Chapter 30

Fang Sanctuary

My mind went fuzzy every single second passed. It become more chaotic, and simply a complete mess. It was hard to pretend that everything were going right, and simply right and normal, it was too damn hard to pretend!

Years had passed and I decided to go and live overseas. I did every possible things to avoid everyone that was related to my world. I cutted them off. I was relentless of cutting them off. The truth terrified me.

Years had passed and I was living overseas, I encountered several being like me. And, just like me, they try getting off or mending some ill-fated relationship by just vanishing.

I tried living as silent as I could, but I am always aware of where does everything bound to. They'll came back or the memories that hunt them at night will turn into a moment of feeling the last breath.

At the age of 35, I felt like I am lost in a lawny forest, probably... or in a very huge crowd. I was just continuously walking without any destination in mind. I'm afraid to have a sanctuary.

"How have you been?" I asked as I sat down infront of someone I bumped today. I was plastering a smile yet he wasn't seem to be please by having me at his sight. Those cold stares could tell.

He scoffed and shook his head.

"I've gotten much better now." He replied. I smiled at him and nodded as my heart were beating nervously as his gaze ran from my forehead down to my lips.

"Good to hear that!" I implied. He didn't respond and just took a good look at me. I smiled and raised my right brow at him. "It is nice seeing you today, living well." He added. I nodded at him, agreeing. He plastered a faint smile. " I'll get going now." He then said and stood up. My reflexes went alive, and without hesitation... held his wrist as he turned his back.

I was biting my lower lip when I heard him sighed heavily.

"What?" He asked as he breath out, still not facing me.

"You're leaving?" I uttered. Disappointment was probably lingering at my voice. He nodded.

"Why? Does staying here still have a purpose?" He implied as he took off my fingers at his wrist.

"Valix!" I demanded.

"I wanted to invade your thoughts but, I won't. It was hard to pick up myself after every breakdowns I had, Alice." He said with a very cold tone.

A-Alice?

"W-what?"

"I am not the Nicolas nor the Valix you get to know, Alice. Years had passed, and the pain was just too much. The longings were just too powerful, and the agony was just so harsh... It crushed me, little by little... until I just felt myself getting swayed by the wind."

"What are you talking about?" I asked with a tone, almost like whisper. And, that was when he looked back at me. He plastered at bitter smile as he looked at my eyes.

"Shivana, I am now under someone's bewitchment. And, I can't do anything to safe you. I can do anything, neither you. The fate wouldn't let us." He said.

"What?!"

"From now on, I am drawing a line between us." And, from that, a bloody red thin line marked in between us. I instantly felt the burn at my arm that made me let his wrist go. "I, Nicolos, now accepting the fate. I'd never interfere everything that will happen. I'd never stop it. I am now accepting the Divinity's decision. " He added. I stood up and within a span of seconds, my palm landed at his. I couldn't feel the burning at my arm, rather than, I felt the burning emotions inside me.

I'd didn't get to know that I was able to cry in public. Because, at that day, I cried endlessly.

"How dare you!" I screamed. I wanted to unleash my anger but I can't. I was then so determine to strike a lightning to where he was standing. I wanted to sip his blood. I wanted his heart to turn into a stone.

"Maybe, this will mend the ill-fated destiny that we have, Shivana. We ran away from everything but we can't forever run from it. We will someday meet it."

"I know," I responded.

"Then, you already know what am I trying to do. Beings that wanted you dead was been searching for a long time. I we both be in the same room, they'd be able to detect us. They'll forever come for us."

"Why are you being like this, Valix?! Why are you being such a coward!" I screamed as I was hitting his chest.

"Shivana, neither of us were brave. You ran away and went overseas to hide from us, because you were avoiding what was fated. Either, I didn't looked after you. I was terrified. I was wrecked. No, I was completely destroyed by the havoc. I can't stand for you, to be remembered as an Evil Blooded Vampire Witch. I can't stand for you to get swear by our descendants. I can't stand for your name to be tainted as bloody and evil. I can't stand for it, not of it. I am a coward for being afraid of having you as the ruler with the terrifying history. I am a coward for the day that will come, that the Queen will be executed by the hands of the being who doesn't really know her core. I'm afraid of everything about you."

With those words, I felt like my heart was then sinking in the wide and deep ocean. It felt like my heart was getting pierced with millions of needles. And, it felt like someone did just made it a stone.

"Valix, I ran away because there were memories I needed to regain! Damn it! I cutted all the ties because it'll just lead me to confusion! Valix! I wasn't avoiding you!" I desperately said.

"Shivana, you did just lie." He whispered.

"What happened to you?" I responded with a very week tone.

"I have gone wondering too much, and gone farther than I was expecting. I lived a long life but it never gave me the happiness, and it continuously torture me after leaving our world. Shivana, I had gone enough, right? I did my best. I did everything... yet, all of those kept on falling. And, I was wondering... where did I got wrong?" He asked. Tears pooled down at my cheeks as I saw his eyes moistened.

"No. You never gone wrong. Everything was all good, Nicolas---"

"If it does, why do I feel like I am such a complete loser? "

"No! Don't say that," I uttered yet he shook his head in disagreement.

"We can fight againts the Legend, but we could never fight againts fate. One day... maybe on our other life, we'll be in a good situation. And, we our souls get reincarnated, I'd be looking for you... by the guidance of our moon."

"No..."

"Shivana," he called out. I shook my head at him.

"No, please." I begged. The thing that I couldn't imagine doing.

"In this lifetime, Let our world be divided into halves, with a complete different path..." he said, and with that, I just found myself at the coffee shop, sitting alone with tears booming down my cheeks.

He draw the line.

If fate was indeed cruel, how would he call himself?

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