Chapter 16: #  What happened?

What happened? Been a great while since I've given up on pretty much everything. Complications, dramas, life itself made me feel stuck like there's nothing to do or nothing left to do. Just been work home work home like it's a repeat process for not just me but for the majority of you that are even reading this. I started doing something that I really wanted to do in life and I couldn't compete because I felt like I didn't want to do that anymore. I mean it can't be only me who feels this way right? Anybody can be a writer and just create their own story but the question is what to write? How can I truly express the way I'm feeling into words?

Sometimes your body will feel drained and not wanting to do anything, just lying there hopeless feeling sorry for yourself of what you got to do and what you want to do. It's a struggle, a daily struggle, the feeling of being useless with not knowing any talent of your own while you just watch others be and do what they can. And that my friend is what breaks you and just gives you a reason to just give up. I know what it's like. Got other people waiting for you at the finish line, some with happy faces while some with selfish ones. You can't dictate what's for you and what's not. Just keep pushing, you'll get there maybe it'll take 1 year or 2 or 10 year from now just don't stop. Sometimes you read and be like, why am i just repeating one thing over and over in the chapters but i truly just write what comes to mind with just listening to music and being isolated. Be the butterfly of your own kind. Life is beautiful, just got to open up and be yourself, if not to anyone but to nature. Feel free and release and express your problems into the waves of the ocean, watch it go up and down as the water flows. Sunset, moon, music, ocean and nature gives you calmness and relaxation if not to you but in my case it does.