my wedding dress?

We were told to sit by the staffs because our appointment still has some time, after few minutes I saw Mrs. Yoon and to my surprise Jihoon was with her too, I was shocked but I can't show my emotions like this, I got up and bowed to her. "I brought him along with me, he said he could fill up an absence and these two also need to talk a bit so, we can leave them alone after lunch? How does that sound Erica?" I was trying to process bit by bit, what do we need to talk to eachother, is there anything I need to know about him? is there anything I need to share with him? but this is all, formality. I nodded putting up a smile, "Sounds good to me" I said and staffs came to inform us that we can try out dresses.

After checking out 4 dresses, one dress caught my attention, it's my dream dress. The dress I always wanted to wear on my wedding with seungcheol, it's that dress, once I showed him; would I do justice to him by wearing this on my wedding but without him? unconsciously, my hands chose that dress, I went to the changing room and tried changing into it, I clearly remember how he wanted me to try wedding dresses for him, according to him I looked pretty, i realized now that, my life has been bonded with him in each and everything, now his sweetest memories are hurting now, it hurts more that I realize that I left him and he is no more mine and I am no more his, that's how our story ended. And that's when I broke down, I was sitting and crying, tears were falling nonstop I missed him so much, so much I just couldn't accept the fact he is not with me. My sobs got louder, I was getting weak, I couldn't get weak; I am not supposed to get weak, not right now when everyone is with me. I heard a staff knocking and coming inside. She saw me and got worried; she was about to call someone but I stopped her, she came to me and hugged me tight.

"miss, it's okay don't cry"

I hugged her tight, I just needed a hug and I wanted to cry more, all the tears I was holding since morning. I wanted to let go of everything, I couldn't careless about anything right now anymore. It was getting painful, she helped me stand up again.

"Let me fix up your face, I don't think you would like to go out with a crying face, wearing this beautiful dress." She wiped my tears as if she was my friend. She made me face the mirror and fixed my face, which didn't look like I was crying.

"Now try to smile" I forced smile, "You look pretty" she smiled at me

"I don't know what's wrong but everyone outside look so happy and good, hope you will be okay soon, and be happy" I tried to smile and went out with her, three of them were complimenting me, I smiled at them. "I want this dress." I told them they were happy.

"Erica, looks so beautiful, isn't she Jihoon?"

"Yes, she looks so pretty indeed." He complimented me, while rubbing his nape. He looked shy, how would've seungcheol reacted instead of him?

Should I let him go, without holding him tight? Memories can keep me alive, but I need to let go of seungcheol first, I heaved a sigh and instantly smiled at them, without letting them notice anything.

Soon after this we went for lunch. After lunch, mum said she will go home and I can keep my car and since Jihoon's family driver came so, they insisted to drop mom and told me and Jihoon can go anywhere. I took him to my car, I wanted to drive but he insisted to drive my car. It's always me or else Seungcheol who drove my car before, times when we party outside and in case I take my car, he is the one who drives me home. He spoiled me a lot, all these years; i came to know how it feels to be babied and taken care of. I let Jihoon drive the car, since me and him were alone in the car, there was only silence.

I wanted to play music, I pressed play button and played another playlist. It was a calm playlist, my favorite. 'fall in love~'

"you like this type of music?" he broke the silence. I nodded and it brought back memories, even my playlist are about him. I made this playlist for him, and he loved it when I said, I wanted to fall in love with songs and him.

"Yes, these songs have lots of memories, this playlist have my heart" I smiled at him.

"I like this playlist a lot, Erica" he smiled

"Thankyou but where are we going?"

"Actually, I wanted you to meet my cousin, he is my closest brother, we are of same age. He wanted to see you but I didn't even tell your name and wanted him to meet you straight. Are you okay with it? I'm sorry I didn't ask you earlier." He apologized

"It's okay, you don't have to apologize and since it's your closest cousin I should meet him too." I smiled. If only meeting new person can take my mind off seungcheol, I am fine.

After sometime we arrived at a café, he parked the car and gave me the car, we entered the café and went inside. We took our seat,

"What do you want to order?" he asked

"Cappuccino would be fine for me"

"Okay"

"Let your brother come and we can order" he nodded and smiled

"He should be here by now, but Erica, I noticed we never talked and I don't even have your number. Is it okay if we exchange our numbers?" I was surprised how straightforward he is. I was hesitant to give my number but eventually we have to exchange our numbers because we will be married soon, real soon.

"Sure" I typed out my number on his phone.

I saw someone entering, and my heart almost came out, my eyes could explain how surprised I was, it was Yoon Jeonghan, Seungcheol's bestfriend.