Love.

On the 13th of January 1974.

After I spent so many months seeing Kate each while, I started building some love for her, I didn't want to tell the crew about it but it was too clear to hide it, since they saw me one day with her before we leave the port.

Jason kept asking me about her whenever he got the chance to do so, he was asking me when we were eating, cleaning, fishing and before going to bed, I kept denying all of his words until one day he went too far when he said with a stupid smile

- She has a sexy body, doesn't she?! My friend Walter!

That pissed me off while we were eating, I just looked straight at his eyes and said with an angry tone

- Do not talk about her like that!

And he started to laugh with the whole crew, they laughed so hard that Jake couldn't stay on his seat and he fell out of it which made the others even laugh more, that is when the whole crew started to seem bad for me, they were always peeking on me by Kate and try to make me angry about that.

When we got back, I wanted to tell Kate how I feel about her, so I asked her to meet me on a Saturday's afternoon at a coffeeshop to drink a cup of tea and discuss how I feel about her, so after she said yes for the date, I went home met my parents and my sister that has just gotten the marks of her 1st semester of her last year at the primary school. I bought my sister a teddy bear because she did well on her studies.

My mother was very happy that I bought my sister such a gift and my dad was even happier, while I was having dinner with my parents, I brought out the Kate thing, my mother seemed very interested while my father was only telling jokes, after I told miss Cosmos about Kate in details, she started to seem a bit concerned and she said to me with a clear intention of worries

- Be careful my son, do not let anything hurt you or change you to someone you are not!

I didn't pay that sentence a lot of attention at that moment I just said

- Yes, Mother, I won't let anything to change me!

So, on Saturday I wore a very cool outfit, a black pants, a white shirt, and a brown vest with a dark brown shoe, I went to the barber and took a very serious shower that morning, then I headed to the coffeeshop.

I was there at 03:35 p.m. while I agreed with Kate to meet at 4 p.m. I sat there and started thinking about how to talk to her, I was thinking about the ways to start talking about that.

- How should I tell her?

- Hey, how was your day? And the past month? I love you?

- No that won't work.

- I should tell her how I feel after we finish talking! That's the plan.

- I mean it would be better.

Exactly at 3:56 p.m. Kate arrived and she looked just beautiful, she wore a red dress with dark red high heels, she didn't put too much make up but looked great, and everyone at the coffee shop looked at her the moment she entered she didn't look at anyone except me, and she walked towards me and kissed me on the cheek when I stood up and she sat down, we ordered some drinks and talked for over 45 minutes and then she said to me while she was trying to sniff from her juice drink

- I really enjoy talking to you, you know!

That sentence shook me and made me think about telling her about how I feel towards her, I put my cup down on the table fixed my seating position and started talking while rubbing my fingers with each other

- You know, I have been thinking about us for a while now, we have been seeing each other for a while and I really enjoy being with you, and somehow, I think that I love you!

Out of the nowhere Kate's facial expression changed from a bright smile to a dark shocking look, she seemed surprised by what I said to her and she just stared at me for 30 seconds without saying anything then she said while she was avoiding eye-contact with me

- I am really sorry but I don't think that we can be together, I can't be with someone that I will see only once a month, you are a really nice guy but I can't and I want for my children to have a bright future, I hope that you don't get me wrong.

That felt like a bunch of small tiny knives hit me in the heart at once, I didn't know what to do or what to say, I just looked at her and left the coffee shop, she tried to talk to me but I didn't even listen to her, I just walked out and didn't stop walking until I reached the a small park that didn't have any people in it, I sat on an old chair and started crying, that one rejection brought me back all the painful moments of my whole life at once, I cried for over 10 minutes then I walked back home and told my parents that she rejected me but I acted as if I was super fine just to make aunt Jessica relaxed and comfortable.