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He could not answer immediately. I can't blame him either. I wonder why I used to be so desperate to give that to Langford. But what if I was pregnant then? What am I now? If it was another man, he wouldn't hesitate. But Langford, he was different. He was the one who stopped me from doing that even though I felt like he wanted to too.

He immediately punched me as I waved at him. I'm spacing out. "Seriously, Kane. I'm not kidding." she said.

"I'm not kidding either, ah."

"Omigod. We're talking about your virginity here. What went into your nails and you suddenly became flirty?" I immediately looked down on him.

"You're more flirtatious, don't lose."

She rolled her eyes. "You, know what? I want to tweak you because why did you just think of saying this. Look, I don't want to invade about your personal life, Kane. But we're friends. What's the use of my friendship hiding a problem ? "

She has a point. If he hadn't forced me now, I still had no plans to tell him this. I'll say it, but you know that, it's like I just don't want to because it's over. But like what they said, no secret will never be revealed.

I took a deep breath before looking at him. "I know, it's just that, it didn't bother me either. Nothing happened to us that time. You don't have to worry-"

"And how did I get you pregnant ?!" he growled at me. Okay, I shouldn't be mad to her, it's my fault. "I know that Langford is a fucking bad boy but he's not like others who will get yours by just that. He knows where to stand. He limits everything he does, and how can I meet other men?" she asked.

"Why would I agree?" I asked back.

"Do you like him?" this time her eyes we're all on me. Waiting for my answer.

"I don't know, I'm drunk that time but I know what I'm doing," I explained. I immediately saw his appeal because of my answer. That doesn't seem to be what he wants to hear from me.

"The answer is a yes or no."

"I don't know that. He keep on my eyes. I don't want to see him around me-"

"You don't want to see him around you? But you want to flirt with him. Be flirty, deny more."

I closed my eyes. "I'm confused." I just said.

"You're confused because you're in denial," he stated. I let him. I don't want to argue anymore, because I know I'm wrong. Really wrong. How did I get pregnant? I have a child now, I can't continue my dreams? Though, I know I can study again but in a different situation. Well he was able to control that time.

"You know Kane. Sometimes you're being numb. I'm sorry for my words but you need to hear this out. I don't want to be plastic on you most especially I know it is not good." I nodded. I understand her. She always their for me, giving advise and slapped me words that can awakened my mind. "You're my friend and I know myself that you also have a hard time telling this to me, to us. But it's been a year, you never mentioned about it. So, how did I get you pregnant? How did I suddenly grow up. your stomach then I'll ask you who the father is, then you'll answer, I don't know, oh, I'm really going to slap you.

"I'm not pregnant," I said.

"So that's it! Right now you have to think first the things you wanted to do and what would be the consequences after it's done,"

* * *

"James!" Heart immediately waved. We are now with Jezley. We asked him where he came from but he said that someone was just taking care of him. I haven't asked yet. I didn't speak as we approached Langford's group. Immediately, our eyes met and we both averted our eyes.

That seems to be scorching.

That when we look at each other it's like we're pulling at each other.

"Hey," he greeted us.

"Coffee? Later before going home. What game?" Heart asked.

He licked his lower lip. He shrugged. "I'll see. We have to pass these before on time, but I'll try," he said. They are doing something. There were many papers lying on their table. Some of his companions were still busy, others were looking at the three of us. This is Heart because.

"And also, Kane wants to talk to you," She added. The fuck? Immediately my eyes widened at what he said. What do I want to talk about? I don't remember me saying that! It's a woman!

When Heart noticed my reaction he immediately glared at me so I raised an eyebrow at him. Really? He tortured me!

He said goodbye to Langford and his companions before we left for the classroom. I wanted to talk but they were still too close so I waited for us to get away from Langford's group.

"What the hell is that ?!" I shouted.

"What?" he asked innocently.

"Really?" I can't seem to believe him.

"You'll thank me later," she said before she went to our classroom.

