Human nature by Sophia Miller. [Sophia Miller]

The world itself is disgusting.

Many times during my free time I mentally projected the image of my ideal place.

But I never knew when.

From my day to day.

That young man was going to intrude so deeply into my heart.

I'll tell my story, so this may take some time.

This is my story before getting involved in all the twisted life shit I have now.

Here are the words that started it all.

─It's not... like I like someone other than you. After weighing these feelings, I think it would not be a bad thing to be your partner.

The zeroth Nicholas Hawk, the first of all, the original of himself, one that I have not seen since in my vast life of repetitions. He was the one who said that.

It was Christmas, in that year several things had happened in which we were involved and we voluntarily opened up to each other.

Soon we would be high school graduates and then we would be in college.

Back then, the zeroth version of me, Sophia Miller, the first of all, the original, one that I ceased to be a long time ago because of my vast life of repetitions. I was not at all what I am now.

Before I was much more reserved and I did not even like being in large groups. I don't know when I lost that. Maybe when the remnants started to affect me from that timeline even before the start date of the loop.

And it seems that with that change out of the loop, there was a butterfly effect that influenced other people equally. Both Nick, and everyone who was close to me.

Details without relevance.

─Nick... I, uh, uh... -. I started to stutter hearing his words.

In the midst of so many people, Nick declared himself to me in a low voice. As the snow fell on his hair and wet it, the two of us looked at each other. I was embarrassed by all of this.

I remember telling her earlier that we weren't going to do romantic nonsense. Not on a day like today.

Because of course...

I was going to give in.

We put our hands together. I notice that Nick's hands are much warmer, or is mine too cold? I-I don't know.

The gaze of the zeroth Nicholas completely penetrated my defenses. It was not until that moment that I experienced what love was. For the first time, I felt what it felt like to make my heart beat like crazy while I was around a person I like.

My heart won't race, will it?

It's not going to give me a heart attack, is it?

My worries at the time were such trivial things, I remember.

He was the first to approach... Or was it me?

Maybe caught by the environment I have involuntarily directed myself in his direction, searching for the other person's lips, wanting to learn the taste of a kiss.

The distance from our faces was reduced to 5cm. With Nicholas so close to me, I felt the involuntary need to close my eyes. I pulled my lips out slightly, making the face of a kiss (or an attempt at it), waiting for him.

But then, my breathing was obstructed.

Ngh...

Wait, that's not a kiss!

─Pfft! Ha ha! You really are innocent, Sophia! I like you, but we are still several steps before we reach the kiss, you know?

I opened my eyes and the first thing I found was a Nick laughing out loud as he made fun of me.

!

I was disenchanted as fast as I fell in love! Wait, why are you laughing like that?!

I, uh...

I thought my first kiss...

─... you're... an idiot... -. I say in a brittle voice.

─Ah... -. Nick stops laughing from him then.

I pull my face away from him and push him away from me. I feel the corners of my eyes heat up and the formation of tears there.

How could I swallow that?

It's Nicholas Hawk we're talking about.

This guy wouldn't kiss someone right off the bat. But he came so close to doing it... that I thought...

─Ow, hey... That hurts! -. Nick exclaims sadly.

I had started hitting he on the chest to get rid of this stupid feeling. I was so ashamed of myself that I wanted to vent to me in any way, no matter how weak.

Nick will say it hurts and everything, but he doesn't back away.

He has always played with me like that. But I still couldn't get mad at him.

After all.

I became Nicholas Hawk's girlfriend that day. My social status grew a bit and my general opinion of myself improved considerably, why not? I also like Nicholas, of course he would have more confidence in myself.

Although at first I only thought that he was joking with his statement, little by little our feelings were piling up like mountains of snow, to the point where we became dependent on each other and were unable to live without the other.

But that ended as quickly as it started.

Because.

I...

I died.