#Another Step

What's my next step? Where should I start?

Doing what you think is best. Going ahead with something you not sure about and would definitely have doubts when you reach half way through. Why? Waking up every morning all exhausted getting ready to go to work and spend your entire day doing something you're not sure about. Like I said earlier based on what I'm writing there is no judging or any hating on your beliefs or what you think is right. But when this part comes about 'doing something you're not sure about' you tends to have all the focus and struggles on God. Oh God is going to find a way; God is going to help and he's going to show me a way. If I'm being honest with you, me myself depends on the Big man up there (God) and then gets confused on why nothing good happening or coming my way then says, "Oh maybe he has favorites". Which in I'm wrong, but I mean come on I'm pretty sure I'm not the only one be having these same thoughts! I stuck focusing more on reality but keeps imagining the fantasy. And maybe that could be one the reason why I wasted the first chance I had. I be thinking there's no way I could be able to do something better for myself. I mean why not? Just because I'm a small country girl there's no chance for me to become a better version of myself and open doors for others? Who can stop me? The ones that are already big and have a lot of fame? Everyone deserves a fare chance. A chance to do what they love, a chance to become what they want to and a chance to start over.....

Which I'm sure we all know that but who am I to come here now and say something we all know about already? Maybe because it was never put out there? Or its a daily suffering?