We can't do this

*Saphira's POV*

"But you love me," I persisted. Benjamin looked pained. 

"You know that I do, but all that is irrelevant…" he told me. "I am mean… sweetheart listen… I… " Benjamin sighed.

"I truly believed that you were with Zach… that you kissed him then… Evangeline, you know that I could not have you, if you belonged to whomever…" he said. I knew he wanted a woman completely to himself. 

"But I am yours… I have always been yours… I do not want to be anyone else's… You do realize that it is inevitable right… That I marry someone else," I said again, trying to get through to him.

"I belong to you," I said as I placed his hand on my lips. His breathing became shallow and he leaned in. 

Just before his lips touched mine, he pulled back. "We can not do this Saph," he almost cried. "I promised her," he said. His eyes seemed wary. I remembered how he looked when I found him… stinking in bed. He was completely lost.