The real intention

I was thinking about how am I going to bring out the topic of Marjorie's suicide to my friends. We have been avoiding this issue during dinner. Maybe we sit outside, enjoy fresh the air and relax. Then discuss the matter of Marjorie.

So I told my friends to let go and sit on the terrace. It is relaxing there. It overlooks my mom's herb and vegetable garden. My friends gladly agreed. We sit in the wooden chair with and a small table in front of us. I asked them if they want some fruit tea or green tea and they refused. Then I blurted out. Marjorie slashed her wrist yesterday and the reason I invited you for dinner is I want to talk about it. Angel and Victoria look at me and said we know. I didn't visit her yet Angel said. Me too Victoria added. Let us visit her tomorrow as a group. It will make her feel better than we are giving her some sort of support. Please don't ever condemn or blame her for this mistake. We don't want to add in her misery as this is a sad event in her life and our life too. Since this happened already. Let us look forward to the best.

Victoria said " until now I can't seem to understand why she did it, that is why I didn't visit her in the hospital. I feel so angry with her. I hard try to think why end her life? She almost got everything. She has good grades, always wins in those talent competitions. Her family lives in a big house in an exclusive subdivision and has owned expensive high-tech cars. His dad is a CEO and her mom is a socialite with her own real estate company.

I know, I sound jealous and selfish of me to think about this but I'm also her friend and we are always her support. I don't understand why she never told us that she has a big problem that causes her to commit suicide. I feel the same too and I perceive that she does not trust me at all Angel express in his dejected voice. I also feel the same guys and I even keep blaming myself. I was not sensitive enough to see what she was going through. I only knew today that it is all about her mother. I never expected her mom to be narcissistic. I watch a short video on YouTube before and the way Marjorie described her mom fits the description of a narcissistic person. According to YouTubers, it is hard to deal with this kind of personality because they are not aware that they are narcissistic.

I am going to get my laptop and let's watch the video again. So I run to my room and grab my laptop and hurriedly bring it to the veranda and place it on the wooden table. I went to YouTube and search for narcissistic behavior. Then we silently watch the video. After the video ended. I said "I never seen her mom behaving like the person in the video " Me too Angel and Victoria added. Maybe we did not observe it because we didn't interact with Marjorie's mom. Mostly we just greet her than when we hang out in Marjorie's room.

I think I should stop diagnosing Marjorie's mom I blurted. Yes, you should doctor Phil Angel said in his naughty voice. Victoria chuckle and said sometimes we overthink stuff. We are not professional to make diagnoses. Let us plan how to cheer up Marjorie and make her comfortable with us. This suicide thing can strain our friendship. Yes, you are right Victoria I added. Tomorrow I am going to ask my mom to make me a big size Tiramisu to bring to the hospital. Marjorie loved my mom's Tiramisu. That is an excellent idea. Please include me as well Angel added. Yes me too I want your mom's Tiramisu Victoria exclaimed. Ok, I will tell my mom that you two practically drool and beg me for her Tiramisu I laugh.

Guys do you want to watch more videos about narcissistic mothers I asked? Yes sure let's see how worst it can get Angel said with irony in his voice. Ok, do you want potato chips or popcorn with them I asked them? I want potato chips sour cream flavor Angel said. Me too Victoria added. Yeah me three as well.

I run to the kitchen and see if my mom bought me this delectable junk that I added to her grocery list. My mother allowed me to eat potato chips once a week usually at weekends and she knows that my favorite flavor is sour cream. She usually bought me one big bag for the weekend. Yes!!!! my mom loves me I exclaimed to myself when I saw my favorite junk is inside the cupboard. I seized it and went to open the ref and saw we run out of cola. So I decided to take the bottle of water will do instead. Then went back to my friends and sat in the chair where I sat earlier. Then I played the video. Angel suddenly grab the chips and said thank you Mardin for the chips. Your welcome but it's the only one I have so we shared I said.

And so three teenagers watch the narcissistic videos with urgent concentration until they got so full with it that they think they are going vomit.

Angel said in his I have enough voice "I think I'm going crazy watching these videos. I started to think I may have the personality" and added Look at me I am full of myself, I am so beautiful, I don't care about you and it's all about me and if you don't give me attention all the time we're not friends anymore and he laugh like an insane person. I and Victoria also laugh like a deranged person.

Ok, it's getting late guys time for you two to abandon me and I see both of your beautiful faces tomorrow. Remember 4 pm at Saint Ann hospital main door doesn't be late. OK see you tomorrow Mardin Angel and Victoria replied. I walked my friends to the front door and bade them goodbyes.