sleep now Alex

3 years had past. I am silently seated while writing on the table, thinking of the next plot I should create for my script. While thinking my eyes went to my 3 year-old Alex playing with his dad and uncle. He is so happy while running with his ball. I can't give him the same happiness, I can't say he is sad with me but his happiness when he is with his father is different when he is with me. Darkness started to cover the field so I asked them to go home. Andrei sent us home. Now is the moment when I told Alex to say goodbye to his Dad.

" Dad, I don't want you to go. I want to play with you some more." He said sweetly while we watch him like he is a movie.

" I have to go baby, I still have to work tommorow, I need to shower and sleep too just like you." He aswered while poking his son teasingly. Alex then hugged Andrei and started to cry. "Daddy, please just stay with us, I want you to stay with me. It will be long again before you visit me. You only spent few hours with me then now you are leaving me again. That's unfair!" He continued crying as loud as he could so his father would stay. This is making me annoyed. I grabbed his hand then reprimand him to listen, if not he will be punished. He cried even louder though.

" Daddy please, take me with you, I want to be with you than mommy she is boring and no fun." This statement hurt me so bad so I pulled Alex and signalled Andrei to go, that he didn't follow instead he tried to appease Alex some more. "We will have longer time on the weekend. Daddy is just busy at work that's why, but see everytime I get a free time I visit you right away. During weekend I will be with you the whole day, promise." Somehow Andrei got his attention. "But I want you with me everyday. Please!" Alex begged. He doesn't want to let go of Andrei. I interupted the two and insisted that he can just go, just let Alex cry, he will then give up later when he get tired. " Just go Andrei, please don't tolerate, this little brat." I told him. "Can I make him sleep first before I go." I agreed to him if that's what he want. After cleaning Alex he put him to his bed and tell him a story. It was a long story telling before he finally closed his eyes. I'm so embarassed that Alex made him do this, he even said that he didn't like me in front of his father. Andrei might think I'm hurting Alex and take him away from me. It just sometimes he gets really annoying and uncontrolable, he became hardheaded, I can't make him listen to me especially when his Dad is around since he know he will be on his side.

" I'm sorry about today. And thanks for the effort and patience you're giving to Alex." I told him.

"It's nothing, I'm his father, I should be doing it actually." He check his watch and surprise to see it's already 2 am. I walked him out, when we passed by the dining table, I then asked Dona to prepare food since I'm hungry when he saw the table he looked at me. I realized that he might be hungry. "Oh I forgot, Do you want to eat?" He looked at the table again, it's a heated food from lunch and there is only 1 plate available still he answered yes. So I asked Donna to prepare more for Andrei. We ate at peace but sometimes talked about Alex, it's always about our child Alex, I can't relate to him other than about our kid. We have way too different taste on movies so we better not talk about that. It makes me smile how he sincerely love his son and how deep is his desire to spend his time with him. He is in love with his own kid that's undeniable. "Sometimes I really wonder how you can make Alex listen to you, he is not like that to me. I'm jealous of how he loves you more than me. He even said it earlier. It hurts you know when I stayed with him like almost 24/7 while you just stayed with him for 3 hrs more or less and he still picks you. Explain to me why?" I asked him randomly though I already know the answer. "Maybe he just missed me so much. Well I am more jealous because you can stay with him 24/7. I wish I can do that." He answered back. "Well you are right about that. Thank you for today, tomorrow is another day with Alex, another challenge." I stated with sarcasm.

" Tara, you know what he wouldn't have to be so hungry of my presense if only we are together." He blurted out all of a sudden.

I was speechless, I don't know what to say. "We already talk about this, didn't we?" I look down avoiding his eyes. I started tearing up. "I'm sorry, I'm just Tired. You know what you can go." I told him, I stand up alŕeady to finish this conversation. I'm so guilty of what he said because I am indeed the reason why Alex has no complete family. Because I'm selfish. Andrei stop me from going. He grabbed my hand and pulled me towards him. "I don't want to go Tara, I want to stay some more." He hugged me hoping it would come up with a different result than the usual nights that he tried the same trick he is doing now. I looked at him, studying his eyes. "I'm sorry Andrei I made this to us." He pet my head and whispered. "You can always changed your mind and keep me. I would love to stay with you and Alex." I pushed him so many times and still he haven't changed at all. I'm ashamed of myself for my past choises and now how can answer this sincerity. I ended up hugging him back. "Stay." That one word paint his face a wide smile. He can't believe my answer. He looked at me to check if I'm serious, tears on his eyes poured down, out of happiness. He showered me with kisses. "I want to shout so bad, but I'm scared I would wake up Alex." He has mixed emotions. He can't believe my decision. " You don't have to shout. You can tell Alex tomorrow when he wakes up." His face is full of excitement thinking about this news for Alex. He kissed me more deeply. He is pressing his face on my face, suddenly my backgound is like rotating around the two of us like in movies. I drag him up to my room.