I remained standing there as if in disbelief.

I heard Jezley speak and I dragged him into the classroom.

I entered the classroom. I ignored Heart. He was like that too so Jezley stood between us. For as much as any hour we would both shout.

Good and I haven't scheduled my recite yet but I still need to be ready. Sometimes the prof were not in the mood and there is a surprised recite even though it is not included in the coverage. Fortunately, I was able to study and read regularly. In law school, no matter how smart you are if you're a lazy person you're fucked.

Just a few months and then, I will graduate. I just wanted to go graduate and pass the BAR then become a full -fledged lawyer. I really wanted to. Because this is my dream, and all dreams needed to be true, if its is not, then it's not been full filled. It's never been done.

* * *

After our class I left immediately. I was ahead of the two because I was still on a bad trip with Heart. He didn't have to do that. I've always been stuck. It's okay with your advice that I got from him, so I hope it doesn't reach as well as here, he will do it. I don't want that. I said goodbye to Jezley, he would have come with me so I yelled immediately. I will adjust first now. I need to incubate.

Because I'm in a hurry because the plan is to still go to the coffee shop, as usual but I'm just going to another coffee shop. Because maybe Langford and Friends will go there later. The awkward when they saw me at the other table. Duh.

I will always be the one to adjust.

"Ouch," I didn't know I was still in elementary school because those other students here looked like I was in elementary school. They don't even look at what they're going through-

"Shit," I heart someone muttered. I looked where that voice came from and I saw Langford speaking. He was holding a white folder so and in his left hand was your bond paper with a print. Maybe this is what he says they will pass on today. So he was in a hurry because of what Heart said earlier. Tsk.

"Sorry," he said.

I just nodded before he left there. I'm going straight to the coffee shop, I'm at 3joys now because there aren't too many people and I can study. I have my things here already. I don't say but I always carry him with me. It's hard. Just lose everything, not just my reviewers and stuff. Here are all the notes and I should study. I have to double my time in studying because I'm about to graduate though, I didn't expect to be on the top BAR, but nothing is impossible. You just need to learn if you want to.

I ordered my favorite Taro milk tea and a blue berry cheese cake and started studying. We go home at 4am but I go home at 5:30 because I prefer to study here. The silence in the house is also deafening. I can only talk to Yaya Jessa but I can't always talk to her because she works. I have my car so, no hassle for my time to booked a ride unless it's traffic. But I'm not that unlucky on the road so it's okay.

I drank my Milk Tea while keeping my eyes on the reading. Just then someone suddenly came inside, I looked there so our eyesight was right. Why is he here? Did I think they were together with Heart?

I saw that he was also shocked to see me. He doubted whether he would continue or not because I was here. It's time for me to leave, eh, I've been here before. I adjusted for them. I immediately put down my Milk Tea and pretended to read even if it was just back and forth in a paragraph! Damn.

I could see in my peripheral vision that he remained there. That was looking at me! Before I could rock in my chair I raised an eyebrow at him. I thought he was leaving but it became more rocky now because he was getting closer to where I was. My heartbeats went fast. Why is it like this? I was immediately anxious about what I would look like. Damn it.

He sneezed to get my attention.

"What?" I asked.

"Where's... your friends?" he asked hesitantly.

"I thought you're with them," I said, coldly.

"No, she texted me. In this coffee shop we seem to be,"

"What? That bitch." I said, feeling betrayed. She's playing tricks, huh. I'll play, then.

"No, it's okay, I can go now-"

"What?"

"I said, I can go now-"

"Why?" I asked.

"Because..." he begged for an answer but nothing came out of his mouth. If they're playing tricks with me, then let's beat the beast. There's nothing wrong if I try, but I'll just have to be careful, or else.. I might fall. And that's scared, it's painful.

"Because?" I continue. When he didn't answer, I had already made up my mind.

"Join with me,"

Heart was wrong. She will thank me. I did what she wants.