watched him and learned by that."


Evan- "I see, you were a child prodigy."


James-"Haha, not really. What about you Mr. Lopez? do you have any hobbies?"


Evan- "Well, you gotta tell me where you got my surname from, and no. I was told to study hard and was burdened with my family's faith. So, all I did was study."


                 James resumes playing the piano.


Evan-"Now I see it. It's pretty regretful. How my childhood went in the desire of future, and youth in the complexity of life which I should have cleared back in adolescence."


Evan-"Mr.James. I didn't pass out for days because I was sleep-deprived right? There must be something more to it."


James-"...will you be able to handle it?"


                                         James stops playing the piano. 


Evan- "If I am able to handle being a dreamless 27-year-old, I think I can handle everything.


James- "You had a cardiac arrest, because of a panic attack."


Evan- "No wonder Sham was attempting to remove Lacy's picture"


                                  Evan mumbled, he didn't seem surprised about what happened to him.


Evan- "Nothing, thank you for telling me."    


                  Evan was stepping outside the class but James stopped him. 


James- "Please, don't repeat your mistakes again."


                  James continues to play the piano, he breathes as he looks towards the rain.


James- "Isn't it that time of the year?"


Self love?