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Subconsciously, I feel my hands keep robbing were the stone is in my jacket pocket as Tyler and I walk around

It was round and extremely smooth to feel, but really cold, gave me shivers everytime I touched it...

Though we keep on playing other games, the ones that Tyler kept losing in anyway, a feeling of being watched creeped over me from different angles.

Like, everyone in the carnival, was looking out for just me.

And it oddly felt like Kim so much that I could not take it anymore "Ty, let's leave"

"Huh?" He asks, taking his head away from the target he had been trying to shoot for the past five minutes "Can you just wait like a minute? We can't leave here without me presenting my girl with a new gift. That'd be wrong"

I roll my eyes "You've failed at literally everything. If you want to get me a gift so bad, go to the town mall and get it without sucking at it"

He made a hurt sound "Well, guess who's not getting a teddy bear because she's being the world's most horrible girlfriend right now"

"I'm serious Ty" I say, still looking around "I don't feel okay"

As if that wakes him up, he drops the gun down and begins to lead me out of the booth "I swear if that woman did something to you....."

The feeling began to get overwhelming as we walk through the crowds, as if they wanted to snap and snarl their teeth at me but someone.... Or something, was keeping them at bay.

Again, I feel my hands going to the stone in my pocket and I begin to rub it again, feeling a glimmer of peace fill me before we're finally out of the park and sitting on a bench close to the road.

He waits for me to calm down a bit and when he realizes that I'm okay, he says "You good now baby?"

I feel myself blush at the name but it's dark, so gratefully he cannot see it as I say "Yeah"

He sighs "I probably ruined this date today"

I look up at him "No, not really"

"It's shocking how I'm good at throwing balls can't shoot anything" He says with a pout that makes me laugh.

"Well" I say, straightening up "Maybe you're just mean to be gay"

"What?"

"Throwing your guys balls but you can't shoot into a girl...."

"No! Come here!"

He lifts me off the bench and into his laps as I begin to laugh while he's smiling "I'm straighter than a ruler babe"

"Any gay guy hit on you though?"

"I though this was our date, not reveal all your worldly secrets date"

I hear myself giggle as he takes my hand from my laps and begins to trail my fingers with his huge ones, giving them serious concentration as he plays with them "Do you... Um, wanna go home now?"

I hear the sadness in his voice as he continues "It's not... It's not that late, but if you wanna...."

"Tyler"

He slowly looks up at me, as some locks of his hair covers a part of his face and his blue eyes glistening ip with me...

Was it fear?

Pain?

Loneliness?

I did not know to be honest but it irked me that he felt that way so I say "We could um, go to the lake you know"

He raised an eyebrow "It's freezing"

"Yeah I know" I say "Let's go get sick and not go to school tommorows and then FaceTime with our cute red button noses, laughing out our asses"

He chuckles, now carrying my hand to his face.

His sharp jaws feel like knife on my skin, but I like it "Tommorows Sunday baby girl"

Oh.

"But who am I to say no to my Queen if she's up for something" He says, kissing my forehead "Besides I know you'd chicken out first when we get to the lake"

I roll my eyes "You might have all the muscles but I am literally the brave one"

"I like to see action and not hear words, you know?"

"Game on sucker"

*

The lake was surprisingly or maybe not really surprising, hidden away from human eyes.

It was deep in the woods, or not really so deep and we walked through it, a flash of deja vu hit me but I kept on walking ahead, not minding the creepy feeling in ne until we reach the lake.

It glowed under the moonlight, having ripples that rang around but it did not even look the least cold.

"Well, you see Lil....."

I am already taking my clothes off and running into the lake before jumping into it.

I hear Tyler scream my name while I bubble through the waters surface, feeling the cold wash over me and float up, pushing my hair back and blinking out water from my eyes.

He, already looked like he was about to jump in, but apparently not to swim, because with the obvious fear in his eyes, I could tell he was only going in for my sake.

I should have felt that it was sweet that he cared.

I should have felt good enough to see him worry about me.

But it only hurt.

"I wasn't trying to kill myself Ty" I say softly.

He has this pained look on his face as he says "Just come out of there"

I stare at him a while, confused on what to do really, before coming out of the water and into his warm body as his huge hands crush me into his body.

I stay there as he continues hugging me, before he says "Don't do that again"

"Ty....."

"Don't. Please"

I sigh, my hands going to his dry hair and massaging his scalp "No Ty, I won't"

Now, we are both sitted around a fire he made as I lay on his chest with my back, both of us looking at the sky as he plays with my hair "I never got to ask. Why is it black?"

"Just got tired of the whole princess thing" I say with a slight chuckle "A guard back at the rehab used to call me Elsa, and I never really was a fan"

"I miss it. Made me think of marshmallows"

I turn around, my eyes meeting his "Marshmallows?"

"Cause you taste like it" He says, giving me a quick kiss on the lips as he begins to play with it "I.... I never really got to tell you why I.... Kissed Dana..."

I feel my body tense "I forgive you ..."

"No, no listen, I can't.... I can't keep it inside any longer. The guilt is killing me and I know... I know you'd understand... You always do, I love you for that"

"But what if I don't? What if I get mad? What if we break up Ty?"

"Then I deserve whatever punishment given to me"

I sigh, a horrible gut feeling in my stomach as he says "That day... When I had... asked you to um, come along for the party and you didn't... I thought... I thought you just didn't want to be with me anymore but didn't know how to say it....."

"Ty..."

"No listen. It was six months. We just began dating then and you.. you hadn't liked me before then, you had suddenly just began to so I thought you had really thought about it and you didn't want me.... Coupled with the fact that you hadn't told me you were not okay and tried to.... Tried to...."

I turn around.

Tyler's face is clenched, his hands too as he looks down and I can see tears threatening to fall "I haven't felt more useless in my life... Duck, I thought... I just wanted you to love me. I was so scared, and I.... Dana was the only one that truly understood how I felt and we were having an emotional moment and it just happened and I'm so sorry, but I don't like Dana, I love you, I really do, its too much sometimes and it scares me but I love you I swear....."

I wrap my hands around him as he does so too, crying softly in my hair as he says "Please. Don't let go"

I feel tears in my own eyes as I say "I won't. I promise"

When it was getting really late, I told Ty that I didn't want to go home.

The whole idea of knowing that Kim could be watching me creeped in again... and it wasn't pleasant.

He argued about the fact that my Father would kill him but I just ignored that.

So we spent the night, in his room, me wearing his T shirt as he spooned me from behind.

And for the first time, I only see a glimpse of Kim, sitting outside his house before I enter the first dreamless sleep in a long while