Kiss

I breathed fast after that kiss. This is what he wants right? That's what men want. When a woman has a thrill, please, they like it more. But what comes worse? After they taste it, they will just throw you away.

"What the fuck ?!" She asked incredulously. He's lips is already wet. I made that. I'm proud to say those words in my mind. I'll give you what you want.

"Do you like it?" I asked. I don't know where I drew the strength to kiss him but I was thankful for the alcohol earlier.

She messed up her hair and was restless. We stayed out of my car. Maybe we can continue that kiss inside my car and to do more?

"W-what? You're drunk! Fuck." he said, frustrated.

"Yes I'm drunk but I know what I'm doing,"

"What do you think you're doing? You're giving me a hard time! Damn." I can see his blazing eyes that at any time he is ready to attack.

"Let's get inside." I ignored him and went inside. I knew he wouldn't let me drive because I was drunk. He also drank but I knew he knew it would happen. But he did not know what would happen here today. In my car. I'll give you what you want.

A few minutes passed but no Langford got into my car. The fuck, doesn't he want to cooperate? Only that.

I lowered my window so I could see him outside. He's in a deep thoughts. Maybe I'm thinking about what can be done to me. Well, I have thought to do with him.

"James, come inside please." And for the first time in my life, I just called him by his name. I'm nervous at the same time but because of the alcohol, I also have plans. I tried my best to be sweet. Even if I don't want that.

He just looked at me like I was a huge problem with him. He shook his head before walking again.

"Okay fine! I'll go home alone. I'll take care of whether I die now or have an accident-" But before I could finish that he immediately returned, he stayed out of my car. Damn it. He really doesn't.

"Wait me here. I'll inform your friend-"

"What ?! No!" I immediately said.

"Shit. Can you please be ..." he couldn't continue what he was going to say. "Damn, just wait me here, please." he begged. He also seems to have a hard time with what I'm doing.

"I want to go home." I faked my yawned. He looked at me. Again, I saw how his Adam's apple moved.

"I know, Kane. That's why I have to tell your friends-"

"Why else ?!" I couldn't stop my cry.

He was surprised. He approached the window but he remained outside my car. He lowered his face towards the window. Our eyes immediately hit.

"What are you doing to me Kane?" he asked seriously. He's mad.

"I'm doing nothing."

"What is this?" he asked me again. What is this? To end it all, I will do this. To keep him quiet, I will do this.

I laughed. I bit my lower lip and look directly into his eyes. "What do you think?"

He shook his head. "You're acting weird. So contrary with your actions. Don't play with me."

"Come inside please, or else I'll drive alone." I changed the topic! He's losing me!

She closes her eyes as if losing patience with me.

"I'll drive you home. Promise me, if I get inside nothing has to do. Nothing will-"

"Nothing will happen to my car if you get in and drive me."

I put on my seatbelt. Signal that I want to leave. It's easy to open. tss.

He doesn't say a words. I smiled as he got into my car. My heartbeats were very fast. Shit.

I saw how his jaw clenched. He's Adam's apple moved. He looked at me for a moment before averting his gaze.

"Lower your skirt. I can see your ..." she didn't continue to say.

I gave him a questioning look before I looked that I could almost see my panties. So what? I fixed that a bit. It will also get messy later.

I approached him and looked at him. I touch his face down to his jaw but he immediately grabbed my hand before looking at me. But before he say a words. I kissed him. He didn't kiss me back so I bit his lip. I heart him groaned. He grabbed my waist as I placed both hands on his neck. I sat down in front of him. I can feel how hard he is. Damn.

"You're hard." I said between kisses.

He tried to stop me but I was persistent. Damn it. When I felt like a fire was brewing between me, he immediately pulled me away from himself. He stopped and so did I. For a few seconds we looked at each other while chasing the breath. He licked his lower lip before shaking. He got out of the car. I went back to sitting. I adjusted the dress and folded.

