Chapter 9

"Let's watch something," he says collecting the remote from the couch next to me.

He switches on the television and lucky us there is a movie that's about to start. "Five feet apart, ever watched it?'' he asks and I respond that I haven't watched it so we unanimously agree that we watch it.

I watch the movie and listen closely but John seems to be watching me more than the movie, I just brush it off because the movie was really good l could not take my eyes off of it.

A boy and a girl with cystic fibrosis fall in love in a hospital despite the fact that they could not touch each other as this would endanger them. They go through different emotional roller coasters but they still remain together against all odds. At the end the girl gets a pair of uninfected lungs so she had to go for surgery and if it was successful, she would live a normal life just like any other normal teenager. She goes through with surgery because the boy had encouraged her to; knowing she would find someone else out there once she leaves the hospital. All he cared about was her health so he let her go.

When the movie ended, I was a soaking mess I could not even control it I felt sorry for the boy.

John was still watching me and I turned to ask why he was not watching the movie.

"John -----," before l could say anything else, he crashes his lips with mine and l feel myself come alive, instead of stopping him I close my eyes and respond just as passionate. I can't really explain what l am feeling right now, the feeling is so foreign I have never felt like this before. Electricity is coursing through my veins, l feel my body ignite. It's everything l imagined my first kiss would be, his hands start fiddling with my hair and I do just the same. His lips were soft, supple and sweet. We could go on forever locked in this wondrous kiss, even though l have never kissed anyone before right now I know exactly what to do. I take in his musky scent, l have always wanted to but I never got this close to him he smells like a garden full of flowers, very strong scented flowers.

"Andy," I hear my little brother calling from his room that's when I am sucked into reality and l quickly part lips with John both of us breathing heavily and I head upstairs to Josh's room fixing my hair. "Yes, Josh what is it.'' I say still gasping for air. He tells me that they have a group discussion at Victoria's place so he was wondering if he could go.

"Of course, you can go Josh and even make more friends.'' He quickly gathers his books and heads next door and I am left alone in his room.

Realization hits me and l remember that John and I had kissed, I don't even know what I am going to say when I go downstairs.

I summon all the courage I have and go down stairs to face John but he is not there instead there is a note on the couch we were sitting.

**Dad called**

The note plainly said and my heart ached the same way it did when l saw both my parents being killed.

That moment was when l realized that I was head over heels in love with this boy and I was just trying so hard not to admit it.

Who wouldn't, l asked myself and wiped a tear that had escaped my right eye.