Chapter 18

Fang Sanctuary

Another week had passed until I finally felt my body controlled by me. I slowly opened my eyes the moment I felt my hand moving. I sat on my bed while holding my head. I felt my head breaking into half. Fvck!

"Are you okay?" I heard Zarviel's voice hovered. She was holding a glass of water in her hand and a medicine on the other. I glanced at her, then gripped at my hair. Damn it! "Here... take it," she uttered as she hand me the medicine and the water in her hand. I weakly raised my hand, and got what she've been handing me. I instantly took it into my mouth as I drank the water she gave.

"Thank you," I responded weakly. Still feeling the pang creeping at my skull. She smiled. We got silence in between us. I lay down once again and looked away from her.

"Don't you have something to say?" I uttered with a hoarse voice. My body felt like too heavy, it even felt like I was carrying a very heavy burden. I just felt like too work up.

"Alice, w-what are you talking about?" She implied with her tensed voice. I lookd at her directly in the eyes but she looked away. The side of my lips rose, sarcastically at her.

"You're lying right infront of my face, aren't you?" I stated with full of bitterness and anger inside me, despite that my voice were just calm.

"H-Huh? Haha! What are you talking about, Alice?" She responded and even managed to laugh fakely to cover the awkwardness in between us. That made me smile sadly at her.

Why can't she just admit the truth? Why would she lie at me? Doesn't she trust me?

"I wasn't dreaming the moment I saw you with the werewolves and some other vampires, right? I wasn't dreaming when you told me you'll explain everything. I was wide awake. I was there. And, it was real, I know. But... why do you have to lie right infront of me?" I longly said as I diverted my gaze at the window. Why? Why can't she just tell me the truth? Not because my body was sheltering another soul, it doesn't mean that I can distinguish the truth! God knows its true!

"A-Alice..." she uttered yet she can't even add another word on her sentence. Her voice were just left hanging just because she knew, and she can't tell me the truth.

"Is is hard to tell me? To explain it to me? Damn! I just need a bit of your story to somewhat get some answers, Zarviel." I added as tears were continously dripping down at me cheeks. I have never cry infront of someone... but this time, it was just too much to keep.

"I-i'm sorry... but I can't tell you," she replied as she look away again. I nodded as I kept my sob myself.

I just felt betrayed and neglected.

"You know her, right?" I stated while then gazing the ceiling. I can't just met her eyes once more. I don't wan't to show her the emotion that I was keeping inside through my eyes. "Shivana. Shivana Orasaya," I added. I heard her let out a deep sigh. She kept silent, so I was. I thought she wouldn't answer me when it took her too long to respond, but I also have nothing to ask that's more important than that.

"Y-Yes," she replied shortly with her unsure tone. A bitter smile once then HAPPY again at my lips. I harshly wiped my tears away.

"She hate you. No. She despise you... a lot," I uttered as my gaze were still fixed at the ceiling. I heard her gasp. "She was so eager to kill everyone and the descendants of those who hurt her. She was getting stronger and stronger as day continue to pass. And that woman was indeed right... because there were no space of forgiveness in her heart." I added as I wiped my tears once again. She remained silent, and that was when I decided to tell her about her.

"Alice... c-can't you help her to find the forgiveness inside her?" She desperately said, as she was trying to stop her hands from trembling. I looked away at her once again. I've known her for a short period of time...but despite that, I was at ease at her mere presence. I was close to treating her as my family. I badly want to help her... but I can't. It's not about me, it's about the vengeful soul and her painful past.

"Forgiveness is not something you can just look and ask. It should not be given forecefully. And, I can't interfere with her own feelings... because, it is hers. It may not be right for her to held a hatred for a very long time, but... everyone's feeling is valid. And, maybe she just felt too much pain." I responded sadly at her. I gazed back at her and saw her nodding while her head was bowed down, gazing her feet.

"I stayed alive for a very long time despite the feeling of wanting to give up because... I want to somewhat put my soul and conscience to peace. I was adamant that she'd comeback, but I was not ready for her fury. I thought she had reigncarnated and thought of forgiving those who had hurt her, but I was wrong. We are all wrong." She uttered as her voice were full of agony.

I felt something inside me that made my knuckles fisted with the sudden anger building inside me.

'Here comes the traitor,' My eyes widen when Shivana's voice hovered. I instantly panicked and was about to warn her but my mouth couldn't even utter a single word.

'Don't try to fight againts me if you don't want me to wreck you too. I let you slip last time, but I'll never forgive you the moment she'll escape again. Stop even tring 'cause you can't save them from the vengeance i'll bring,' she added in a very serious and threthening voice.

"And do you think I am that weak?" Shivana was then controlling me at that moment.

"Sh-Shivana...?" Zarviel uttered, she looked surprised yet there was a delightment lingering at her eyes.

"Zarviel," Shivana uttered as her voice were cold and bitter.

"Sh-Shivana!" She exclaimed.

Shivana didn't respond. My eyes suddenly widen in friction when Zarviel suddenly flew and hit her back againts the wall. The impact was so strong that the wall cracked.

"Taste the tip of my anger," Shivan uttered. And, that was when I saw myself, right infront of her... choking her to death.

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