Do I still have a face to face with him? Fuck.

***

My second year of college started without a blink. Time just seems so fast. Here I also felt that the course I took was not random. Since, I choose this course because I really loved it. I want something to prove. Court is not just a court. Court is made by law. They are the one who makes decision. The one who listens to evidence and makes decision about legal cases. They made decisions according to the law.

Law is half of my life.

My third year of college was triple compared to my second year. Damn. It looks like I want to give up but I won't do that. I wanted it and this is what I wanted. So I have to cope. Here I experienced not eating once just to be able to review for the recite. Here I experienced boredom because I could not finish your cases and books I should read. Sometimes I failed some of my recite but I also recover immediately so my eyebags also grow thinner. Right now, I realized I don't seem to care what I look like when I enter. That the important thing is mat answer me to the recite. There are a number of cases to digest. That's how I my third year revolves.

As time passes by, I have realized many things. Not just about learning but also in life. But there is only one thing I regret I did. That's why I kissed Langford! It's been 2 years but it seems like it only happened to us yesterday! He doesn't pay attention to me anymore so I'm changing. He avoids me too. Heart called him once but this is just what happened.

"James, are you together?" Heart asked. We are going to the coffee shop now. We were already studying there because we were more comfortable there because there was no noise and there weren't too many people.

He immediately shook his head. "I have something to do. Thanks, maybe next time." he said, while he grabbed his notebook.

But some next time came but he didn't come with us anymore. Sometimes we meet in the hallway but he is the first to avoid. I just let it go.

"What did you do?" Heart asked me.

I frowned. "Where?"

"Not where. Who. E, not James. What did you do?"

"I am not doing anything."

"Why isn't he with us anymore?" he said irritably.

"So, it's my fault that he doesn't go with us?" I sarcastically said. Is it still my fault?

"I don't say that. What I mean is did you fight? I'm not blind so I can't see that he avoids when you're there. Did you fight?"

"No." I simply said.

"Hey, why is that?" He asked again. "If you're not fighting, why is he avoiding? He's okay with me, Jezley. It's just you who isn't. Did something happen?"

I immediately drank iced tea when he asked. Are we studying here in the coffee shop or gossiping? Almost a while ago he was chopped up by the question, e.

"W-nothing," I laid down again as you left to read. How can I master this when he asks? I hadn't finished reading a paragraph and he asked again. How can we study this?

"You're going to study, you asked a question a while ago, e. You look like an investigator."

"That's why we chose law, right? It's necessary in every action, we know every detail even the smallest details need to be known. I'm just looking at what is now." she looked at me, seriously.

"We're studying here. If we don't study we won't be lawyers." I said still looking on my book. At least I don't understand anything because this one is just speaking. I'll go back to the first.

"If you're hiding something from me, I'll be an investigator. You're acting weird. Same as Langford. Hmmm, why is that?"

"Tss, you're just malicious."

"What if I'm right?" he carved.

"If I can't answer the recit and I fall, I'll drop your mouth."

"Spilled the tea." she said. Right now her attention is all on me. I immediately closed my book because I didn't care if I read anything and I didn't understand anything.

I took a deep breath. I can't hide it for the rest of my life so I'll just say it earlier. He might find out more from others. But maybe no one knows but Langford and me. I was immediately embarrassed for what I had done! Did I really do that? It's like I want to throw myself out and be just a sweet potato.

Since he didn't stop me, I told him what happened. It's been a long time but Langford and I don't seem to be able to move on. We were both ashamed of each other that I should just be. I really want to devour the earth while telling that to Heart. His jaw almost dropped and his eyes popped out because of what he heard. He said nothing but "Flirty" I was annoyed when he said that over and over again. Annoying!

"But why did you do that? Aren't you drunk?"

I nodded. But that's not my reason why I want you to do it.

"That time, I wanted to give up my virginity to him,"

With that, his jaw dropped completely.